Jess just kept driving, when she saw the name of her town pop up on the highway sign she sped up. She must have blown through the main street stop sign, she was oblivious. That was until she saw red and blue lights flash behind her. Jess had never been so happy to see a cop in her life. The familiar voice of the town sheriff come over a mega phone.
“Jedidiah, turn off the truck and step out of the vehicle with your hands over you head!” He shouted.
Jess flipped the ignition off and sobbed into the wheel. She had forgot that she was completely naked and covered in blood up until this moment.
“Step out of the truck! Don’t make me tell you again!” Even though the spot light from the squad car was bright; she could see in the rear view that his door was open and his gun was drawn.
“Sheriff!” Jess tried to yell but it came out in a broken mess. She opened the door and put her hands out where he could see them. It was an instant realization to the sheriff that it was not a man.
Jess attempted to step out of the truck but the pain from her injuries sent her to the ground. She didn’t try to move instead she just laid there on the asphalt.
“Shit… Jessica Ryan?” He ran from the squad car and took his jacket off to throw over her. “Dispatch, I need a paramedic to my location. Call the Ryan’s I’m looking at Jessica Ryan, Over.”
Static came from the radio, “Repeat. A paramedic or coroner, over?”
“Dammit, Jane a paramedic!”
“10-4. Paramedic enroute, eight minutes, over.”
“I’ve got you Jess. You’re going to be alright, you hear me?” Jess felt the sheriff pick her up and for the first time in a week felt safe.
The following weeks were hard for Jess. If the healing wasn’t bad enough she spent days detoxing from the morphine. Apparently and who knew that if you are given morphine constantly its just as bad as street drugs. The first few days in the hospital she felt feral. She even lashed out at a nurse because she refused to give her morphine. Her mother never left her side and her father came every day after work.
Jess was kept as an inpatient for a few days and over the course of those days she turned away many visitors. She felt like an alien in her own life. How could six days do so much damage. On the last day before she was meant to be released, the hospital wanted to do one more round of blood work. She overhead the nurse talking about a blood pregnancy test.
“I’m not pregnant!” She refused to believe that.
“Honey.” Her mother placed a hand on her shoulder. “They just want to make sure.”
The test came back negative, thank god.
Driving home from the hospital everything seemed so off. Jess knew it wasn’t the town, it was her. She was…off. Pulling up to the house there were a few squad cars in the drive way. She saw the sheriff and instantly wanted to run away. Her mother noticed the discomfort in Jess’ face. “They just need to ask a couple more questions Jess.” Her mother shot her father a grieving look.
This was it. This was her new normal, everyone acting like she was this fragile glass cup.
“I’ve already told you guys everything I can remember! What else do you fucking want from me!” She was holding back tears and opened the car door to get out.
“Now listen here young lady! You will not-” As if on cue her mother reached out and calmed the storm.
“I will be inside being interrogated.” She stormed off as fast as she could on crutches with a full leg cast.
Once inside she sat scowling across the table at a handful of cops and her parents. The sheriff was the first to make a move and cleared his throat.
“We, uh. We have not located Jedidiah yet.” He watched Jess as fear washed over her entire body and the blood drained from her face. Her mother again was the first to react.
“What do you mean you haven’t located him. How many ran down shacks does Beltor County have? She gave you the exact direction.” Her mother stared in disbelief.
“Tess, she gave us a general description of the area. We did find the correct location. Blood evidence is there but, he was not. Now going off of what Jess told us; it is possible we are not even looking for a person but a body. I have my county and the surrounding counties on high alert.” He turned back to Jess, “We are not going to let anything happen to you.”
“He’s not dead.” Jess let a tear fall off her chin and then wiped her cheek.
“Now sugar you don’t know that.” He tried to reassure her.
“DON’T CALL ME THAT!” She stood up abruptly and the chair fell over. “No one EVER call me that!”
“Jess.” Her mother gestured for her to leave the room. She was grateful to oblige.
As she was leaving she told the room over her shoulder, “He’s not dead and he’s not going to let me just go you know.” She gimped out of the room and it took every ounce of her to make it up the stairs. She heard them discussing posting squad cars and providing police escorts to her when she goes to school or out in public until he was found.
She slammed the door to her room and there was a brief silence from the dining room and then whispering. She didn’t care what they had to say. She threw herself on her bed. She had been so use to crying herself to sleep. But right now in this moment she felt nothing. Not fear, or sadness, or hate, just numbness. She gave herself to the absences and slept a deep, dreamless sleep.
Jess woke up shivering; she pulled her blanket up over her shoulders and rolled over. She had never opened her window it was fall and freezing outside. Yet, it was wide open. Every instinct in her body was warning her that something was wrong. “Just go shut it.” She said to herself. She jumped up and shut the window. Without the fresh air she was met with a familiar nose burning smell. Jess was frozen in fear as if her foot was back in a shackle. She felt a presence in her room and felt someone pull up some of her hair. She heard him sniff her hair and her stomach dropped to the floor. How did he get in here with there being cops outside? How did he
Flash forward eight years. Jess had completed the five required years for experience at the local police department. She finally landed herself the role of a Deputy Sheriff. In her small town that meant sitting just inside of county lines trying to catch a speeder, or handling drunken brawls at the local dive bars. Nothing of real excitement. She had talked her parents into letting her rent out her family home when they retired in Florida last March. She was content in her life. She had never regretted not leaving for college and she loved her job. She also loved her fiancé, Trevor. He traveled for work and was gone for weeks at a time but when he was home he lived with her and they made up for the missed time.
Every noise that night had Jess on alert. She hadn’t ever felt the need to one-hundred percent arm the house for movement. Tonight she had set it and almost shot her cat Kitten, when she had gone down stairs to simply use the litter box. When Jess laid back down for the twentieth time Trevor sat up and turned the light on. “What are you doing?” Jess said exhausted. “I figured since you’re not sleeping and I’m not sleeping, we might as well not pretend.” He sat against the headboard and pulled her to his chest to cuddle. She slumped herself against his body and he flipped on the television. “No sleep for the wicked I imagine.” She sighed and he ignored her. “Shall we N*****x and chill?” They both laughed. Jess was grateful for Trevor. He never rushed her. He didn’t look at her like she was broken. He just loved her, all her flaws included. “Let’s wa
Walking into the station Jess was met with the all to familiar stares of pity and silence. All eyes were on her as she made her way towards the sheriff’s office. Philip was the first to approach her. “Hey uh... Stupid question but, how ya doin?” He put a hand on her forearm. “I’m fine.” Jess gave him a half smile. “Nothing I haven’t been through before.” “Ya, well. I guess you're right there. He’s on a call right now but go on in.” He nodded towards the door. Jess knocked. “Come in.” Shouted the sheriff from the other side. She walked in and he gestured to give him a minute. She sat on the chair across from him and just listened to the one side of the conversation. “I want all of Belton, Clevlock, and Destor county looking for this guy. He’s a serial rapist, kidnapper and mu
Here we go. Jess thought as she rolled her window down and put her hand out. She let the wind dance through her fingers and inhaled as if she was trying to smell the pine for the last time. The air was crisp, a little cooler than normal at this time of year. As a child she would always roll the windows down and hang out as far as her mother would let her. Little Jess would stretch out her arms as far as they would reach, to her she was flying. She would sometimes have red marks from her hair whipping her in the face, she never cared. To feel that free sometimes it has to burn a little. Jess hung her head out of the window some and let the wind whip her face. She was ready for the burn. She accepted it at this point. She was ready to burn for her freedom when he came for her.
It was a short trip down the ridge and Jess was not one-hundred percent sure where Jay had parked his car. Unsure what to expect she drove slow. As she came around the second to last bend before the main highway, her headlights lit up Jays squad car. Both doors were open and the road spikes where thrown out across the road. She tried to take in the entirety of the situation before jumping out. After all the ball was now in Jedd’s court. Jess was yet again at the mercy of this psychopath. There was no way she could move the spikes, make it to the squad car, locate Jay and be back in the car. She was lucky he wasn’t at her door ripping her out. She opened the door and was hit with the bitter cold. It was always freezing on this side of the ridge because of the river about forty feet down.&nbs
Jess was aware enough to see Jay on a stretcher as he was hoisted up into the ambulance. She also saw them zip up Jedd’s body bag and slide him into the coroner’s van. The sheriff was quick to her side. “Jess.” He grabbed her hand and she held the other one up to have the paramedics wait. “Thank god you are okay.” The look he gave her was that of a relieved father. She pulled her oxygen mask down and put her hand on his cheek and smiled. “How’s Jay?” She asked concerned. “Oh, well he’s in pretty rough shape Jess. He’s lost quite a bit of blood. Don’t you worry about that right now. Go get yourself looked at.” He nodded at the paramedic’s and they lifted her up into the ambulance. “You did good kid, really good.” He shut the door and double tapped it.
After a few very heavily medicated days in the hospital her brain swelling had gone down and Jess was given the all clear to return home. She hadn’t had any horrible nightmares about Jedd or the shadow figure. Jess could only assume the brain trauma was the culprit to her nasty episode. She was pretty excited to get home and start a life Jedd free. She could jump in on her wedding planning. The first thing Jess did when she got home was pour herself a cup of coffee, snuggle up on her couch next to the fire and pull up Expedia on her laptop. With Trevor closing the last contract she had the money to book her dream honeymoon. In just eight short months she would be basking in the summer sun on the island of Santorini in Greece. Bbbring. Bbbring. &n