You Can't Stop The Tears From Falling Down Novels & Stories

Thinking about that day, though, fills my eyes with tears. “Heart wrenching,” I all but whisper the words. It feels like it’s been forced out of me. Out of the deepest parts of my soul. I try to force the sob that threatens to break free, but it’s useless. I tears out of me painfully, leaving me breathless. “How so?” Mia asks, handing me tissue paper. I take it and wipe the tears falling down my face. It does no good because they keep flowing like a damn river. Getting angry at them for how they keep falling, I ball the tissue in frustration before chucking it in the dustbin.

The words come out and a single tear drops from my eye, rolling down my cheek. ##########

For the first time in years I didn’t reach for another mask to cover it. Hot, fast and humiliating tears came rushing down my cheeks. They tracked down the good side of my face and dripped onto the mask in my lap. I swiped at them with the back of my hand but more followed. My shoulders shook as a sound clawed its way out of my chest, it was not a growl, and not a snarl, just a low broken keening that rose and fell like something dying. I pressed the heels of my hands to my eye sockets and tried to force the tears back inside where they belonged. They wouldn’t stay.

For the version of myself who had stood in a storage room and decided to stop pretending and had not fully understood what the pretending had been protecting her from. I cried for all of it. And then I stopped. Not because the feeling was finished. Because the body has limits. Because tears run out. Because at some point the specific physical process of sobbing becomes impossible to sustain and you are simply sitting on a stairwell step with a wet face and the echo of applause from the floor above and the knowledge that a wedding is happening and life is going on and you are still here. Still here. I pressed the back of my hand against my eyes.

Just as he was about to turn, I hid behind the wall as I placed my hand to my chest, tears streaming down my cheeks as I tried to blink them back in, but it wasn’t helping. It felt like the more I tried to keep the tears in, the more they streamed down my cheeks. My heart was racing, it felt like I couldn’t breathe, and I felt like I was choking on my own tears. I held my stomach as I closed my eyes, more tears streaming down my cheeks. “I’m sorry, baby. I am sorry. Mummy is really sorry.” I said as I bent, bowing my head in arm as more tears streamed down my cheeks.

Please don’t let this man ra** me! The hot tears that I was trying so hard to not let them fall, ignored my pleas and started flowing down my cheeks. He stopped what he was doing, getting his weight off my body. For a minute, I thought that he was going to leave me alone, but boy was I wrong. I was stunned when his frame stopped besides me, his hands stretched out, wiping the tears that had managed to escape, furthering my disgust.

Tears started dripping down from her eyes uncontrollably. ...

They were already hurting earlier, but the pain right now became unbearable. I lowered my head and glued my eyes to the floor. Tears started forming on the sides of my eyes. Unlike what I usually do and if I can, I always try to stop them from crawling down my cheeks. However, this time, I feel like my lungs are running out of air if I won't let them out. I watch as my tears drop on the floor. A pair of black shoes stopped right in front of me. I lift my eyes with a blurry sight. I blink the tears away to have a clear sight of who's in front of me.

I push myself to a sitting position. "I can't tell that's not what you want." He says as he sits back on the seat. "I don't want to force you into anything you don't want to do. Besides, that's not how this works. If you don't want what I am offering it's expected that I should stop offering, hence the avoidance." My lower jaw suddenly starts hurting and I know I am going to cry. My lower jaw only hurts when I am trying to stop myself from crying. Why am I crying? I know exactly why. My mouth falls open and I burst into tears. A full-on sob, I can even control it. I try to stop it but my cries just worsen as the tears pour down my lips.