Chapter 10 | What Am I?

Raya

I pace around my room feeling energized after the time that I spent with Blade. I feel rejuvenated and desperate to release this pent up energy. I don’t know if it’s from the time I spent with him or the blood that he gave me to drink, but it makes me feel different. I’m almost disturbed by the amount of energy I have.

I’m also disturbed by the amount of blood that I drank and wondering what is wrong with me. I know, I know I’m half vampire so surely these urges are considered normal. But… I feel off.

Is it because I spent my whole life having to deny this part of myself? Is it the actual act of drinking blood?

I don’t know. And that makes me all the more anxious.

I hate being in this room by myself. Although when I first came in here these four walls felt like they weren’t meant to keep me safe, but now… now it feels more like a prison than anything else.

The urge to go and walk around the castle more is strong, but I try to listen to my inner voice and I know for a fact that it