The Revenge of One Humiliated
I am always afraid of everything.
I get up. I go to the window. I look at the garden. I look at the snow. I look at the little house at the bottom. I look at the light in his window. I look at his shadow moving, coming, going, waiting, hoping, loving. And I tell myself that this is courage. It's not having no fear; it's being afraid and going anyway. It's not having no doubts; it's doubting and choosing anyway. It's not never running; it's running and coming back anyway. It's not never falling; it's falling and getting back up anyway. It's not never suffering; it's suffering and loving anyway. It's not never being broken; it's being broken and continuing anyway. It's not never being lost; it