Husband Leaving

How do you feel when your beloved husband is left behind when she is deeply in love with him? Even our marriage had not yet been 2 years old when Farhan Alamshah left me forever. My heart is empty. Similar to a house left unattended.

I never thought my husband would leave me so soon. Although he did tell me about the regurgitation problem, a leak in his heart valve.

It's not that we didn't try to work out that health problem. Even the best doctors in the city have operated to repair a leak in his heart valve. After all, we cannot escape the fate of death.

A gentle Farhan, who never got angry, and was always good at talking and acting to anyone who hated him, even when he looked down, leaving me with a three-month old fetus in my belly.

I'm intrigued. Unmoved at the side of the body while rubbing a distended abdomen. For the sake of our unborn child, I must be strong. This little peanut is the fruit of our love after all.

Rang in my ear the last words of my angelic man, "Honey, you are a strong woman. I'm sure you can get through this somehow. You're a tough businesswoman, too. Do not give up. Take care my son. If a man names him Devano Kavva Alamshah. If a girl named Divana Kejora Alamshah."

My tears fell over while kissing the back of his hand. Before  finally my crying broke on when the screen monitor goes off and shows a long flatline.

After settle the management of the funeral,  I sat in the ambulance carrying Farhan to the final resting place in Bandung. His homeland. It'll take about five hours.

Here I am at the moment. Sitting passively at the edge of the tomb where the ground was still wet. Farewell my beloved husband. Wait for me in eternity, my dear.

I decided to stay in My late husband's family house. I still don't think how to face the future without him. 

Along our marriage life I really depend on him. Even though I work it was just for had fun and still Farhan ask me to resign after all. 

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