Novel & Cerita Will Never Be Enough

I was right… I never should have hoped… Happiness is not something I will ever be blessed with. Maybe this time it’s not the fear of someone taking her from me, but it’s the fact that I will never be enough. She will never care for me the way I care for her. My heart thuds as I stare at the blood-stained water, realising what I had just said. Care… I cared… I let out a low, humourless laugh. Of course, I cared… or I would not be in this state.

Safe. “That I’ll never be enough,” I confessed softly. “That no matter how hard I try, I’ll always fall short — in love, in life, in everything.” His thumb brushed over my knuckles. “Kourt, I see you. Not the mask, not the polished version you show the world, but you. And that you, the real you, is more than enough. You’re more than enough.” I swallowed the lump in my throat, tears prickling behind my eyes. I leaned into him, seeking the comfort his presence always seemed to bring.

I’m not that strong. “I just…” My voice cracked, and I took a moment to breathe before speaking. “I just feel like there must be something wrong with me. I am a good person. A good daughter, a good wife. But those things never seem to be enough. My stepsisters barely have their lives together, yet they are shown love every single day. Apparently, Olivia is bad for Adrian’s life and business, but he seems to love that. Being me, being good, it’s never enough. I’ve just never been enough.” Naomi’s face softened, her eyebrows lifted, and the frown lines that had formed at the corners of her mouth left.

“You were never enough.” The words slam into me. Not because I believe them, not anymore, but because I once did, and the memory of that pain is enough to shake me. “You were meant to be nothing,” he snarls. “You still are.” The crowd of frozen pack members blink into movement, heads turning toward me with empty, hollow eyes. “Not enough.” “Never enough.” “She’s unworthy.” Their voices pile atop one another, echoing like crashing waves. Riven steps toward me again, and this time, his features warp. Skin tears. Eyes bleed white fog. His mouth stretches wide.

No matter what. This moment. This love. This choice. This reality. That was enough. Always enough. Forever enough. Completely enough. Undeniably enough.

“Last night, you told me you almost gave up. Almost quit. Almost disappeared. And I’ve been thinking about that all night.” “Lucian—” “Let me finish. Please.” He takes a breath. “I need you to know something. I need you to hear this. Really hear it.” “Okay.” “I will never let you feel that way again. Never let you feel like giving up is the answer. Like running is the solution. Like you’re not enough.” His voice is intense. Certain. “You are enough. You’ve always been enough. And I will spend every day for the rest of my life making sure you know that. Feel that. Believe that.”

"The worst thing is that I don't even know how to correct my wrongs." I close my eyes, pressing my forehead to my knees as the first part of rain start to drop from the sky, wetting me. "I just want to be ready. I don’t want to lose anyone else because I wasn’t enough. I don't want to lose to anyone because I wasn't enough." 'Then stop thinking you’re not enough.' Nyra murmurs. I snort. "It's not that easy, Nyra." I look at the sky as the rain intensifies.

Forever would never end. We were family. We were love. We were everything. And that was enough. More than enough. Perfect. THE END

It feels like a giant tangled ball of vines that I can never fix. I feel like I am drowning under a huge wave in the Moonwave Shore. I cannot find any air. I know I need to stop crying. I need to find my scroll and start fixing the plans. But I do not move. I just stay in a small pile on the floor, biting the cloth hard. The words keep running around in my brain over and over again. I am broken. I am not enough. He saw right through me. Now the whole world will see that I am nothing.

One moment of beauty at a time. Together. Always together. Exploring forever. Witnessing everything. Being infinite. And it was enough. More than enough. It was everything we needed. Everything we'd ever wanted. Everything.