Pastel Echo Surabaya

Everyone in New York knew I was the Godfather’s heart. Gavin Whitestone’s heart. He loved me for ten years. He’d fly into a rage if I so much as got a paper cut. But he’s the one who gave me these three scars. The first time, he pulled every doctor to treat Sofia, the girl who took a bullet for him, and ignored the shrapnel tearing into my side. The second time, he was drugged and fucking Sofia in his bed. When I walked in on them, he shoved me aside, desperately carrying her to the hospital. The third time, he took my father's last gift to me—a revolver—and gave it to a pregnant Sofia, just to make her smile. He told me, “It’s all for the baby. Once the baby is born, we’ll go back to how we were.” But this time, I didn't forgive him. I threw away every gift he ever gave me and vanished without a trace. And that’s when the untouchable Godfather finally broke.

Cinco años después de mi matrimonio con el Don, Ives Moretti, me dejó a mi suerte para morir durante un tiroteo, todo para poner a salvo a su amante, Isabella. Desperté tres días después en la habitación de un hospital privado. Sin disculpas. Ives se mostró frío. —Eres mi esposa. Conocías los riesgos. Deja de ser tan dramática —luego, añadió—: Isabella es diferente. Es frágil. Ella me necesitaba. A aquello le siguieron tres meses de la ley del hielo. Como siempre, él esperaba que yo fuera la que cediera, la que regresara gateando suplicando perdón. Tres meses después, le entregué el trato con los irlandeses a Isabella en bandeja de plata. El gran negocio que yo misma había pasado medio año construyendo. Ives pensó que era una ofrenda de paz. Sonrió, algo raro y genuino en él estos días. —Sabía que entrarías en razón. Como recompensa, iremos a Las Vegas. Sé que siempre has querido ir. Al día siguiente, Isabella se quejó de estar aburrida y él rompió su promesa. Se la llevó a ella a Las Vegas en su lugar. Me dijo que era un "asunto familiar urgente". Esta vez, no lloré. No hice una escena. Ives estaba complacido de que yo fuera tan comprensiva. No tenía idea de que yo ya estaba cortando todos los lazos con la familia Moretti. Que él ya había firmado los papeles del divorcio sin saberlo. Yo era libre.

Por cinco anos, fui casada com o herdeiro da família Romano, a maior família criminosa da Itália. Todas as noites, ele me abraçava e sussurrava: — Só me dê um herdeiro, e eu lhe darei todo o império Romano. Mas eu nunca engravidei, e a decepção do Don comigo crescia a cada mês que passava. Até que descobri que meu marido vinha trocando secretamente meu ácido fólico por pílulas anticoncepcionais. Eu ainda estava em choque de raiva quando vi uma postagem da ex-namorada dele: uma foto de ultrassom. A legenda era doce e presunçosa: Dez semanas. Vincent disse que mal pode esperar para conhecer o bebê. Ao ver a enxurrada de felicitações, tomei minha decisão. Encontrei o contato do meu ex-namorado — o mesmo que passou os últimos cinco anos tentando me reconquistar. Enviei a ele uma única mensagem. [Dê-me um mês. Depois disso, eu vou com você.]

My marriage to Dante, the Moretti heir, was meant to be a union of power, an alliance of empires. But for me, it was also the real deal. Then his adopted sister, Clara, showed up at a party. She was wearing his custom leather jacket, straddling his prized Ducati, and she looked right at me with a smirk. "Dante says," she purred, "that I suit these precious things better than you do." My smile froze. Dante had her on a plane overseas so fast it was like she'd never existed. Five years later, the night before our wedding. I found him staring at the design for our wedding rings. He'd changed the engraving. The "Amor Aeternus"—Eternal Love—was gone. In its place: "Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa." My sin, my greatest sin. I took off my veil right then and there. "The wedding," I said, my voice like ice, "is off."

The first thing I did when I came back to life was to pawn off my engagement to the Don of the Schroder family, Edmund, on my stepsister. In my last life, he used the "family rules" to make me give up the one thing I loved—racing. He threw out all my colorful dresses and turned me into his canary in a gilded cage. I died, suffocated and hopeless. When I opened my eyes again, I was back on the day the marriage contract was to be signed. I quietly switched my name with my stepsister Laura's and let Edmund sign the papers. He didn't forget to warn me, "Stay out of trouble. Our wedding is in three days. Be a good girl and wait for me to come get you." But he had no idea I'd already bought a fake ID and passport. In three days, I'd be gone. I'd be free.

Aku sekarat di sudut gang setelah diserang keluarga rival. Suamiku, Dante, wakil pimpinan Keluarga Tanto ... berada di dalam mobilnya, malah memeluk adik perempuan sahabatnya. Dia menatapku dengan dingin, lalu berkata, "Biarkan saja dia. Dia bukan siapa-siapa." Setelah orang lain menyelamatkanku, aku berjalan pulang sendiri dengan tubuh berlumuran darah. Aku mendapati Dante sedang menggendong Sera, menenangkannya dengan cemas padahal yang dia alami hanya lutut tergores. Sedangkan darah yang menutupi seluruh pakaianku? Dia bahkan tidak mau melihatnya. Aku hanya berdiri menatap mereka. Tidak mengatakan apa-apa. Kemudian, aku pun mengeluarkan ponselku dan mengirim pesan pada ibuku. [ Ibu, aku mau pulang. ]

Chloe, the maid I share a room with, is dead. I watched the head housekeeper and another maid pin her to the floor. I watched them as the housekeeper vomited up a slimy, black web of fungus and forced it down Chloe's throat. I should have screamed. I wanted to. But my selective mutism took over, trapping the sound in my throat. It probably saved my life. The next day, Chloe was alive again. She walked into the young miss’s room to brush her hair, just like always. I was so scared I dropped the water basin I was holding. As I stood there, frozen, the young miss leaned in close, her voice a whisper only I could hear. "You've noticed it too, haven't you? They're not themselves anymore."

Lima tahun setelah pernikahanku dengan Reynald Dharmawangsa, penguasa Kota Segara, seluruh dunia mafia tahu bahwa dia mencintaiku lebih dari hidupnya sendiri. Dia bahkan menato bentuk biola khusus untukku tepat di samping lambang Keluarga Dharmawangsa, simbol kesetiaan yang katanya tak akan pernah bisa dihapus. Sampai aku menerima foto itu dari simpanannya. Seorang pelayan bar, telanjang di dalam pelukannya, kulit wanita itu dipenuhi lebam gelap, bekas hubungan kasar. Dan di samping tato biola yang dibuat Reynald untukku, perempuan itu menuliskan namanya sendiri. Dan suamiku … membiarkannya. "Reynald bilang, satu-satunya hal yang membuatnya masih merasa seperti lelaki adalah saat berada di dalam diriku. Kamu bahkan sudah tidak bisa membuatnya terangsang lagi, 'kan, Alyssa? Mungkin sudah waktunya kamu menyingkir." Aku tidak membalas. Aku hanya menelepon satu orang. "Aku butuh identitas baru dan tiket pesawat untuk pergi dari negeri ini."

Lima tahun setelah pernikahanku dengan Yovan Murdaya, seorang Bos Besar mafia, dia meninggalkanku dalam keadaan sekarat saat baku tembak untuk menyelamatkan selingkuhannya, Diana. Aku terbangun tiga hari kemudian di kamar VIP rumah sakit. Tanpa ada permintaan maaf. Yovan bersikap dingin. “Kau itu istriku, tentu saja sudah tahu resikonya. Jadi, jangan lebay.” Lalu, dia menambahkan, “Tapi, Diana berbeda. Dia itu rapuh dan membutuhkanku.” Setelah itu, selama tiga bulan aku diabaikan. Seperti biasa, dia berharap akulah yang akan menyerah dan kembali memohon maaf. Tiga bulan kemudian, aku menyerahkan kesepakatan dengan orang Irlanda kepada Diana begitu saja. Itu kesepakatan besar yang telah kubangun sendiri selama setengah tahun. Yovan mengira itu artinya aku sedang membujuknya. Dia tersenyum, sesuatu yang langka dan tulus akhir-akhir ini. “Sudah kuduga kau akan berubah pikiran. Sebagai hadiah, kita akan pergi ke Vergasi. Aku tahu kau selalu ingin pergi ke sana.” Keesokan harinya, Diana mengeluh bosan, dan Yovan kembali mengingkari janjinya. Dia malah membawa wanita itu ke Vergasi, dan mengatakan padaku bahwa itu karena ada urusan keluarga yang mendesak. Kali ini, aku tidak menangis, juga tidak membuat keributan. Yovan senang aku menjadi begitu pengertian. Tapi dia tidak tahu bahwa sebenarnya aku sudah memutuskan semua hubungan dengan Keluarga Murdaya. Dan, bahwa dia sudah menandatangani surat perjanjian cerai kami. Akhirnya, aku bebas.

The sixth year I gave up my family, my name, everything, to be with Marcus. That’s when I found out I was just a stand-in for the one he could never forget. And now, she was back. I accepted my family’s arrangement. The marriage alliance. The day my engagement dress arrived at the office, Marcus looked pissed. “I thought we agreed we’d get married when my career was more stable.” I said nothing. But when the wedding invitation arrived, Marcus finally broke. The groom wasn't him. It was the heir to the Moretti family.