It's Always My Fault Novels & Stories

I always just destroy them. "What happened the other day was not your fault. Celeste don't worry. We don't blame you." Sydney said. I looked at her, but that can't melt my guilt. I shook my head. It's true that it's my fault. "If it wasn't me. None of those things could ever happen. It was completely my fault." I bent down again and dug out the nail. I don't care if they think, I'm being dramatic. Well.... I hope they are not. I love it. I couldn't believe that I can still joke right now. I'm being crazy again.

It's all my fault. I buried my face in my palms, shaking my head and repeating the words until it was engraved in my brain and heart. It was my fault. I caused everything. I hurt her. I made her bleed. I broke her bones. I made her cry. I scared her. All of it was my fault. I'm pathetic. Sapphire will never look at me the same way again.

There were times—where I wish I could have stripped my mortality away and be—who I really outta be. And yet, here I was. Again. Freya called me out last time for not thinking. For not acting. This time, I didn't make that mistake, and I still got my ass kicked. I still felt like shit and was totally broken. "Why is always my fault?" I broke into a sob, smashing my hands against the sink. "This is always my fault!" I screamed out in between my sobs. "I only hold people, my friends back. Why?!"

At the same time, I couldn’t help but voice my discontent. What, even if this is my fault? From the beginning: If a bug comes out, it’s my fault. If you fall down, it’s my fault. If you hit me, it’s my fault. What did I do that was so wrong? I mean, even if you hate me that much, this is not right! Why would you hit a person? And with a car? I could have died! Just because I ran over your foot a little, you won’t die. Stop overreacting.

“ It was my fault and I will never forgive myself!” “ Gringo!” she pulled away from him and held his face with both hands. “ Listen, it wasn't your fault, okay? It wasn't your fault, it wasn't you who did this to me! Say you know it's not your fault. Say it!” “ Ok…”

Try as I might, I can't fight back the one thought that has raced through my head over and over again since I found out the true cost of that night: Maybe this is all my fault.

“No. You and Chad were broken up. Still broken up. And you and Corian? Business contract. It’s not like you lied on your resume. None of this is your fault.” “But it feels like it is. Like I’ve broken some sacred rule.” “Classic Maddison.” Sydney sighed. “Always blaming yourself. The world could explode and you’d bet it was your fault for waking up on the wrong side.” Ouch. She was right. Julia drilled that into me my whole life. Blame Maddison first, figure out the world later. She set down the bottle close to the sink, grabbing my arms… eyes locked on mine… her alcoholic breath in my face. “This is not your fault Maddison. Say it…”

I faked a laugh "I'm sorry. It's my fault. If I hadn't let Edward took Helena this wouldn't have happened. My precious Hel a won't die and you won't suffer. All that, it's all my fault" Grandma said tearing up. I hug her and rub my hands on her back. I know that Allyson told me that. But I know it's not her fault. "It's not your fault, you didn't know that this would happen. I know you have been referring to that day. Because the way you're blaming yourself now shows it, but it's not your fault. I know it's not your fault" I said comforting her

And then, I couldn’t blame him. Then I thought about who to blame again. Tristin? My family? Someone else? No… From the beginning, it had always been my fault. I knew. And I could admit my fault. But that small voice inside my head…kept whispering to me. All I had done was try my best to make something of my life. I had tried so hard, and I had never thought about taking any shortcuts. Then…nothing bad should have happened to me. Even if it did, it shouldn’t have been my fault.

"That's not true! You could have said no, you know?" "Well, I couldn't have. Every fibre of my being screamed for you to stay. It's not my fault if I fell in love with you. It's your fault if you didn't know it. It's your fault that I got caught. It's your fault that I became your prisoner. None of it is your fault. But that's not important anymore."