Because This Is My First Life Novels & Stories

She got up and gave me a hug. "It's all over. Live for yourself from now on." It was something so simple, even an outsider understood. And yet, it had taken me six whole years to finally wake up. Fortunately, it still wasn't too late.

For the first time in my life, I had one. For the first time, I was free. And this time, no one would ever take that from me again. The End. ⸻

-Jacob- The crisp and fresh scent of the air, the steaming coffee and the peaceful afternoon, nothing I could imagine to be felt so divine before. Just few months ago, I kept questioning myself, constantly. What's the reason for my existence, the reason for my hard working or the reason being so patient with my parents who never valued me as a person. What's the reason for me to stay alive even after knowing I am different than others? What's the point of living even after everything? All those questions I have kept repeating in my head until I saw her. The first thing I felt inside was - It was worth of living.

“Then we build a new life. Just you and me.” And for the first time in a long time, I believe it might be possible.

"Because for the first time in five centuries of existence, you have managed to understand that there are worlds beyond this. That there are lives that also deserve peace. That the bad exists so that the good is always good. Because if you live, I will also live, even if I'm just a tiny part of your soul.” "What are you, anyway? "I asked, completely confused. "I'm your receiver, everyone says the same thing, but I don't even know what that means. I didn't even have any choice about living this life or not. How can I change a story if I don't even know that story?”

I blurted out, revealing something I shouldn't have told. Lilith's brows furrowed, and her eyes narrowed to seek more truth. "What do you mean by before?" A sigh escaped my lips, knowing it was time to reveal everything. "There's something I haven't told you. I know you might not believe this, but this life is my second life. The first one, I guess, failed because I died, and then I traveled back in this year." Her mouth opened, eyes rounding as shock plastered on her expression. "You mean you were reborn?"

Life. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to just exist. Not to survive. Not to endure. Just to exist. And for the first time, I let myself believe that maybe, just maybe, this could be my life. Not the running. Not the fear. Not the pain. Just this. Him. Us. It was a fragile hope. But it was real. And it was mine.

The air is heavy with smoke. I realise that I cannot escape this hell. I feel fear and hopelessness for the first time in my life.

And for the first time in my life, I wasn’t sure if I was standing in front of a man… or the beginning of something I was never supposed to survive.

The shockwave blew out the remaining windows of the fortress, sending shards of glass flying like diamonds in the dark. ​We were locked in a stalemate, our blades hissing as the energies fought to consume each other. ​"Look at yourself," she hissed, her face inches from mine. "You're bleeding. You're trembling. You're human. I am the First Life. I am the pure extraction. I don't need a Shield. I don't need a Doctor. I am the End." ​"You're a tool," I spat, blood bubbling at the corner of my mouth. "Silas made you to be a battery. He made me to be a person."