The Captive
I'd even hallucinated as far envisaging that he had a mustache on his face just like the loan shark.
It's pretty depressing to be aware of the fact that every element of life is working against you; friendships, emotions, physical appearance, the weather even my health. It's awful, knowing that you are on your own, and you can't trust anything or anyone. Even yourself.
If you can not trust yourself to always hold your head up high and soar above every difficulty that life throws at you, doesn't that destabilize and neutralize the entire concept of self love?
What's there to love in one's self, if that same self constantly fails you?