Novel & Cerita If Only He Had Been With Me Summary

If only my dad were still alive… none of this would have happened. I tilted my head to Kayden. His eyes stayed locked on the screen, fully absorbed. Without meaning to, I found myself studying him, taking in the lines of his face. Then it struck me—I wouldn’t have met this man if I hadn’t come here with my mom. My hand tightened into a fist. It felt like I was confessing something to myself that I’d long avoided, yet I couldn’t stop. I turned my gaze back to the screen. “Do you see yourself being with only a woman for the rest of your life?”

I never understood that phrase until now. He was sad with me in the same way I was sad. He wasn't pitying me, he was feeling my pain. He was in pain for me. I was never more in love with him than at this moment in time. I snuggled into his arms. I didn't know what we were doing. I didn't care until I finally understood. He wasn't going with me. I clutched against him tightly. No. He had to stay with me. He was the only thing keeping me from falling into a dark abyss and never emerging.

I wrapped my legs around his torso immediately, so I could keep him close at all cost. "I am just happy," he smiled warmly at me. "What is the occasion?" I asked, unable to hold my own smile too. "There is no occasion. I went out today and I got thinking," he began, drawing slow circles on my thighs with his fingers. They did wonders in sending goosebumps around my body, I was glad he did not pay much attention to that. "If you had not come into my life, if I had been stubborn and proud not to accept you as my mate, I would have not been better, in any aspect of my life," he explained.

Before that, he had carried me on his back across two blocks and vowed to stay by my side as long as we lived. I'd once believed we would be together forever. But Gianna gradually stole his tenderness and ground away his patience toward me. In the end, the very man who once fought with everything he had to protect me forgot the one thing he should never have forgotten about me. I closed my eyes, and the desperate video call from the future came to my mind again. There I was in the basement, hollow-eyed and in despair, begging myself to run. I often found myself wondering what would've happened to me if I hadn't left back then and just kept walking the path I was on.

“I'm not going to put you under any pressure. If you ever want to share, I'll be here, waiting to hear you out.” I nodded and he took back his hand. In that moment, a wave of bitter regret washed over me. Staring at Winston, I couldn't help but wonder what could have happened if I hadn't gone with Randall. If only I had chosen him instead of eloping with Randall that night. If only I had chosen him and decided to marry him instead. Perhaps, I wouldn't have been carrying the crushed pain printed in my heart and maybe, just maybe, my mother would still be alive today.

His selflessness and love overwhelmed me. "You're always here for me," I whispered, my voice cracking. "Thank you for staying with me." Who knows how it would have been if I had no one with me? Jonathan had always been the one standing by my side. With him lying lifeless on the bed, who would have done this for me? I might have gone down into the pit before anyone would know I had gotten lost.

How can he be hugging me in bed right now with my parents outside if he doesn’t regret the bet? “No, look at me”, Henry says, cradling my face forcing me to look him in the eyes. “If it wasn’t for that bet, I wouldn’t have met you, and I wouldn’t have gone after you and fell head over heels, I wouldn’t have become the man I am right now, I wouldn’t have put all my life choices in perspective, I wouldn’t have found the love of my life, so no I don’t regret that bet because it got me you, it got us together, as one, as a couple”, Henry says and I feel the butterflies awake again. No one has ever said anything like that to me before, and I honestly hope that Henry is the last one. I can’t even

I said and he caught up with me so we were both walking together. “It’s not like that Jenny and I’m sure you know that,” he said and I just nodded even though I wasn’t sure I believed him. He wasn’t speaking to me until just seconds ago so I didn’t even know if it was like that or not. All I knew was that I would miss him once I was gone.

He was like a light to me, leading me to a place or atmosphere I hadn't experienced since the misfortune happened. When I was with him, no day wasn't fun or at least new to me. He's really sincere, and I feel like I've been given the right partner to accompany my life for the next few years. I even changed my decision not to have a relationship with anyone because of him.

He had rushed all the way from Horizon Pack's territory to see me. We met in college. Back then, she never liked Leah . He always thought she wasn't good enough for me, and that he didn't deserve my love. We fought about it back then, and I didn't listen to him. He didn't come to my Marking Ceremony. I knew I shouldn't have called him. But he was the only one I could trust now. "What have you done to yourself? You're almost dead! Where is your mate?! You always told me how happy your family was. But now look at you!"