58This is our last day together. Kanina pa ako gising pero hindi pa rin ako bumabangon dahil sa tulog na tulog na Ryven.Nakasiksik ito sa leeg ko habang nakapatong ang braso at hita sa akin. Ginawa pa akong unan.Maya-maya ay bahagya siyang gumalaw. Akala ko gising na ito pero mas siniksik niya lang pala ang sarili sa akin.The butterflies on my stomach are dancing. I just can’t wake him up dahil ayoko pa... gusto ko pang maramdaman ang init niya.Maya-maya rin kasi ay aalis na kami. Nalulungkot ako sa isiping iyon pero mas nangingibabaw talaga ang saya dahil sa unexpected proposal nito kagabi.Wala nga lang singsing.But that’s fine. That’s not my ideal proposal also, hindi rin gano’n karomantiko para sa iba pero tangina ganito ba talaga kapag in love? Lahat ng gawin niya ay ang laki ng nagiging epekto sa akin. Kahit pa casual nga lang nitong itanong ‘yon ay ayos lang... basta siya.Ang corny ko na!Hinintay ko na lang siyang magising at umabot pa iyon ng mahigit kinse minutos. Mu
59I was just sitting at the stair outside the hospital while thinking about what Jai said.What the fuck does she wants? I am still clouded with lots of thoughts and we are in the state of chaos yet she still has the guts to say that? Wow, just wow!I don’t know how would I end up here. Bibili sana ako ng pagkain pero dahil sa sinabi ni Jai ay bigla akong nawalan ng gana. I just let myself breath here although I almost became the mosquitoes’ meal. Ilang minuto na rin kasi akong narito at medyo nilalamig na rin.Until I felt someone’s presence behind my back. Hindi na lang ako lumingon dahil kabisado ko na ang amoy niya. He sat beside me but I faced the other direction.“Pwede na ba akong tumingin?” I asked, still avoiding my gaze from him.I just heard him chuckle and soon after, I felt a warm cloth wrapped around my body. Doon lang ako lumingon para tingnan siya.“Of course,” he answered with a faint smile. Hindi ko magawang ngumiti pabalik dahil halata pa rin ang pamumugto ng mga m
I can’t stop my tears while hurriedly walking out from this damn building. Kung kailan nagmamadali ako, saka naman bumabagal ang oras!I don’t know where am I going! Hindi pa ako handang harapin si Daddy dahil hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari oras na umuwi ako. I don’t have money to check in a hotel. I only have my phone and my baggage! Suddenly, here I am again, a useless one... a pathetic and fragile one. Ano? pupunta na naman ba ako sa bar para doon magpalipas ng gabi?Patuloy pa rin sa pag-agos ang luha ko nang kunin ang phone at tingnan ang mga contacts ko. It only has Emma, Jasper, Jiro, and Ryven. I can’t stay with Emma knowing that Jai was there. Mas pipiliin ko na lang matulog sa kalye kaysa makasama siya. Then I can stay with Jasper.But no. Knowing Jasper, papaulanan lang ako non ng tanong lalo pa at wala siyang ideya sa sitwasyon ko. I can’t explain anything right now. Isa pa, he’s busy reviewing his exam. I can’t be a burden to him.Then that only leaves Jiro. Since
RYVENWhen was the last time I got wasted like this? I don’t remember. I just want to drink and drink and sleep after and repeat. Hindi ko lubos akalain na magiging ganito pa rin pala ako despite the fact that I have someone who’s waiting for me, who has been there to listen to me. Right now, I only think of myself.Oo, gago ako, hindi ko lang napapabayaan ang sarili ko, kundi pati si Fevianna na nandiyan para tulungan ako.I don’t know what path should I take anymore. I was left alone... mag-isa na lang ako. I lost a family. I don’t know how will I prove myself to Fevianna anymore.“You’re here again, asshole.”I stared blankly at the man beside me, who, in surprised, happen to be my drink buddy. He’s a regular customer in this nightclub where I once saw Fevianna getting harassed.I just want to see that asshole’s face again and completely wreck his life now that I don’t have anyone to stop me.Oh—I am also an asshole, so yeah, I will bring him in hell along with me.“Want some?” Fr
RYVEN“All of you! Sec-”Matthew cut his sentence off as he finally saw me before he could enter in his car.Suddenly, his expression changed. “Oh, so my ungrateful son visited.”I look firmly at him. “I am not your son.”Natigilan siya na tila may napagtanto. “Ah right, I got used to it.” He chuckle sarcastically. “So? What brings you here?”“Where did you bring Fevianna?” His eyes widen, didn’t expect what I asked but soon he composed himself.“Are you looking for her too?”My eyebrows furrowed. Hindi ako sumagot pero maya-maya ay mahina siyang tumawa. “I thought you’re with her.”I clenched my fist, annoyed by hearing his laugh. Until his expression slowly change and it is now back to being furious.“You know what, this is your fault.”I wasn’t ready when he suddenly launched a punch against my right lip. I stepped backward as I tasted blood coming from it. He, then again laughed but it is now because of annoyance.I am now breathing heavily, resisting myself from taking back the
FEVIANNAI slowly open my eyes and immediately felt my head ache. I held it while forcing myself to rose up.This room is familiar. Wait. Where am I?I roamed my eyes around the room and it made my head ache more as I realized where this is!This is my room in our house in province! What am I doing here? Pinilit kong alalahanin ang mga pangyayari pero halos walang pumapasok sa utak ko dahil sa sakit ng ulo. Until someone knocked on the door and eventually open it.My eyes widen when I saw gran so I immediately went down the bed and about to approached her when I was stopped because of something on my feet.I lowered my head to look at it and confusion immediately filled within me as I saw a chain tied on my right foot.My eyes widen as I look at Gran. She just smile bitterly at me.“Gran? What’s the meaning of this?”I am now starting to suspect her when her eyes formed tears but she
“One hundred twenty-seven hours, seven thousand six hundred twenty-three minutes... five days.”That’s the exact hour and minute, since I was brought here. All I did was to count. Nakaupo lang ako sa kama habang nakasandal sa headboard at nakatingin sa wall clock.Until when will I be staying here? Ni hindi ko alam kung kailan ang huli kong tulog. I am not hoping anymore that someone will come and save me. There’s no one who can save me but only me. In the end, ako lang din ang dapat kong asahan.I was busy still counting the clock but the door suddenly open and there were three guys who saunters without even introducing themselves and suddenly unlocked the chain.“Who the hell are you?” salubong ang kilay na tanong ko nang hilahin nila ako para patayuin.Later on, Gran followed and she was looking sadly at me. “Listen to us, Fevianna. We’ll bring you to a much safer place.”I shook my head and forcefully free
I was woken up by consistent noise that coming from the outside. I guess there were three or four of them base on what voices I am hearing. Dahil sa ingay nila ay naistorbo na ang pagtulog ko.Nang bumangon ako ay saktong bumukas ang pinto at iniluwal nito ang mga taong matagal ko nang hindi nakikita.“How’s my daughter?” he sarcastically asked.I clenched my fist as I look firmly at him. As usual, wala pa rin siyang emosyon. Naroon din ang dalawang kapatid ko na hindi ko mawari kung anong klaseng tingin ang ipinupukol sa akin.Are they worried of me... or disappointed? Perhaps, it’s the latter. But Gin wasn’t there which filled confusion within me.“The hell are you doing here?” I asked, still clenching my fist as I look sharply at each one of them.Fion, as usual, is looking at me like I’m a trash. Fellin, of course, she couldn’t even look straight into my eyes. Moments later, the door open and my grandmothe