I knew that this scene was forever going to etch itself into my memory. Haunting my dreams every day, replaying itself into my mind over and over like a form of motherfucking torture. The rules of the Cosa Nostra had been broken. This was the price I had to pay for the fucked up life I lived. I’d chosen this way of life, and I had to deal with the consequences.
Even if it killed me.
From this day forward…
I would never be the same again.
4
luca
“You motherfucker…” I seethed, locking eyes with Massimo. Letting him know how much I despised him in this moment. Letting him know how much I fucking hated what he’d just done.
“Spare me the fucking sentimental bullshit,” Massimo snarled. “If we’d gone back to your Pops empty-handed, and let someone get away with a ninety grand fucking debt, how the fuck do you think he would react? It had to be done.”
“HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FUCKING TOLD YOU?!” I roared. “NO CHILDREN! NO WOMEN, AND NO FUCKING CHILDREN, MASSIMO!”
I felt my body shake into a frenzy, as the horror continued to play itself out in front of me. This couldn’t be happening.
This couldn’t be fucking happening.
“My father isn’t the boss, I am,” I sneered. “I call the fucking shots, not you. Know your goddamn place, Massimo.”
“We need to get rid of these bodies,” Massimo snarled. “Our DNA is all over the place. Drop your over-inflated fucking ego and the high horse act for once, and help me clean up this mess.”
I balled my hands into fists, ready to hurl at him. Cleaning up the mess was the first thing on his mind, even after the atrocity I’d just witnessed. I took a step closer to him, but then suddenly…
He went flying, falling straight on-to the ground with a hard and painful smack.
My eyes flashed upwards to see that Fizz had knocked him down to the ground by knocking his barrel on his head. He loomed over him, his bloodshot eyes staring at him dead in the face.
I knew that this was a hasty decision on Fizz’s side…
But I wasn’t going to stop him.
He had to do what he had to do to put his mind at rest.
To teach Massimo a lesson.
“F – Fizz, w – what are you d – doing m – man?” Massimo rattled, his body shaking into a frenzy, as the blood on the floor soaked his body.
“You went too far, Massimo…” Fizz breathed, his chest heaving upwards and downwards.
“Come on man, we can g – get through this! Don’t do this! You’re going to regret this!” Massimo pleaded for his life.
“The only thing I would regret doing is letting you walk out of here alive,” Fizz snarled, and shot Massimo three times straight in the chest, not bothering to hear his cries for help anymore.
“Shame, I wanted to torture that motherfucker…” Fizz breathed. “But the sooner I put an end to his breathing, the better.” He shook his head, turning on his heel.
“Fuck!” Sergio roared. “What have you done, Fizz?! Massimo is one of the main men, if the others realize that you killed him…”
“He broke the code of the Cosa fucking Nostra,” Fizz sneered. “No room for anybody who can’t respect the family’s boundaries and limits that have been set. You got a problem with that, Sergio?”
“N – no, but…”
“Or do you want to join him? ‘Cos I’ll put a bullet straight through you right now, and let the devil drag you straight to Hell, you bastard.” Fizz cocked his head to the side.
Sergio swallowed. “No. Of course not.”
“No fucking arguments then.”
“I’ll deal with my father,” I breathed, folding my arms. “What’s done is done. We need to get out of here.”
“But what about the bodies…”
“Lorenzo and Kane, you two stay here and clean up this mess. Get rid of all the blood, get rid of all the goddamn DNA.” I shook my head. “Dash Massimo’s body in a river for all I fucking care, but make sure you bury the woman and her kids. It’s the least they deserve.”
I continued to sob, screaming and screaming for the doctor to come, but I couldn’t hear a single noise. Time stood still. It felt like I’d been waiting for an eternity.I could feel my heart shatter into millions of tiny pieces as my father continued to call out to my dead mother to be reunited with her. He’d given up. Given up on me, given up on the Cosa Nostra. And for the first time in my life, even though my father was dying in my arms…Was the first time I saw hope in his eyes. The love and hope he had for my mother, to be reunited with her in the afterlife.“I l – love you, Luca. I know you’ll carry on my l – legacy. I know you’ll do me p – proud…” Dad whispered, his eyes glistening with tears. “Don’t let the others g – get to you. You’ve worked s – so hard. You’ve done so much f – for m – me…”“Please, Dad. Please don’t do this,” I wept, screaming bloody murder. Screaming until I was blue in the face, screaming until my throat went dry. Screaming until I had nothing left inside
“YOU MOTHERFUCKER!” I roared, grabbing hold of my gun and pointing it straight at his face. There was no way that he was going to get away with speaking to me like this, and live to tell the fucking story. I didn’t care how important he was to my dad. Nobody took me for a dickhead and got away with it.“See?” he snarled, smirking at the gun. “Your only answer. You’d kill your own family for giving you a reality check. When it’s only the truth that’s coming out of my mouth.”“You little…” I cocked the gun, my patience wearing thin. Not wanting to listen to his bullshit any longer.“Go on then, shoot me,” he hissed. “Shoot me, you bastard! I could do without being in this fucked up family anymore. SHOOT ME!”I growled loudly. He wanted me to shoot him? Then his wish was my fucking command.“You bastard,” I seethed, and pulled the fucking trigger. The bullet fell straight out of the gun, flying in his direction…But Dad jumped in front of him.“NOOOOOOOO!” I screamed bloody murder. “DAD
They nodded feebly, getting to work.Wasting no time, the rest of us departed from the scene…Ready to make our way back to base.I wasn’t in the right head state…Not in the right fucking state of mind.But I had to pull myself together…Not just for my own sake, but for the sake of everybody else, too.It was time for me to finally have words with my father.***5luca“What the fuck, Dad?” I barked, as I stormed into his office.Dad was sitting there with Jamal, drinking whisky straight from the bottle. I knocked the bottle out from his hands, and poured it all over the floor, disgusted at the sight of him.“What the fuck, Luca?!” Dad roared angrily. “What are you doing?”“Wake the fuck up, Dad,” I snarled. “Stop drinking. It’s all I ever see you fucking do.”Dad rattled his fists angrily, banging them down on the table. Jamal screwed his face, folding his arms.“What’s up your ass?” Jamal sneered. “Did you collect the debts from Tariq?”“No,” I retorted. “He wasn’t at the goddamn
I knew that this scene was forever going to etch itself into my memory. Haunting my dreams every day, replaying itself into my mind over and over like a form of motherfucking torture. The rules of the Cosa Nostra had been broken. This was the price I had to pay for the fucked up life I lived. I’d chosen this way of life, and I had to deal with the consequences.Even if it killed me.From this day forward…I would never be the same again.4luca“You motherfucker…” I seethed, locking eyes with Massimo. Letting him know how much I despised him in this moment. Letting him know how much I fucking hated what he’d just done.“Spare me the fucking sentimental bullshit,” Massimo snarled. “If we’d gone back to your Pops empty-handed, and let someone get away with a ninety grand fucking debt, how the fuck do you think he would react? It had to be done.”“HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FUCKING TOLD YOU?!” I roared. “NO CHILDREN! NO WOMEN, AND NO FUCKING CHILDREN, MASSIMO!”I felt my body shake into a fre
“Come on, let’s go.” I nodded towards Massimo, Sergio and the other men.“What, we’re just going to go after coming all this way?” Sergio snarled. “Aren’t we going to make that motherfucker pay?”“You said yourself feds are trailing the place, so we need to get the fuck out of here anyway,” I shot back, pissed off that they had the audacity to argue back to me. They were my men. They had to follow my fucking orders.“I checked the window, there’s no cop cars,” Massimo snarled. “We’re staying here until the job’s finished. Nobody makes a fool out of us and lives to tell the fucking story!”“I said stand the fuck down, Massimo!” I roared. “No innocents, remember! This is just a poor woman and her fucking kids, Tariq isn’t here! There’s nothing we can fucking do!”“Know your fucking place, Massimo,” Fizz seethed, narrowing his eyes, as he shot Massimo a warning look, meaning that he meant business.This only riled up Massimo even more.“Fuck it, Massimo,” Sergio sighed. “Let’s get out o
“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?!” I roared, turning around to Massimo. “YOU SAID THAT HE WOULD BE HERE, YOU MOTHERFUCKER! YOU WASTED MY TIME COMING OUT HERE ON A FUCKING WHIM!”I grabbed hold of him by his collar, causing his face to go beetroot red as he started struggling for air.“I t – thought he would b – be here, Boss, please!” Massimo struggled.“You useless piece of shit,” I snarled, letting go of him. “You’re a fucking joke.”He began wheezing, doing his best to regather his strength, allowing oxygen to fill his windpipes again. I rolled my eyes. I was so fucking pissed off in this moment, I felt like putting a bullet straight through Massimo for the shit-show that was happening right now.“Wait, Luca, can you hear that?” Fizz breathed, his voice dropping to barely below a whisper.“Hear what?” I asked, narrowing my eyes.The room went eerily quiet as we all listened intently.It was almost like we could hear somebody cough up a sob.“We’ve got the bastard,” Sergio, another one of th