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She even had a better car than me, I hate her, I hate her so damn much. And now... I find she's also the writer of my favorite books! Fuck this! Fuck everyone, I hate my damn life. "Why did it have to be you? Out of the millions of people in this whole fucking world, why did it have to be you? You know how much I despise you? It wasn't enough for you to come back to town and steal Logan, and my friends, my lifestyle, now you have to steal my joy for reading? I hate you, Sophie Patterson. I fucking hate you!" I yelled my lungs out, unaware cameras were rolling, filming, and snapping pictures of me and Sophie.

Finally the voices start to fade away. Dr Ann said it was all in my imagination that people don’t actually despise me. That they had their own problems to worry about and “wouldn’t waste so much of their thoughts on you” but I was right. I was right all along. Everyone hates me….everyone hates me….everyone hates me…everyone hates me…everyone hates me… everyone hates me… everyone hates me… everyone hates me.

“I don’t need this right now! I don’t need you to fix everything!” And then I run. I bolt up the stairs, slam my door shut behind me, and collapse on the floor, the sobs tearing out of me before I can stop them. I cry like I’m breaking apart, like my body can’t contain the pain anymore. Everything hurts. My chest, my head, my fucking soul. I hate myself. I hate that I pushed Millie away. I hate that I hurt my mom. I hate that I’m a coward, that I always run, that I can’t stand up for myself or anyone I love.

I blamed myself; I opened up to the worst person ever. Do you want to know the worst thing? I was contemplating his proposition, and I hated myself for that.

A distraction between board meetings and whatever lies he told his mistress? I pulled my knees to my chest and sobbed harder. “I hate you,” I whispered into the steam. “I hate you, Stephano Maddens.” And I meant it. But I hated myself more. For letting him in. For making room for a monster. For thinking, even for one stupid, fleeting second, that maybe I was something more than his dirty little secret. Maybe I was something worth loving. God. What a joke. **** The next morning, I woke up to the weight of myself. Heavy. Everywhere. My arms. My legs. My chest. Even my fucking eyelids.

She hated herself for never being enough. She hated that she could never be Mia. She hated that she could never be as beautiful as she was. She hated that she had brown hair instead of platinum blond. She hated that she had a smaller chest where Mia always had hers on full display. She hated her wider hips. She hated everything about herself, because she knew he would never be happy with what she pathetically offered. “I just wanted you to see me,” she whispered in devastation. “I-I just wanted you to…” she trailed off shaking her head. Her entire body shook, quaking at the emotions rising within her. “I just want to be close to you--”

"I’m just a coward." The admission burned, searing through me like acid. I hated myself for it. Hated that I had let fear rule me. Hated that I had let my father’s hatred, his bigotry, his cold ambition dictate my life. Hated that I had chosen power over love. Over him.

I hated giving anyone proof that I was weak, and most of all, I hated that Sylas was the one seeing me like this. "I hate myself," I finally admitted. The words came out small and shaky, but once I said them, I couldn't stop. "You have no idea how much. I hate the way I think. I hate the things I say. I hate how I hurt people and then act like I didn't mean to. Maybe I didn't mean to, but I still did it. That doesn't change anything." My tears slipped down my cheeks and disappeared against my arms.

I hated that sound of it, I find it just mesmerizing by it which I also find disgusting. I should hate him! I should hate everything about him! His lips! His mouth! His face! His body! His voice! Everything that makes him him, make him who he is! I should hate him but I don't understand myself sometimes. It does my bidding sometimes and doesn't even listen to me at times.

Mikaela POV I hummed while I took my bath in my bathroom obviously I am so happy and excited since it's my first of college today. The day that I anticipated so much has finally began and I can't wait to go school. I just hope that I don't have do deal some annoying classmates.