Novel & Cerita It's Always My Fault

“Do not allow yourself to be foolish again.” So it was my fault…

I thought She whispered again, 'It was no one's fault don't blame yourself.' As she said this I just burst into tears and said with my voice cracking in between, 'I-I'm sorry Sa-rah. It was m-my fault.' 'No.' She said in a calming voice. 'It was not your fault, it was just an accident.' 'Bu-but it almost took your life.' I said helplessly and sat upright wiping my tears which were unstoppable now. 'But it didn't, just think of it in this way. Doesn't it makes it easier this way?' She said.

“it isn't your fault, it was my fucking fault, I kept chunking down on chocolates and candies, I could have done better, I did nothing but sneak around eating bad things even when you earned me not to, I'm sorry, I really should not have, funny thing I felt the pain earlier. I felt it, and for a couple of days I knew something was wrong, but I was damn too confident, I thought I knew it all Lawrence, I'm sorry I had not informed you about it, I could have gone to the hospital, I should have complained, I should have ran some tests, all these would have changed, my child would have stayed alive, but I did nothing, I remained calm what as the worst that could happen? Those were my thoughts and

But most of all I blame myself, It's all my fault If I haven't asked my mom that day for a water bottle, they could be alive right now. I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry dad, It's all my fault. To be continued.......

I had expected this, but still… It hurt. I stopped walking, turning to face her fully. My heart was pounding, but I managed to keep my voice even as I said, “I know it’s my fault, Elise. I know that a lot of things are my fault. But I always mean well; I always try my best to make things right, to remedy my mistakes. Can you say the same for yourself?”

“It’s no one’s fault!” I shook my head, but he stood from his chair and limped over to me and hugged me. “It’s not your fault, anymore than it’s Scott’s or Tiff’s or Shirley’s or mine. It’s just something that happened, and there isn’t anything we can do to change it. You can’t keep blaming yourselves,” he said, looking at each of us. “It’s not your fault,” he whispered, tucking my head under his chin.

She apologizes yet again. “It’s not your fault, Mother. It was never your fault. I think this time, it’s my fault. I should’ve seen this coming. I should have known this sort of thing would happen to me.” Mother clasped her hand over mine, shaking her head softly “No, no, that’s not true. It’s never your fault baby. Never your fault. How would you have known this sort of thing would happen? It was never your fault so please don’t think that way.” Mother says and I smile, albeit bitterly.

"S-Something will always haunt all of us. But that doesn't mean you don't deserve all that life has to offer. Because you do. You deserve happiness. She would have wanted that for you." “ Do you think so?” He asked looking at me "I know," I confirm. "And f-for you, it was probably hard to see that what happened wasn't your fault. It becomes so hard to stop blaming yourself when what you experienced feels so real, so dependent on your actions. But some things are always going to be out of our control. So, what happened? It was Blood Moon's fault. All of it. Not yours. I know people have probably told you that before, but--"

Her brother was in trouble and it was partially her fault . " Its not your fault " said Kyle very quietly as if he knew what was going in her mind " When someone harms you because of their own vindictive ego and pleasure , its not your fault when you feel the pain ." " But it all started because of me " said Chelsea softly still staring at the flowing stream " If you keep blaming yourself like this you will never be able to understand why - the problems come your way . You might be the cause of this incident but its not your fault - its your responsibility " said Kyle sagely .