Novel & Cerita I Can't Stop Me Twice

Ryder Lila swallowed hard. Her voice came out small and shaky. “But I can’t help it. I can’t—” “You have to!” I cut in, louder than I meant to. My eyes widened as the words rushed out. “Please. You know it can never work between us.” She stood up slowly. Her movements were careful, like she was afraid the floor might crack under her. “Why not?” I shifted back instinctively. “Stop, Lila.” I shook my head and raised my hand, palm out, taking a step away from her. “Just… fucking stop. Fuck!” The word tore out of me sharper than I intended. It echoed in the quiet room.

I couldn’t. “It won’t happen again,” I repeated firmly.

I pushed my chair, my hands started tapping on my legs, waiting for Harrison to get out. "If that's what you want. But I'm not losing hope. I'll be back. And sooner or later you will talk." He stood inhaling deeply. "I hope you are using that big brain of yours." "And I am..." I raised my right hand for a salute. "Listen to me there...there's ten to me, there's only one thing you cannot see...hmm...every time you talk, millions of things...there's only one that you cannot see, every time you talk...you can, stop the clocks, forever...listen to what I say...stop the clocks forever, listen to what I say, stop the clocks for you and me...listen to me again...stop the clocks, forever...hmm..."

Why will she stop me at such a critical point? Especially after I have made her squi*t twice.

I can't stop loving you; I can't help myself. I can't get over you. No matter what I tell myself. Baby girl.

I stopped with both hands that I would have pushed him. The next thing he said is stop my world. "Let's start again ...." What? Shall we start again?

This time harder. And this time, he lets me. Just for a second. Just enough space to breathe. “Stop,” I say, and this time it actually sounds like I mean it. He looks at me. Really looks. Chest rising. Falling. Eyes dark. Unsteady. “Say it again.” “Stop.” “Mean it.” “I do,” I insist, even as my voice falters. “Then don’t pull me back in again.” My breath catches. Because my hands are still there.

Once again. "No....no....no...no, what have I done?"

it's not late yet, I can still fix it. I have to fix this and this time, I wouldn't fail.

I said as I removed the phone from my ears. I didn't know what to do as I just stood at the front of the gate, staring at nothing in particular. Memories of Erika flooded in and my body shook in fright. I can't afford to lose her. She wasn't supposed to go! She is my second chance mate that was meant to stay! She can't leave me. She can't do this to me! "Koko, you have to come back to me. You promised to wait for me. You promised you would never leave no matter what happened and you will stay no matter what people say about you. Why are you breaking your promise?"