Ku Menjauh Hanya Untuk Berpikir の小説・ストーリー

I had to stay focused. God, I hate Julian. Planting nonsense I don’t need, twisting my thoughts like a game. Maybe I should keep my distance from him. I need to stay away before he wrecks my head too far.

Lost in my thoughts I walked as far away as I could. I am then surprised to hear the sounds of someone sobbing. It’s such a strange thing to hear out here, where you think no one else would be. I find my feet stepping towards the cry, my thoughts no longer wondering about my own personal problems, but laced with curiosity. Who else needed to escape?

He spat before eventually standing up and walking away. I was left sitting alone on the chair with all of my thoughts. I don’t know why I didn’t stand up and followed Idris inside. Perhaps I just want to have this moment to myself and ponder about what he said. I just don’t understand why he said we better keep our distance and basically forget whatever happened between us. I don’t want to forget those moments and to be honest, I’m looking forward to spending more time with him. Can’t he see that I’m trying to connect with him?

I have been fighting that truth every moment since I realized what you mean to me. Trying to give you space has been the hardest thing I have ever done, because all I want is to be near you. You consume my every thought, whether I want you to or not. I’m sorry for being distant. I told myself I needed something to take my mind off you, but that was impossible when you are all I think about.

Maya’s POV People think distance means safety that if you can’t see something it’s not there that if enough time passes things just go away. They’re wrong. I lean back against the wall just far enough into the shadows that no one would notice me unless they were looking for me specifically which they’re not because they think I’m gone they think I’m out of the picture, they think I lost. I didn’t lose I just stepped back there’s a difference from where I’m standing, I can see the house clearly.

while still in his deep thoughts, looking far ahead. **

It’s only going to make things worse for all of us. I sit on the edge of the bed, staring at nothing. Then I whisper softly to myself… “Distance.” That’s what I need. That’s what we need. As long as I’m in this house…I’ll stay away from both of them. No late-night conversations. No lingering looks. No being alone with either of them. Because maybe…maybe that’s the only way to keep everything from completely breaking. And right now…that's all I can hold on to.

Every day will bring a new problem because of the people around you" I let that sink in. "You need distance from him too. Not forever. Just long enough to think. And decide if you really want to spend forever with him" I imagined leaving. I imagined a quiet town far from here. I imagined days without people fighting over me or hurting each other. I imagined space where I could hear myself think. I nodded slowly as the truth settled into my chest. "You are right. " "It is time to choose yourself. " She gave me a small smile and looked away as if giving me room to breathe.