Novel & Cerita If Only I Had Told Her

“I'm sorry" I said nothing. I knew that it was supposed to hurt, from the first moment she told me I was supposed to rage and curse her for not telling me. But I loved Brandon so much, if I'd confronted Brandon with evidence he would have cooked up an excuse so easily, and I would have believed him. There's nothing she could have done. “I'm just glad you're here with me now". I finally said.

I recounted what she had told me. “ No, that wasn't what I said. I said, I met him months back and I only mustered the courage now to ask him for his number. We've never talked before other than the usual greeting when he walks past me,” she sighed. Crap! I messed up the story she had told me. I honestly hope she wouldn't realize how much my attention wasn't anyway here. “ Is that so?” I rubbed the back of my neck awkwardly.

I asked, claiming ignorance whereas immediately she opened her mouth to speak, I knew where she was heading. She was quiet again for more time than necessary, which this time I am so grateful for as I was also thinking of what to tell her. “I want you to tell your mate that you are sterile”

she suggested gently. “I just wanted to know the truth.” I said sadly. “I know.” She rubbed my chin. “But sometimes, people are not ready to tell the truth.”

I don’t remember telling her that. “When did I say this?” I ask her and she takes out her phone and opens the messenger app on her phone and there is a voice note. She plays it and my voice is clear as day. I did, in fact, tell her this over message, but I must have been out of my skull when I did it, because I can’t remember it.

She had a car but sold it to pay bills, It was the debt she told me about if I wasn't wrong. I clenched my jaw, already planning how to fix that, quietly, without scaring her, without revealing the part of me she could never know.

No one else can have her! I haven't been able to find time to tell her how I feel. She keeps shutting me down. Last night I told her I would tell her once she was feeling better, but then she ditched me this morning! How the hell am I supposed to tell her I'm in love with her if she keeps leaving me?

Compared to my past life, I now knew how to cherish what I had. Cara’s eyes filled with tears as she choked out, “You lied to me, didn’t you? You told me you didn’t like kids… You said I was the only one you’d ever love.”

I couldn't tell at that time . If only she had stayed in the villa I bought for her then all these wouldn't have happened, she would have been safe from Zavier. If only she had just listened, if she had just trusted me enough to remain in the villa where she was safe .... hmmmmm, I sighed, the weight of realizing I had lost her to Zavier hit me like a tornado, I felt like my heart will reap into two.

I told her, Her eyes softened as I spoke like the pain in them had eased a little but I kept going, I'd wanted to make sure she knew the truth. "I care about you," I told her, I'd wanted her to hear the words, to make sure she knew. "And you are my only friend that I have," I said, the words had come out honest, I'd wanted her to know where she stood with me. "Rio is no longer here; it's only you that I have," I told her, a pang of sadness had hit me too. I want her to know how much she meant to me in this pack.