CHAPTER 4

Raquel’s POV

He just looked at me and he didn’t speak. I felt so stupid waiting for him to say anything but there was nothing. I opened the door to leave but he suddenly stopped me and kissed me. My head just went black and I felt was his lips touching mine. My world felt like it was spinning. I was so consumed by the way his lips fit to mine.

He carried me on to his bedroom as we continue to kiss. He places me on his bed and kiss me all over my body. I felt myself getting wet as he started to caress my body. This was all new to me and my mind was totally not able to keep up to it. 

“Have you done this before?” He asked as he lifted my shift off.

“I don’t know.” I was really confused and I had no idea what the hell was going on. “What the fuck are you saying?”

“Have you done this before?” He asked as his fingers slipped inside my panties.

“Oh please, don’t stop.” I pleaded when removed his fingers.

“Ssshh, I got it covered.” He got up and smiled at me wickedly.

He pulled my panties down and his fingers glided in and out of my core. I was moaning loudly and everything was a blur. I was so wet and I never had a guy touch me down there. I was a virgin and I honestly didn’t care that I was giving it up to him. I was already on my out of the world experience with the way his fingers were working his magic on me then he went down on me. He replaced his fingers with his tongue and I was in oblivion. I had orgasm after orgasm with what he was doing and I was wanting more.

How can someone actually miss something that you haven’t experienced before. I never fuck someone before but it felt like I was missing his penis inside me. I mean, I had no idea what to do but everything was happening so fast and I didn't want it to stop. He started to undress me completely. He kissed every single part of me. His hand and lips were everywhere and I was just grabbing the sheets on his bed while enjoying this new feeling that he awakened in me.

“Have you done this before?” He asked as he stood naked in front of me.

“No.” I admitted.

“Are you sure you want to do this?” He asked as he was opening a condom.

“Yes.” I sat up from his bed while staring at his penis as he put the condom on.

“Try to relax then.” He captured my lips and settled on top of me. “I’ll try to make it less painful.” He started pumping his fingers inside me. “Just relax.”

I felt him put his penis inside me and my eyes watered in pain. He looked at me and put my hands on his shoulders. He then places one of his hands on my hips and the other palming my breast. Then he shoved his entire length inside of me. It felt like I was being split into two. It was definitely painful. I mean he was huge and honestly I had no idea how he managed to put it inside me. I moaned loudly as he continued to pound on me repeatedly.

The pain that I felt was covered with the pleasure. I love everything he was making me feel and what he was doing to me. I was too shy to touch him back so I kept my hands on his face or shoulders or arms. It was so magical for me. I felt like we were connected in a more intimate way.

After we were done, I hoped that we could cuddle and talk but he just got up and went to the bathroom. Maybe he was just disposing of the condom he used but he was in there for more than fifteen minutes. I mean it should only take him a second I wasn’t that naïve but I can’t decide on what to do whether I should get up to follow him or leave. I just kept staring at the door waiting for him to come out while I replay the things that he fucking did to me.

Jeez, is he regretting what happened between us.

Did I do something wrong?

What the fuck should I do?

Should I follow him?

I was so confused. Then his phone started ringing and he came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his torso. He answered the call but it seemed like I turn deaf. I couldn't hear a single word that he was saying. I just remain laying on his bed while staring at him. He put on his clothes in a hurry and packed some of his things.

"I have to go." He stated. "Lock the door when you leave."

"What?!" I stare at him totally confused.

"I need to go. Here..." He took money from his wallet and place it in my hands. "Stay as long as you need. I have to go."

“Sacha?”

“I have to go. Just lock the door when you leave.” He stated before leaving.

I remained frozen in place as he left. He just left after what happened between us. How can he just leave? He even washed me off of him. I felt tears running down my cheeks as I stared at the two hundred dollars he gave me. Was that all my virginity worth to him? How can he just fuck me and pay me? How can he treat me this way? Maybe he just had an emergency. I mean he did say that he needed to go and I wasn't really paying attention to what he was saying when he was talking to someone. He does usually give me money, perhaps I was just over thinking this. He seemed to care about me. I mean, he did make me feel great and the moment we shared was so magical and I really felt that he made sure I loved every moment of it.

I laughed as I recall those stupid things that were running in my mind the day that he left me after we first had sex. I made love with him but perhaps for him it was just a meaningless sex. Well, regardless of what it meant to him it meant a lot to me during that time. Now, looking back at it I realize how naive and stupid I was but what can I say he knew just what to say and knew what he had to do. If he did play me, he made sure that I loved every second of it. And I may hate him but I can never really stay mad at him. I love him so much that when he broke my heart it was shattered to a thousand pieces.