Under Love's Heavy Burden Do I Sink Novels & Stories

Over something deeper I can’t quite name. And I know it’s only going to get worse. But there is no way that I would ever drag anyone under with me.

my heart sunk… ”Se-selene”

I try to swim, to paddle towards the surface, but my body feels heavy, weighed down by the poison coursing through my veins. I'm trapped, alone and frightened, with no escape from this. As I sink deeper into the water, I realize that this is it, this is the end. I'm going to die, alone and forgotten, at the bottom of this well. The thought is a cold, hard stone in my chest, crushing me with its weight.

As a person craves oxygen while swimming in the deeper part of a river. It was like finally god decided to show some mercy on me as I felt that I am losing my every sense finally and I happily welcomed It I allowed myself to get lost in the lap of darkness far away from this cruel world where I am not broken by love where I am a human with basic human rights where I live happily.

I told her as I felt tears pricking the back of my eyes. “I… don’t… want to be… a burden… anymore…” She responded and I couldn’t hold it anymore. My eyes begin to get wet and the tears have started to come down my face. “Oh, baby. No. No. You are not. Never ever say that. A burden is something you’re forced to carry against your will, you, my Hailey, my sweet Hailey, I freely choose to be a part of your life. That means you aren’t and will never be a burden to me.” I held her closer to me and she buried her face on my chest.

Still my little sister beneath the ice. It was enough. The darkness pulled me under. * * *

With that, I stood up with my tears now slowly sliding down my face. “Hi, where are you going?” I can hear Candice's voice but all my heart is telling me is to get away from here. I began walking without thinking about where I am going. Just this urge to get away from this laughter and love. Walking, I hear the people I pass “I love….” “You are my…..” With every word I hear, my heart stings a little bit more, my lungs are unable to breathe. Was I cursed that I would not have this in my life?

he said dreamily. “Me too.” Inara said, her hand on her stomach as they smiled at each other and joined Enya’s voice again to sing; Lying in the long grass Close beside her Giving her the name Of the one the moon loves This will be the day she Will remember When she knew his heart was Loving in the long grass Close beside her Whispering of love And the way it leaves them Lying in the long grass In the sunlight They believe it’s true love And from all around them

I gave in completely, reckless under his teasing, drowning in the pleasure we shared. Right at the peak, I saw Travis’s face up close. I jolted awake, heart hammering, drenched in cold sweat. My legs felt weak. I wanted to go downstairs and pour a drink just to steady myself. Then I heard a few careless jeers from the living room. “Some men want it so bad they’re going crazy, but because they’re afraid of scaring the woman they love, they play the saint.” One of Travis’s friends lounged on the sofa with a whiskey glass in hand, his voice lazy and dripping with mockery. “Not naming names.”

Hence, I would stealthily wipe my tears away and murmur with envy, "That's nice. I envy your mommy for always having someone by her side." Now, the irony of it all was suffocating. My best friend, who had stayed with me through my days in the hospital while I struggled with depression, was the same person who slept beside the man I loved at night.