Spicy Hot
A woman, broken and hastily glued back together.
I let the water run in the shower, very hot, until the room fills with steam. Under the burning stream, I rub my skin with a violence bordering on self-mutilation. The company's perfumed lemon soap fails to mask his smell that mixture of leather, spice, and male sex that seems to have eaten into my pores. I wash my private parts with surgical precision; the touch of my fingers brings back a painful and shameful echo of the pleasure that overwhelmed me minutes before. I despise myself for this retrospective shiver.