I Can't Stop Me Twice の小説・ストーリー

I wasn’t going to stop. Then…BEEEEEP. BEEEEEP. BEEEEEEEEEP.

His middle finger continues to swirl, as the maddening sensations radiate outward. It took every bit of my concentration to form the simple words which have been trying desperately to make their way out. "Lucas! Please... you have to..." The word freezes on the tip of my tongue. 'Stop.' It's a simple, one syllable word! Why can't I say it? 'Because you want him to continue!' The shameful thought echoes inside, even as I strained to repress it. 'You want him to keep going, because you love this.' Every fiber of my being wants to argue with this notion, but the ripples of delectable pleasure are making it hard to formulate thoughts of any type.

"For the third time." "No. I don't want to experience the same mistake, the same regret and the same pain that I've felt before." I muttered. He looks down. "Maybe---" "Maybe you should stop." I said with finality on my voice.

This is bad. I am falling in love again and I can't stop myself. But I know in my heart he won't fall in love with me.

I stop halfway on the stairs and released a heavy punch on the wall which made my knuckles bleed. I can’t let him win and I will not let him win for the second time. I swear to myself. ******************************

Real trouble. The kind you don’t escape from twice.

my wolf never fails to think about the worst things at the worst time “Please just stop” I warned him not to say too much. I need to find a distraction because my patience keeps running then and now I have had a little taste I am drunk and I don't want to ever be sober. I growl loudly in annoyance. “I am fucked”

‎My heart is pounding so hard I can’t hear my own thoughts. ‎Because I know what he said last time. ‎And I know he means it. ‎He’s not done with me. ‎He’s only just started. ‎And God help me… ‎Part of me isn’t sure I want him to stop.

I’m glad I ruined this stupid night, even just a little. I won… twice.

Something I didn't know how to stop. And I didn't know how to stop it either.