I Was Already Gone Novels & Stories

Clapping excitedly, she urged, "Daddy, let's go! I can't wait to go to the amusement park. I want to take lots of pictures and put them in the frame next to my bed!" A jolt of pain shot through my chest. I'd carried these pups for months and nearly died during labor, but as they left, the last bit of attachment I had toward them vanished. Later, I cleared out all my belongings in the villa, then dragged my suitcase downstairs. "Luna Aria, are you heading out?" Bill asked. I nodded. "I'm leaving. Remind Ethan to sign the agreement. And also, stop calling me 'Luna Aria'."

I was going to hold onto that part and act like she passed away and doesn't exist anymore. “Let’s go May,” I said to May as I turned around and walked away. I walked away for good. The Kelsey I knew didn't exist anymore, I had come to terms with that.

It felt like I’d spent forever trying to fix what had been broken long before I admitted it. Trying to love someone who had already started letting go. And now he was really gone. “He’s really gone, isn’t he?” I whispered to no one. The ocean didn’t answer. But somehow, its silence was louder than anything I’d heard all night. I stayed a while longer, long enough to feel the cold seep into my bones. Then I stood. Wiped my face. Picked up my phone. And walked slowly back to the car. One step. Then another. Heavy. But mine.

‎"Now you'll be gone, and I'll have the pack all to myself." ‎Liam walked away, leaving me to my imminent fate.

Just enough to kill me. I didn’t say goodbye when I left, I just walked out—leaving all the silent noise, the mess, and the fucking ache behind.

By doing so, it was as if she could prove that I had ever existed. Every connection left her body convulsed with pain. Yet she, like someone addicted to self-torture, refused to stop. “Jason, I miss you so much…” Susie curled up on the bed. As her fingers gripped the sheets tightly, she imagined it was me who had long since disappeared. However, one day, the chip suddenly lost connection. No matter how she tried, she could no longer sense my presence. Susie quickly realized that I had removed the chip.

I stood there in silence, long enough for the snow to blanket the ground, long enough for a decade of passion and resentment to vanish like snowflakes in the wind. At last, when he seemed to feel my presence and our gazes locked, I walked away. For a fleeting moment, clarity flickered in his eyes, and he took a step to follow, but was quickly swallowed by a tide of jumbled memories. He grasped at a snow rabbit that happened by, asking, "Have you seen my Fiona?" I slipped away into the night, leaving the North to its Fiona-less fate, under a sky painted with crimson auroras.

Let it wash everything. Maybe if I stayed here long enough, I would disappear with it. My feet dragged forward on their own. Left. Right. Left. My whole life… gone. Everything I had, everything I rebuilt, everything I fought for, Destroyed in minutes. The worst part, I deserved it. “Oh God…” The words choked out of me, lost under the storm. “I should’ve left earlier… I should’ve left… I shouldn’t have stayed…” If only I had walked away when I still could.

A broken sound left my lips as I pulled her closer. “I can’t do this…” I whispered. “I can’t…” Tears blurred everything. My chest felt like it was collapsing in on itself. The only person I had left… Gone. Just like that. And no matter how loud I cried… No matter how tight I held onto her She wasn’t coming back.

No one should ever be someone else’s whole world except for yourself. I erased the last trace of him from my heart and drove forward. The sunlight was bright ahead, just like my future.