VANDERSomething was off.Knox stood against the pale hospital wall with one foot already out the door. His jaw was clenched, his hands fidgeting by his sides as though he was waiting for someone to call his name or he was debating bolting and hoping no one noticed.He looked disturbed. Hasty. He hadn’t sat a minute in the last hour.Kai and Kael were still hunched on the waiting room couch, their faces carved from exhaustion and anxiety. Luna Ambessa was still in surgery. We hadn’t heard a word from the doctors in over an hour.So when Knox suddenly straightened and said, “I have to go do something,” the entire room fell into a stunned silence.Kael sat up. “What? Now?”Kai raised a brow. “You’re leaving?”Knox barely looked at them. “I’ll be back. I promise. It’s just… important.”My brows furrowed as I straightened from where I was leaning against the window frame. “You serious right now?”Knox ignored me, turning to the exit and completely ignoring my existence. Something wasn’t r
KNOXI’d been sitting in the damn car for hours, the engine off and the heat stifling. A half-drunk bottle of water sat next to me on the passenger seat alongside my chunky jacket.The sun had dipped, turned orange, then blue again. Still, no sign of her. Well, until the back door creaked, and viola, Amber.She dragged a heavy trash bag down the steps behind the restaurant. She didn’t look surprised when I stepped out from the shadows.“It’s not easy to find you,” I said as I pulled closer. “You are supposed to work here but what sort of part-timer shows up once in three days?”“Knox?”“Been sitting here since before your shift started.” I jammed my hands into my pockets. “Figured you’d show eventually.”She tilted her head, studying me with that always-too-curious smirk. “What do you want?”“I need to know where Dala is.”That wiped the grin clean off her face. She tied the trash tighter, then shoved it into the bin. “I don’t know.”“I don’t believe that.”She dusted her hands. “I’m
KAELMy heart might implode.This was stupid. Twisted. Sick. He was my friend, he had been my friend for as long as I could remember and suddenly the thought of him going on a date with someone else obliterated my soul like I had been cast into the damnedest of hell.I caught him before the gate, my courage flying free from me the moment I said his name.“Gabriel!”He didn’t stop at first, probably didn’t hear me. The next word that slipped past my lips, was a cracked desperate plea that surprised even me.“Gabe—please. Don’t leave like this.”I could have sworn even the winds stopped blowing. The sun shone a little less harshly and my breath burst into a sprint, making it unbearably hard to catch.Now, he’d paused, back still turned to me. Though I hadn’t said anything it was without a doubt that he felt it too.He felt it. Gabriel’s hand gripped the gate like he needed it to stay standing. I took a few steps forward, my heart pounding so loud I couldn’t even hear what the guards mu
KAIThe second her lips met mine, time stopped. The feeling was all-consuming. Too much yet too little simultaneously.I thought I was hallucinating, that I was too drunk to tell reality from the flickering nonsense in my head but Arya kissed me back, hard. The hunger in every brush of her lips against mine sent fire coursing my veins.Her hands reeled up to my chest, warm and trembling, and for a second, the room didn’t matter. The whiskey faded. The guilt disappeared. All I felt was her mouth on mine, her breath against my skin, the desperation in how she kissed me like it was wrong but she needed it anyway, just like I needed her.I kissed her with a fervor that I didn’t know I had in me. Just as suddenly, she pulled away with a strained gasp.A sharp, breathless space opened between us. I barely had time to process the look on her face before it hit me— her unforgiving palm crashing into my cheek with all the strength her shaken body could muster.My head snapped sideways. Just a
ARYAI waited.The lights were dim in my bedroom, almost off just how I loved it.The room was warm— perfect temperature. Everything in this room was perfect except well, me.My feet were tucked under me on the edge of the chaise, but my hands wouldn’t stop shaking no matter how hard I pressed them together. My phone lay face down on the vanity table, silent for nearly an hour since the package had been delivered.The envelope of doom, I called it. The envelope that will set things ablaze.My heart kicked again just thinking about it. I had sealed it myself and every click of the tape gun had felt like a betrayal, every photo tucked inside had been a confession, a definition of who I truly was.I cared for Dala but this aching, this need for Vander, like an unscratchable itch tortured me. It enlarged in size and depth as time slipped by, and the realization that this could stay a farfetched dream felt like a barbell pressing against my unbearable heart.It was unbearable but it had to
KNOXThe hallway felt colder than usual and it worsened for some reason when I found Vander pacing outside the East Wing, his jaw clenched, eyes wild like he hadn’t slept a wink.We were both unraveling thread by thread. I thought about walking away but the possibility that I could be the reason why things were this terrible lumped up in my throat, so I approached him.“Hey.”Vander’s head snapped toward me. “Did you find anything?” he barked. “Did she call you? Text you? Anything?”I shook my head. “No. But I spoke to Father.”Vander stopped pacing. His expression didn’t change much but I saw the tightening around his mouth and that little flicker of disdain that always came with that name.“Why?”“He’s going to help us find her.”Vander spat out a humorless laugh and leaned against the wall. “Oh, that’s rich. What does he want in return? A rainbow in a sack?”“I know you don’t trust him but you know damn well he is our best option. He knows people. If anyone’s moving around our terr