I Feel That My Father Seldom Novels & Stories

his voice is a little bit nervous when he said it. Hindi ko maiwasang mangiti at manlambot dahil doon. Pero... I also feel sad that he needs to ask me about it. Even though he is free to spend more time with his father, maybe he thinks I'll be mad? My heart hurt because of it.

HINDI ako naka-attend sa meeting na usapan namin dahil bukod sa napuyat ako at hindi natapos ang presentation ay late na akong nagising at sinabi na rin naman ni Daddy na iibahin na lang ang schedule dahil mas mahalaga raw na ok ang pakiramdam ko kaysa sa meeting na iyon. I'm so lucky to have a father like him. " Tuwing hawak ko ang kamay mo, nasa isip ko kamay niya ang hawak ko "

usap-usapan ng mga ito. Just like what I said, ordinary people doesn’t know much about Daddy. Napakibit na lang din ako ng balikat. I always act like I don’t know him at all and professionally greet him whenever I needed to. Hindi ko nga lang akalain na darating ang pagkakataon na hindi ko na kakayanin at kakailanganin ko muli siyang kausapin dahil sasaktan para sa kaniya.

sambit nito at agad na inangat ang sarili para yakapin ako. Bumuntong hininga ako dahil wala man lang akong kayang gawin para makalimutan nila ang nangyare. “Mommy is always here,” tanging nasambit ko habang hinahaplos ang likuran niya. "I know that, but how about our father? Where is he right now? Is he that busy that he didn't come here after his work? He didn't even come to look how I am." My lips parted when I heard that from him, but I also smiled.

I asked, he looked at me and frowned. "Wala naman, maayos naman si dad tuwing kausap ko. Why?" I shrugged "Nothing, he looks so listless when I'm talking to him... sometimes." Ngumiti siya at umiling. "Maybe because, he missed us. Alam mo naman, hindi tayo masyadong naka pag paalam kay dad." Ngumuso ako at tumango tango. "Maybe..." "Wait, I have a gift to you." Kumunot ang noo ko.

"Mag-aantay ako kung kailan ka magkakaroon ng lakas loob magsabi sa parents mo," “Oo pero feeling ko may napapansin si Daddy,” mahina kong sabi kaya saglit s'yang natahimik. “What do you mean?” “I don't know. Seven, parang iba yung tingin niya sa akin kanina. Kilala ko ang daddy ko. Kapag ganun siya tumitig. Parang nag-aantay s'yang magkwento ako sa kaniya.” “Magsasabi tayo,” tugon n'ya nagtataka ako nag-click ang pinto sa tabi nya.

Talking that way about my father as if it were a joke. "He can't wait to see you. Why don't you go in so he can talk to you? I want you to go easy on him; he's weak at heart and sick. That's why he's lying on a hospital bed, almost paralyzed." he continued. It almost sounded like a mockery. It feels like he's making fun of my father. I stepped closer to him. "Why does it feel like you're mocking your sick father?" mahina kong sabi. Lumapad ang ngiti niya.

He said softly but I can hear him sighing. Thats my father on the other side of the call,Bernard Mondragon. I pause before I replied. "I-im sorry dad, ive been----" He interupted me. "Busy, your always busy my dear you dont have time for your father anymore". He sigh heavily. My heart suddenly felt a sudden ache when I heard what he said. "Dad I didn't said that I don't have any time for you Im just busy here because of my work, thats all". I explain.

he nods his head and pats my head like I'm a little child. "That's my condition, if you really wanted to go out," he said. Well, his conditions are not hard. As long as I can go outside. "Yes father– I mean, Dad." I said. Dad smiled like he won a lottery. "I'm leaving tomorrow and I don't want you to get bored here or think that you are being imprisoned. I am just worried about you," he said and walked close to where I was standing and pulled me for a hug. I was stiff for a moment when father- I mean Dad, tightened the hug. I slowly lift my arms and hug him as well.

“Come on, Dad. Hindi na ako galit sa ‘yo.” I spent the whole day with my father. Kumain kami sa restaurant, namasyal at bumili ng kung ano-ano sa mall, at iba pa. Hindi namin iyon karaniwang nagagawa dahil busy sa trabaho si Daddy at saka masiyado raw mapanganib dahil malapit na naman ang eleksiyon.