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A complicated, brilliant, infuriatingly compassionate person who was systematically dismantling my carefully constructed understanding of myself.
"You're staring," Eli said without looking up from his laptop during our Monday morning production review.
"I'm not," I said, which was a lie. I was definitely staring. I'd been staring for approximately forty-five seconds while watching him make notes in a way that was completely focused and somehow magnetic.
"You are," Eli said, finally looking at me. "Every time you think I'm not paying attention, you look at me like you're trying to figure out how I work."
"I'm not," I said again, because I didn't know how to admit that I was actually trying to