Damn it is cold out here! I thought it was supposed to be like 50 degrees today. Lord, I hate the cold. I said, bundling myself up tighter around my neck, which had apparently disappeared in between my shoulders and head. The wind was blowing havoc in my face as I made my way to work in busy downtown New York.
I was fresh, well not exactly fresh…maybe 2 years or so, out of college and going to my job. A job I loved by the way. I wasn’t a big time anything, yet. I was only a receptionist, but I had a purpose and a plan. I was going to be somebody’s CEO somewhere. I promised myself I would not end up doing some normal job outside of my field of study. I wasn’t about to waste the time I spent at school nor my parent’s money. We all worked hard for me to be something. But for now, I was grateful I even had a job and not interning. This job afforded me the opportunity to move to New York, the city that never sleeps, on my own. I was able to afford and maintain my apartment, my bills, and my independence.
I stopped in my favorite coffee shop to get my good good cup of joe before heading in. “Good morning, Pop” I spoke to the owner. “Good morning, Eve, my favorite customer. “Hey, hey listen up”, he began screaming. “This young lady is going to be somebody, a big somebody. And I am going to put her picture up right on that wall there.” He pointed, as he spoke to the customers crowded in the shop. My face turned beet red, which is hard for my dark skin, but I could feel the heat in my cheeks as I glimpsed over my shoulder to see some smiling while others completely unbothered.
“Thanks for the vote of confidence Tony. But I doubt any of these people care.” I said still blushing. “Ah, what do they know? I care and you, young lady are gonna be something special, mark my words. What can I get ya? The regular?” “Yes please, and one of your apple fritters!” I loved his fritters. It was always the little things, the simple pleasures of life. “You got it! A large extra extra and one fritter for my CEO.” He winked and I smiled.After my daily dose of encouragement from Pop, as we affectionately called Tony, I headed into work.
As I said, I had been in the city for over 2 years. After graduation I quickly ran North chasing the 'big dream'. I wanted to be somebody, and the opportunities were different here compared to the South. Not to say anything bad about the South, I am a proud southern gal to the heart, but things are different up here. I needed a faster pace, and a challenge. At home, it is easy like Sunday morning any day of the week. People here are a lot less involved with other people, but that came with the territory. There are pros and cons to everything you do so…
I got my job while finishing up finals. I started looking early, because I had a plan. I didn’t want to be out here naked. I needed to know I had a job and a home before anything. My parents wanted me to stay but I couldn't see myself building a future and doing all the things I wanted to do in that small town. I needed the big city I needed New York, which is why I'm here.
It was scary when I first got here, small town girl in a big city. But I quickly learn to adjust in the freedoms of this amazing place. For the first time in my life aside from college, although I went home every weekend, I was on my own. Had to put on my big-girl panties and face this world on its terms.
So far things have been excellent. I love my job oh, and I love the city life. I've made a lot of great friends here, my best friend’s being Janet and Marshall. We all live in the same building and spend more time with each other than we do alone. Janet is in fashion she loves clothes. All of her days are spent sitting in the middle of the floor with patterns all over the place. Marshall is in a band and we go see them wherever they play. He's the lead singer and they do pretty good, I'm a fan.
I've gone on a few dates since I've been here. Nothing serious just casual dating. Although I most of my dates lately had been with Stewart or Stu as he liked to be called. He wasn’t my boyfriend, just someone I spent time with. He was pretty cool; we had a lot in common. He wasn’t looking for anything serious either so there was no pressure. Besides, I wasn’t about to be giving my forbidden fruit to anyone who didn’t put a ring on it. I was young but no fool! I had my fair share of relationships, and I love me enough not to just be giving it away.
My parents don't agree with casual dating they have old southern traditions especially about sex. They believe that you should wait until marriage and that you should always be aiming toward the goal of being married. I thought about it but it's not something that’s important right now I have plenty of time for that. What is important to me right now is making sure I achieve all my goals before I get tied down to family life. I'm only 26 so have plenty of time for that.
Janet on the other hand, is a hopeless romantic. She believes that everyone should be in love. She can go on and on about her endless romantic encounters, she is indeed hopeless. In myeyes she falls in love way too easily, but I can't help but be happy for her each time it happens.
Her current boyfriend Billy is pretty cool. Let Janet tell it it's nothing but bubbles and rainbows. Janet can go on and on for days about how in love she is with Billy, after only weeks of knowing him. So, who was I to kill her dreams? I rode with her, if she was in love I was in love with the idea.
Marshall on the other hand has never really been one for love. He believes that musicians don't fall in love. They have what he would call groupie love. Plenty of women who love them for the music they play, or the idea of them being in a band not for who they are. Which is sad if you think about it. He said he would be in love with the idea of being in love. He wasn’t ruling it out, he just never really felt it. Girlfriends got in the way of his image. Marshall would say it’s easier being a sex symbol if you’re single, than tied down. I can respect that.
Entering the building I was greeted by the doorman Mr. Johnson. He is the kindest man I've met since I've been here. “Good morning Mr. Johnson. I spoke with a smile. “Good morning, Miss Eve” Mr. Johnson said back”. Although he is older than me, he is very respectful. He opened the door holding it for me. “How are you this morning?” I asked. Mr. Johnson always makes my mornings. “God saw fit for me to see another day so I'm doing okay. And you?” “Amazing thanks for asking.” “I see you got your favorites from old Tony’s this morning.” He said and laughed. Mr. Johnson and I have had many conversations about Pops and how good his coffee and fritters are. Mr. Johnson has been going there for years. Him and Mr. Tony are good friends. “Oh God yes. I said and clutched them to my chest as if to give them a hug. “Alright now, you enjoy and have a great day.” “I plan on it and you do the same.” Mr. Johnson tipped his hat to me and turned around, going back to his post. He always made my mornings. There are some people you just can’t live without and Mr. Johnson was one of them. Thinking of him made me smile.
Pressing the button on the elevator I wait for it to come. There were a few people waiting with me, but no one I knew. There are different companies within the same building, so it wasn’t odd. I rode with new people all the time. The elevator came and we all got on. I pressed the button for the 36th floor, which is where our company was. I stepped off the elevator, and through the glass doors to my desk. Unloading my bag, coffee, jacket, and fritter, I sat down to enjoy breakfast before this busy day ahead of me. I knew my boss had a lot for me to do and I was prepared for it. I decided to take the subway today instead of riding my bike, so my helmet was one less thing I had this morning. I usually stay on top of my game and my job, so I was never stressed. I've seen many people huffing and puffing about their day. But I have a great boss. We are busy, but my job is easy, so I spend a lot of my days staring out the window at the building across from us. I imagine that would be my o
The train couldn't get there fast enough as I dashed up the stairs and to my building. My mind was racing a thousand miles a minute. I was ready to curse Tammy out. She played me. She knew how I felt, and she went behind my back after him anyway. I wrestle with my keys trying to get them in the door. I took the elevator to my floor and raced to my apartment door. I flung the door opened and busted through it, slamming it behind me. I didn't want to be bothered I just wanted to cry. I dropped everything at the door, kicked my shoes off and ran to my room. I fell across the bed and bawled like a baby. He was supposed to be my future... my forever. She had no right. “She had no right”, I screamed into my pillow. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore. I never cried over a man before. This was crazy but my feelings were hurt. And it wasn't about Mr. Black… stupid Black. It was about Tammy and how she betrayed my trust. It was as if my feelings didn’t matter, like she didn't know he was off
I hadn’t realized I was that tired. I slept like a rock. I woke up and saw the text from Stu. It read, dress comfortably, which I did. Only some jeans, an oversized cow neck sweater and some boots. I kept my hair cut short, so I didn’t have any work to do. I liked makeup but I wasn’t the glam type. I pulled myself together and headed out.Stu and I went to dinner at this little Italian spot. The food was amazing, and place was cozy. We ate and talked for a long time. I appreciated the simplicity of Stu, way more than I had before. The energy was good, and he was easy to be around. I felt no pressure to be anything more than Eve.We laughed and played around freely. The night was going well until I looked up to see my worst nightmare staring me in the face with the look of anger across his face. Mr. Black was headed out the door and looked up to see me laughing with Stu. He cocked his head to the side, as he and his friends continued to walk out. I put my attention back on Stu, unbot
The alarm went off, so I hit the button and jumped up. It was an early day for me, as usual. I am usually up at 5, get my work out on, jump in the shower, and at the office by 7. I am the CEO, so I gotta set a good example right. Today I had a pretty light schedule, only a few meetings then free for the remainder of the day. My team was strong, so no micromanaging for me. I paid them well to ensure that.I knew starting out I didn’t want to be 'that guy'. In college, I worked for this little Rinky dink company for 'that guy'. You know the a-hole that has a badge, so he thinks he’s somebody? Yeah, nah my man, I am going to show you what a somebody looks like. I am from the hood, the boogie down Bronx, to be exact so that is a no-fly zone. Flexing on us is a no no. But I learned to hit them where it hurts, them pockets. He quickly learned not to mess with me, respect son, that’s all I ask. I didn’t need to be a tough guy to get my point across, but it didn’t hurt none that I could be.T
I pulled up to the building where the valet was waiting to take the cars. “Yo, Mr. Black. Tell me you saw that game?” Jason the valet said as I got out. “Damn, it must have been a good game, you the second person that asked me that.” We dapped up and I gave him my keys. “Awe you missed it? Nah, tell me you didn’t miss it? They were balling out yo!” He said and hit a move like he was shooting a basket. I didn’t take it as disrespect, that’s how we spoke here. He knew when and when not to. “Yeah, I missed it, but I will watch it tonight, I dvr'd it. Don’t scratch my ride.” I looked at him sternly and he knew play time was over. “Yes sir, Mr. Black, I got you.”I tipped him and walked to the door.“Good morning Mr. Black, how are you this fine morning?” “Great Mr. Johnson, how are you?” “Any day above ground is a good day.” Mr. Johnson was one of the best doormen and people I had ever met. He really took pride in his job and loved his family. “How’s the family? Tell Mrs. Johnson hello for
Yes son, why? What happened?” I laughed because she was over this woman thing. “Hear me out. I slammed into this woman today and she literally took my breath away. I felt feelings I have never felt before. It was from my core Mom; I could feel her in my spirit. It scared me a little. And now I can’t get her off my mind. I can’t work, I can’t think straight, am I tripping?” I laid it all out there to the one woman I trusted more than anyone in the world. “Okay son, take a deep breath.” I blew it out. “Okay, now what happened? And I need details.” I tried to pull myself together, she really had me tripping. “I went to the café to get lunch. When I walked in the door she jumped down and slammed into me. I held her for support and all hell broke loose. I was sweating, my heart skipped a beat, and a warm feeling came over me. She didn’t even say anything, but I could feel her speaking to my soul Momma, I could feel her.” I shook my head, listening to myself still unable to believe what wa
I went up to my office and shut it down. I still had some things to finish but I didn’t feel like doing anything, nothing else mattered. I needed to go. I called for my car, which was there when I got downstairs. I got in and headed home. I needed to sleep, and I needed to pray. I know they say God will meet you where you are, but I would not dare disrespect Him drunk. I would sleep some of this off, shower, then pray. I needed some direction, and I needed an answer. I ended up passing out.I woke up the next morning, to the sound of my phone going off. I scrambled around to find it. I tried to focus and saw that it was Stephanie was calling, I was late. I was my own boss, but I led by example, so being late was unacceptable. “Yeah?” I answered. “Hello…Adam. Are you alright? Do you know what time it is?” I barely had my eyes opened. “Nah, what time is it?” “8 am!” I jumped up. I had to get it together. I don’t even drink like that. This woman had me all messed up, I didn’t pray last n
I got to the bar just in time for my drink. The fellas had ordered a round, and I was happy. I needed this straight and fast. I knew me and if I didn’t calm down, I would be back at that restaurant. My pregame buzz was gone, so I took the shot straight to the head.The music was blasting, and I was feeling it. We headed to the dancefloor. I didn’t want to kill the vibe, so I danced to the music. We were standing off to the side but still dancing, and having a good time, until I saw her. This had to be someone’s sick idea of a joke. She was on the dancefloor with the same guy. They must’ve been on a date. Maybe that was her man, and if so, I had made a complete fool of myself. But my heart didn’t believe that. I could feel it; it was something more to it, to us. I watched as they danced, wishing it was me. I paid attention to her body movements, and his hands. The way they danced could tell the whole story.After the song was over, they went back to their table. He left, and she was si