LIIFE LIKE MINE

Chapter 6 

My shoulders remain slugged as my legs barely carried me into my apartment 

And my heart… It has been beating heavily from when I woked up on that bed, with Hudson sleeping beside me

Although he looked peaceful, I know it was just because he was asleep and it won't be long before he remembers last night.

I pulled off from the now uncomfortable dress Shirley had gifted me, slumping into my tiny bed.

Heart threatening to explode at any moment 

‘I had s*x with Hudson?... I f*cking had s*x with Hudson River!!...’ 

The words kept playing on my mind.

What was I thinking. I know I said I will face anything, but I assure that was just hormones speaking. 

And now hormones left the consequences only to me…

Whatever gave me courage to return that kiss should be jailed. Forever

My door jerked open… My heart flipping away at the swift of it's gravity.

It was Julie 

Ooh… 

        “Where in Pete's sake have you been… I have been searching the whole city for you…” 

My gaze remained blankly at the ceiling. Absent-minded to her rants. The matter at hand is more dangerous. Life threatening

Do you know what Hudson is capable of?

He haunts his prey till nothing is left of them. Career. Finance. Family. No organisation will ever hire you.

Who wants to mess with the Rivers

Shiver runs down my spine at the thought of the beginning of my mystery. My downfall 

      “Julie I am done for!” my voice slightly above whisper 

     “Annie I am sorry for yesterday…” she sat, taking my hands into her slim thigh. She probably thinks I am anxious with her.

I wish.

I wish she was my only problem.

        “I am truly done for Julie…” 

         “Forgive me”, she hugged me, making her usual puppy face. 

I am not in the state of mind to look at faces!

        “I had s*x with Hudson…” I whispered over her shoulders 

Silence. Her bunny eyes now fixed at me. 

But then… she laughed… Sarcastically…

Yes… that's Julie for you. Always playing with everything 

I wish it's was funny. Maybe a fantasy; a dream. After all it was always a dream.

 But hell no

This dream smelled it's way to reality

    “I am serious”

And then her smiles disappeared.

Julie always have a bad way of taking and breaking bad news. It never ends well.

She remained silent. Her eyes locked to mine. For a moment I preferred her laughter and rants.

        “I…I don't know how it happened…” I stattered “He… he came at me and… and I pushed him off… but I kissed him again… Julie I rushed him… I am so done for…”

She sat there. No words. Just stares

       “Please say something you're scaring me more…”

    “Did you say you slept with Hudson?” Her voice came, hoarse. “Hudson River?”

I only nodded. The gravity of my offense finally rest solely on me.  

I think it's worse than I was thinking.

I know the worries… Avery. The sexy-six girls, but most of all Hudson.

Hudson is Ruthless. Well that's what they said. 

It has always been there in his eyes.

I think I should run away… Maybe to Aunt Sally in Brazil.

       “Annie… You're so lucky” Julie jumped on me, her hands tightened around my neck.

Maybe she should just strangle me to death before Hudson could find me.

 But what does she mean by Lucky; I am finished! Done for!

       “You're the first… am so proud of you my love” she stood. Her face lit up “I heard he doesn't let Avery touch him… Tell me how was he?”

       “Jeez girl… This is a not celebration. We should be mourning…”

     “Was he hard on you?... Oh his abs must have been so hard and strong… and his lips so soft…”

Her laughter brought back my mind, wandering off along her questions

Fuck girl.

His lips were so delicate, succulent. I could still feel them all over my body.

I held my thudding heart

More memories of last night flooded into my mind. Him pinning me to the bed, holding me close to him. The whispers… 

Gosh what am I thinking…

I shook off the growing thoughts. I had done a good job locking them earlier.

Julie pushed my cheek with her finger “You're blushing… He gave you a hickey?... Ahh you enjoyed it!”

Julie is making the matters worse for me. 

I held my burning cheeks as I dashed into the bathroom.

That devil

He had insisted on placing a mark on my neck, despite my resistance.

   “I know you liked it…” Julie shouted from the room 

Sincerely I do

Sweet bitch

      

Julie hasn't stopped talking about last night. I don't know why she can't let go of that night. It was my night after all

How did he hold you? Was he good? How hard was his shoulders and chest?

Questions upon questions 

      “Was it the dress that caught his fantasy?” She asked against my shoulders, startling me this time.

           “Stop already!” I gave her a glare.

But will she stop? Hell no

I have given her hundreds of glares in the past few hours of the day.

       “Oh my gosh you're all red again” she chuckled 

      “Are you helping me pick my outfit or not?” I asked walking off. 

We had come to buy new office wears for me as I will be one of the designers of RiverStyle. But I haven't made any choice as my mind keeps wandering off.

And the witch behind me was not helping matters 

Julie remained silent. But her smiles never disappeared. 

    “How about seducing him while at the office…”

            “Julie!”

I could feel the amused stares around us. But the devil stood, holding her mouth. Amused

 I knew this was gonna happen!

        “I am not going to work for him, but for his father. Beside he doesn't even come to the company, so I heard”

Grateful for that though. Meeting him there would be a nightmare.

         “Tomorrow will be a great day so please enough with the past talks” I whispered, rolling my eyes at her beaming face.

         “Okay I will stop now”

    “Thank you… I can't wait to meet my mother soon. Just one more step away” 

My heart leaped. That's the feelings I’ve had since I got accepted. Excitement. Expectation.

      “Annie… what if your mom doesn't want to meet you… have you thought of that?” 

    

I stood rigidly 

Her words curled around me like smoke.

I turned…

       “What did you say”

I saw it. Fear. Hesitation. But yet she continued 

       “ I am your friend Annie and I care about you. I mean she hasn't even made effort to find you for twenty-five years. What if your father was right. She choose her career over you”

Her words struck me. The feeling I had fought to bury rose like a storm in the ocean. Doubt. Fear. Anger

       “Annie don't you think you are pushing too much. You studied fashion just to meet her. And now you're going to work with RiverStyle… what if you're one of her past she wanted to bury...”

        “Stop!...” I cut her off. My tears now pouring down. “Stop please…”

        “But Annie…”

I dash off the store. Door slammed behind. Shutting down Julie's rant. But her voice still rang louder over my head.

Damn.