Playing Dirty
The contact completely throws me off, it’s warm, unexpected, too close, and for a second my breath catches, my grip tightens instead of letting go, because my body reacts before my mind, caught in a sensation that shouldn’t be there, that shouldn’t feel like this, but stays just long enough to make everything far more complicated than it should be.
And that’s what frustrates me the most, because this should be easy, automatic, just rejection, pushing him away without thinking, without feeling anything but anger or disgust… but it isn’t, and that brief hesitation, that second where I don’t react the way I should, is exactly what makes everything worse.
Because the kiss doesn’t end with that f