Lelouch Shirley

Beim neunundneunzigsten Mal, dass mein Alpha-Gefährte unsere Gedankenverbindung kappte, war ich bereits in der Endphase des Wolfsgeistverfalls. Ich schleppte meinen gebrochenen Körper in die Rathalle. Die kalten Marmorstufen schabten an meinen Fußsohlen, und mit jedem Schritt durchzog ein stechender Schmerz meine Brust. „Ich bin hier, um einen Antrag auf Verlassen des Rudels zu stellen.“ Der Ratsbeamte musterte meine blasse, gebeugte Gestalt mit mitleidigem Blick und fragte leise: „Sind Sie sich ganz sicher? Sie würden damit den Schutz des Rudels verlieren.“ Seit meiner Kindheit war meine Wölfin unstet, sodass ich stets kränklich und schwach war. Seit mein Vater meine adoptierte Schwester Lydia nach Hause brachte, als ich zehn war, behandelten mich meine Eltern wie eine Schande für die Familie. Obwohl ich jahrelang seine markierte Gefährtin war, versprach Caleb mir niemals eine Luna-Zeremonie. Er nahm mich selten zu Rudelversammlungen mit, kaum jemals. Infolgedessen wusste kaum jemand im Rudel, wer ich war. „Das spielt keine Rolle“, sagte ich mit erstaunlich ruhiger Stimme, trotz aller Anstrengung. „In drei Tagen werde ich ohnehin sterben.“

During a battle with a rival pack, my Alpha mate, Damien, burst into my private healing sanctuary. He was carrying Lyra, a Beta warrior who had supposedly taken a poisoned blade for him. The next day, under the watchful eye of the Moon Goddess, Damien was forced by the pack elders to apologize. He explained that bringing an outsider into my sanctuary was a desperate act in a moment of crisis. After all, Lyra had saved his life. But that night, in the bed we once shared, Lyra stabbed herself with a dagger laced with wolfsbane and framed me for the attack. He chose to believe her. The rejection ceremony ripped my wolf from my soul. I was cast out—a powerless exile, left for dead in a storm, to be torn to shreds by rogues. But what Damien never knew was that the ancient curse afflicting him could only be healed by me. When I opened my eyes again, I was back at the beginning: the moment Damien carried that woman in, demanding I save her.

Setelah kematian kakakku, aku menandatangani pernikahan kontrak lima tahun dengan suaminya, Alexander Valendra yang adalah seorang mafia. Aku menjadi ibu tiri bagi keponakanku yang berusia lima tahun, Adriel Valendra. Di hari ulang tahunku, aku memakai kalung berlian milik kakakku yang sudah meninggal tanpa tahu apa maknanya. Saat acara makan malam keluarga, Adriel berjalan mendekat sambil membawa segelas anggur merah dan menyiramkannya ke wajahku. Anggur merah itu menetes di pipiku, aromanya yang tajam menusuk mataku dan mengotori gaunku yang putih. Dia menatapku, sorot matanya sedingin dan sekejam ayahnya. "Jangan pikir kamu bisa menggantikan ibuku hanya karena kamu sudah jadi bagian dari Keluarga Valendra," katanya sambil menyeringai. "Kamulah penyebab kematiannya." "Aku berharap kamulah yang mati. Jadi aku bisa menghancurkan batu nisanmu, dan bukan merayakan ulang tahun konyol ini." "Aku bersumpah, begitu aku dewasa nanti, hal pertama yang kulakukan adalah menenggelamkan kamu ke Sungai Mandira!" Kenangan itu menusuk setajam anggur tadi, dan yang bisa kurasakan hanyalah putus asa. Aku menatap anak yang sudah kuasuh selama lima tahun seperti anakku sendiri, dan rasa perih menusuk di dadaku. Aku dulu berpikir aku bisa sepenuhnya menyerahkan diriku untuk Keluarga Valendra, dan memenangkan hatinya dengan kasih sayang. Namun sekarang, aku hanya lelah dengan semuanya. Keluarga ini tak punya cinta, dan anak itu memandangku seperti musuh yang harus dihancurkan. Aku berhenti menipu diri sendiri. Sudah waktunya untuk melepaskan semuanya. Namun setelah aku pergi, Alexander dan Adriel kembali padaku, merayap seperti pecundang yang ketakutan, dan memohon ampun padaku.

On the night of the Blood Moon Pack's grand ceremony, my Alpha fiancé Ethan solemnly announced before all pack members that we would soon complete our lifelong marking. The pack's blessings surged toward us like a tide. My face flushed red as I pressed against his strong chest, which carried the scent of pine. Suddenly, a figure blocked the moonlight at the temple entrance. Ivy, my friend who had vanished five years ago, stepped inside, accompanied by a pup with eyes like stars. Ignoring everyone's gaze, she walked straight toward us. Her collar slowly slipped down, revealing a deep Alpha bite mark on her neck. Under the moonlight, that mark was as shocking as a brand. "Lucas, come to meet your father."

On the night of our mating ceremony, my Alpha, Damian, and I were ambushed by a rival pack. When I opened my eyes again, I was back in the past, before we had marked each other. In my previous life, we were true mates, chosen by the moon goddess, and had been together for seven years. I sacrificed everything to help him become the most powerful Alpha, yet he refused to even give me a pup. Only later did I learn that Damian's heart had always belonged to another—Aria, a she-wolf from a powerful bloodline. Reborn, I decided to let him chase his ambition. I severed our mate bond with my own hands and chose a completely different path. Seven years later, he became the most powerful Alpha in the alliance. At the annual summit, he and his beloved Aria announced their mating. When he saw me standing alone, he sneered. "Selene, I know you're still in love with me. You've loved me across two lifetimes. I'm the most exceptional Alpha you'll ever know." "But you need to stop destroying yourself over me." I ignored him, pulling my son into my arms. Damian's eyes flared crimson, his wolf's control slipping. "You told me you would only ever bear my pups!"

After my sister's death, I signed a five-year contract marriage with her mafia husband, Horton Falcone. I became the stepmother to my five-year-old nephew, Luca. On my birthday, I wore my late sister's diamond cross necklace, not realizing what it was. At the family dinner, Luca walked up to me with a glass of red wine and threw the wine in my face. The red wine dripped down my cheeks, its sharp scent stinging my eyes and staining my white dress. He tilted his head back to look up at me, his eyes as cold and cruel as his father's. "Don't think you can replace my mom just because you married into the Falcone family," he said with a malicious grin. "You're the reason she's dead." "I wish you were the one who died. Then I could smash your gravestone instead of celebrating this stupid birthday." "I swear, when I grow up, the first thing I'll do is dump you in the Hudson River myself!" The memory stung as sharply as the wine, and all I could taste was despair. I stared at the child I had spent five years raising as my own, a sharp pain pulsing in my chest. I had thought I could devote myself to the Falcone family, that I could win him over with my love. But now, I was just so tired of it all. It was a family with no love, a child who saw me as his mortal enemy. I stopped deluding myself. It was time to let go. But after I left, that arrogant father and son came crawling back to me like whipped dogs, begging for my forgiveness.

Without Kaelen's knowledge, I had his little plaything sent out of North America. That same night, he cast a blood-vine curse on my parents, banishing them to the wilds—a wasteland prowled by rogues. He was going to trade my parents' lives for the whereabouts of his plaything. Kaelen pushed a communication crystal in front of me. Inside it, my parents were ensnared by blood-red vines, the thorns digging deep into their flesh. Drops of dark crimson blood fell, one by one, onto the barren earth. A countdown timer pulsed in stark red digits on their chests. 23:59:59 23:59:58 He sat across from me, a black suit tailored to perfection molded to his lean, powerful frame. His long fingers tapped a light, steady rhythm on the solid wood table, as if he were waiting for a trivial business deal to close. "Estelle, you have twenty-four hours." His voice was low and calm, laced with a venomous tenderness. "Tell me, where did you send Cassandra?"

J'étais autrefois la princesse chérie de la Meute de la Lune d'Argent, adorée de tous. À l'époque, je suis tombée amoureuse de Karl, l'un des sauvages de la meute. Mais lorsque je me suis ennuyée de notre petite histoire, je l'ai écarté sans hésiter. Des années plus tard, ma meute a été détruite et mes parents ont été tués. Karl, cependant, était devenu l'Alpha d'une nouvelle meute puissante. Il m'a revendiquée, me forçant à devenir sa Luna. Tout le monde disait que j'avais de la chance, mais ils ne connaissaient pas la vérité. Ils ne savaient pas qu'il ramenait chaque nuit différentes louves sur notre territoire. Et à cause de notre lien de compagnon, chaque moment d'intimité entre eux me brûlait l'âme comme un feu ardent. Je n'ai jamais pleuré, je n'ai jamais protesté, j'ai simplement tout enduré en silence. Mais mon silence ne faisait que rendre Karl plus instable. Cette fois-ci, il est allé encore plus loin. Il a mis sa Bêta, Cholé, enceinte. Mais je restais calme. Furieux, Karl m'a projetée contre un mur de pierre rugueux. « Estelle, tu m'aimes ou pas ? » Je pensais que ses accès de colère étaient une manifestation tordue de son amour, qu'il attendait que je craque. Mais ensuite, Cholé et moi commencions à accoucher en même temps. Je l'ai supplié de m'emmener d'abord à l'hôpital de la meute, et je voulais lui dire que je n'avais pas eu le choix lorsque je l'avais rejeté à l'époque. Il m'a serrée dans ses bras, pour me repousser quelques instants plus tard. « Tu vois ? Je savais que tu craquerais. » « Arrête de faire semblant. Tu te prends vraiment pour une princesse hautaine et puissante ? » Il a ignoré mes supplications, ignoré la vie de son propre petit en moi. Il a pris Cholé dans ses bras et est parti sans se retourner. Sa voix froide a résonné dans notre lien mental. « Ne t'inquiète pas, je ne t'abandonne pas. » « Tu mérites de ressentir une fraction de la douleur que j'ai ressentie quand tu m'as rejeté. Savoure-la. »

On the night of the Benedetto family's Harvest Festival, my Mafia husband, Salvatore, told me to bring our son, Giuseppe, to the family gathering. He said his madre had finally accepted us into the Benedetto bloodline. I was trembling with excitement in our little cottage as I dressed Giuseppe in his finest little suit. He had carved a single wooden rose by hand, a project he'd saved for over five years. He said he would present it to his grandmother at the celebration, a plea for her to accept our place in the family. But the moment we stepped into the stone manor, I saw Carmela. Salvatore had her pinned against an oak barrel in a deep, searing kiss. In the moonlight, her hand was undoing his tie. In front of everyone, Salvatore smiled and gently pushed her away. He walked toward the family members gathered in a semicircle and raised a crystal glass. "Tonight, in addition to celebrating the harvest, I have an important announcement." "I would like to introduce you all to the woman I have married in the eyes of God and the Church." "Miss Carmela Torrino." Before I could even process his words, Giuseppe tore his hand from mine and rushed forward. "Papa, what are you saying?" "Isn't my mother your wife?"

I've stood before a priest and sworn my vows to the same man seven times. And for the seventh time, I've signed divorce papers in front of the family lawyer. At our first wedding, the youngest Capo of the Throne family held my hand and promised, "From this day forward, my life is yours and yours alone." But whenever his childhood sweetheart stirred up trouble and needed his protection, Carter's vow to me would conveniently become a sanctuary for her. "Tessa's in trouble again, Maeve. For your own safety, we have to get a divorce for now." The first time I was forced to divorce, I threatened him with the honor of our families' alliance, even vowing to expose his betrayal at a family gathering. His men dragged me out of the manor. The third time I signed the papers, I humbled myself, sneaking into the family's private club just to catch a glimpse of him from afar. By the sixth time, I had learned to quietly pack my few belongings in this house of lies, without putting up a fight. My breakdowns and desperate, undignified attempts to save us were only ever met with Carter's reliable promise to remarry me, just before another round of the divorce game he played for Tessa's sake. Until this time. After hearing Tessa was returning to New York from Italy, I didn't wait for Carter to speak. I placed the signed divorce papers in his study myself. Just like always, he casually set a date for our remarriage. But he didn't know that day was the day I would disappear from his world forever.