If Only He Had Been With Me Summary Novels & Stories

"If I had interfered back then, would things have turned out differently? "I've been following your every move ever since until the day we ran into each other.” Charles looked regretful, and I reached out and hugged him. "Don't blame yourself. Some hardships are ones that I have no choice but to bear alone., and it's not your fault." I almost missed out on such a great guy. Luckily, it wasn't too late for everything.

My heart raced in my chest, but I kept my expression plain, weak. I needed this moment. I needed to embrace this moment and also to remind him of what we once had. The life and happiness we once had. “Are you the only one here? Where is the cab man?” He asked, now accessing the environment. “He has been taken to the hospital,” I mumbled enough for him to hear. “Why didn't you go with him?” He asked. “I just want to go home. Please,” I said before closing my eyes, feeling the warmth from his body.

He said, using his finger to tilt my chin up so I'd focus on him. He was right. I had met him in this world, it was so unexpected. Ever since then, he had been my strength and fuel to keep going forward when I thought I had no more energy. If not for his influence, I wouldn't have gotten this far. And fate had given him to me. It has been years since we've been together, I had willingly given myself to him without thinking twice the day he claimed me. When I was with him, I could only feel the need to have him more and more.

We would have known what our life could have been if we stayed then. Only he was braver then. But he was so weak. So weak that he has to let me go.

By the time I got there they simply waved goodbye to me and left. “Great job, Ruby. Honestly speaking, this whole thing would have failed if you weren’t here. Actually, this whole thing would have never started if you weren’t here. I’d still be waiting for the right moment to activate this plan. Who knows, had we waited any longer, Gale might have ended us all before it got started… Well, all of you, I would have been fine.” He gloated with a proud smile. I simply rolled my eyes with a smile as I held onto Chaze, feeling his warmth and love as he held me back.

He never even spared me a single glance. That was how I have been living with a pained heart since I discovered my mate and at multiple times, I would actually regret not following Natalia. If I had followed her, I wouldn't have had to endure this, at least I would be living with the hope of reuniting with my mate someday. But now, this feeling was like nothing I ever dreamt of experiencing. The feeling of movement behind me tears me away from my trance-like state. Knowing I was supposed to be the only one present in the kitchen by this time, I frowned and turned back immediately.

It's the first time we've sat together like this without being at each other's throats and it feels strange but not entirely unwelcome. "How are you holding up?" I ask finally. "I'm not." He laughs but there's no humor in it. "I keep thinking about all the ways I failed her, all the moments I should have been there and wasn't. I was supposed to be with you two but I stayed in that room with Aria instead. If I had been there I could have—" "To be fair, you couldn't have known they were coming," I cut him off. "None of us knew."

He shook me one more time before I finally snapped out of the trance-like state I was in. “I….this is a surprise honestly” I say to him solemnly. By the look on his face somehow he understood what I was trying to say. “It's a lot for anyone to take. I think when this is all over and you're safe and settled then you can deal with all this” he said to me softly. I nodded my head and sighed as the mood in the room had completely changed. I felt myself getting sadder and sadder by the day. My life had really turned into a sob story. It was rare for you to have a mate and not meet them. In fact, for as long as I can remember, that had never happened.

Like it meant nothing. He always asked me first. Always checked in before any trip, before any decision like that. And I kept thinking that meant something. That it meant he cared. If I had just told him to stay… if I had gone with him… maybe none of this would’ve happened. Maybe we’d still be us. But instead, I was standing here on a random street, swallowing broken pieces of five years like they could somehow go back together. God, the audacity he had to say our sex was boring.

He turned around and with his stride, he walked away. My eyes are fixed on his back, the way his step collapses and the strength of his walk as it seems every eye is falling at his watch as he moves. The very ground looks like it is collapsing, and I cannot help but watch as he walks until he disappears completely. “Oh my goodness what just happened” I ransacked my brain as I walked as fast as my legs could carry me until I settled back into the seat. “I saw that, what did he say to you?” Overzealous Jessy asked me as soon as I rejoined her on the seat.