Hated By Life Itself Novels & Stories

Fuck. I hated myself for being weak.

I hated him. I hated this. But worse... I hated myself more. Because deep inside... some part of me... wanted it.

"Now what fresh drama? Nobody is here to witness your drama; it's the middle of nowhere." She was enraged and cursed at in an outpouring of insults. “You damned bastard, what do you think of yourself? Look at yourself. Who would want to marry you? You are just a…robot, who only talk and do what is in your program, you have nothing like a man who all girl wants, Even if you were the only man in the world, I would still not choose you, you bloody dog face!!!"

VIOLET “I hate this so much.” That had to be the twentieth time I’d say that today alone. And I meant every word of it. I hated my life so, so much. People always said it was wrong to say that. Don’t say you hate your life. Someone else out there has it worse than you. You should be grateful. Well they could shove it up their ass for all I care. I was miserable as hell with no one else to talk to about it.

My throat hurts. Letting my tears out silently, I place my hands together, folding them tightly, and mutter, “mother, I curse the day you brought me into this cruel world. I hate you for birthing me, fully knowing how much darkness exists here. I hate you and father for making Williams face such an awful end. You never should have married, nor should you have fallen in love when you know there’s no protection here. I detest every love I ever had for you both.” My rage is like a canopy raining above my head. I can’t just help it. I’ve had enough. Finally, I shall be free. I’ll end this myself.

Audrey adjusted herself and lay on the pillow beside him. She didn't want to be in contact with him as he told her the reasons why he hated her with such passion, he hated her more than she hated Enissa, her witch sister. "She killed my mother," Alpha Lake said bitterly. Pain could be heard in his voice. Audrey's heart broke in peices; he really thought of her as a murderer. "She did?" She asked, just to confirm if he meant it. "Well, not technically. Her mother, killed my mother. So, the sins of the mother was transferred to the child, since the mother went into hiding after committing such hideous atrocity." Alpha Lake said.

Their eyes were clouded with unshed tears as they thought of that cursed day when their parents were killed by Azalea's men. They felt truly pathetic… “Why is our life like this? Why are we so ill-fated? There is the hate for parents demise on one end and our love for our mate. What do we choose… I don't think I would ever be able to stay with Azalea with such a heavy guilt” Alice lamented bitterly.

Reminded me of every scar, every bruise inside and out. I wouldn't always try to see the good in people. I hate it. I hate this. I hate my life. I hate this room. I hate him. I hate him. I hate... Alessandro. I hate him. The words repeated in my mind like a curse, like a mantra. Hatred made the air easier to breathe, even if it tasted like rust. It kept the fear at bay. It was the only thing left that still felt real.

But if I stay away from him, I languish. I HATE THESE CONDITIONS! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE EVERYTHING! I HATE, WHY ALWAYS IMMATURE AND CANNOT BE EXPRESS! My body trembled even more and sobbed stronger as I screamed in my heart. I want to give up. I'm sad again. Argh ... This man, mess up my life! The nasty comment from his mouth made me feel like ashes that had no price at all. Not once or twice, I experienced this. A thousand times, I experienced this. Again, I was faced with destiny; I couldn't stay away from it.

Why does he hate me this much? I hate my father who sent me to this pack! I hate my life! I hate the moon goddess for bestowing this kind of life upon me! I hate the universe for not making me have the love of a mother! I hate everything! Perhaps, I should just die so this misery would end. Laying flat on my back, I stared at the ceiling as the tears fell freely from my eyes. My head spun out of axis and my stomach began to churn, making me feel nauseous. I could no longer feel my legs and before I knew what was happening, my eyelids grew heavy. I felt a lone tear roll down the corner of my eyes before darkness consumed me.