Novel & Cerita Blaming Myself

I couldn’t let him get into trouble for something that was my fault—yes, I have been blaming myself for years now—it was my fault. Maybe if I weren’t so cute or handsome, I wouldn’t have gone through that, so yes, I have been blaming myself until now. I wasn’t lying when I said she’s perfect. She makes me forget all of my worries, and when I started telling her about this, I didn’t feel like my skin was burning or that I was suffocating and couldn’t breathe.

The weight of my own failure crushed me, and I couldn't bear to look at her peaceful face, knowing I had failed her. I blamed myself for not being strong enough, not being quick enough. I blamed myself for not saving her, for not saving all of them. They trusted me, they believed in me, and I let them down. My mind was a whirlwind of regrets and what-ifs. I replayed every moment in my head, searching for any sign that I could have done somethibg differently. But it was all in vain, and I was left with the bitter truth that I couldn't change what had happened.

I stood up abruptly while she was still talking, and allowed myself to let go and pour out all the rage and misery inside me. "I know that I should blame myself for the mistake of asking you any questions about your countenance, because if I had stayed minding my own rotten business, I would probably be home, or wherever the fuck else! But no! I thought about how I have so many issues and nobody that I feel like I can trust with them, which is why I hold on to my problems so tightly

I was torn and I blamed myself for everything that had happened. Of course, I don't need anyone to tell me that I was the cause of what had happened. I was selfish and I had to pay a price for my negligence. Why should I have left? I continue to ask myself. Because of my selfish interest, I had left my loved ones to groan for me. I had caused them pain.

I rolled my green orbs, I turned around to check if Alice was still standing there, behind me. But she was gone, disappeared into thin air, she would need this time alone and lots more because I was about to hit her. For so many years I had blamed myself for everything. I needed someone to blame, someone to inflict my anger on, to inflict pain on and I found my younger self to do so. Today, I realized that it wasn’t my fault, I wasn’t the one with the issues, I wasn’t the weak one, I wasn’t to blame because it was all her, she was the problem, she was the monster and the cracks started with her.

I wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t. I spend the bus journey fretting, my thoughts spinning like a hamster wheel, running fast but getting nowhere. Blaming myself for getting tangled up with Aiden, blaming myself for not havng treated Holly better, blaming Aiden for not being more grateful that I saved him, blaming Jade for taking Aiden away from me, blaming Aiden for trusting Jade, blaming myself for not being more important to him and blaming myself for getting involved with Aiden in the first place all over again. By the time I get myself to the concert hall I’m pr

she asked, grasping my hands, and turning to face me. “Yes,” I said, in affirmation. From what I experienced over the past couple of years, blaming never did any good. Instead, it occupied people with guilt and more guilt. Then it slowly begun to transform the person into thinking he was worthless. She took a gulp before carrying on with her words.

I blurted before I could stop myself. Perhaps it was the weight of all the past grievances, the countless times I'd been misunderstood and blamed. I lowered my gaze, too tired to argue anymore. It didn't matter. It was always my fault even if I had done nothing.

“These are the consequences of your own actions. I won’t let you drag Jenny down with you! I’ll never forgive you if this triggers her bad memories and sets Jenny’s healing journey back!” Jared dabbed at my cold sweat and took my hands. “Just let them take their anger out on you, then we can start a new life! I’ll never leave you alone, I promise. I’ll be with you this whole time.” My father threw his hiking pole at me. “None of this would’ve happened if you weren’t obsessed with hurting your own sister!” My mother held Jenny close and screamed, “Do you know how much Jenny’s suffered all these years because of you?! She’s finally gotten her chance to start a new and hopeful life! Why are you

"I am the cause of this whole thing and I regret it every single day. I let you fall into the hands of that monster, which shows I am no better than him." "Damien, look at me," I urged, unable to continue to watch him blame himself. I might have been too mad to think well that day but now, I knew he didn’t want her at all, it was all her plan from the start. “I need you to stop blaming yourself, please. You did nothing wrong and I reacted a bit too quickly which caused all this.” I tried to assure him. "It doesn’t rule out the fact that I did this and I almost kept you—"