AUGUST
“So did you kiss her or not?!” Mary sounded agitated over the phone and there’s only one reason why she’s acting like that. It was only eight-thirty in the morning when she called me just to gather some updates about what happened last night.
I feel like I need more sleep but Mary can’t seem to wait until the afternoon to reach out to me. My head is banging and I’m pretty sure this is caused by the vodka that we had last night. We only had one bottle of vodka and that was enough to make us tipsy and frenzy. That’s the only second time that I’ve had alcohol but it’s the first time that I really felt the numbing sensation that people loved about it. I tried moving a little and I already feel like I’m going to die out of dehydration.
“Hold on, Mary. Cut me some slack and let me get something to drink first.” I spat over the phone.
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AUGUSTThe sun was just climbing its way above the Sunday horizon when I found myself sitting at our front porch while staring at my phone screen. Apparently, I’ve done something that’s worth regretting. I cannot freaking believe that I just sent all of these corny messages to the one and only Rachel Curtis, the most popular girl at school. Who am I kidding? She’s basically a goddess and I’m just a nobody dead hungry for this thing called popularity. I know I made a big mistake when I landed my fist on Ambrose but now I’m starting to think that playing with Rachel Curtis is the biggest mistake that I’ve made to top that. I really think I’m going somewhere for this small act of manipulation. I was well encapsulated in a conscious state of mind when I sent all of these text messages but now I’m starting to reap the feeling of regret. Every single word that I’ve said most definitely meant something
AUGUSTOur first break finally came and the first thing I did was to go to the usual spot where I found Mary, Rock, and Gustav all huddled up. They were all wearing their Monday faces which isn’t that much of a surprise. I would describe it as grumpy and tired. I’m getting confused as to why they look like they are so over this thing called high school life when they clearly don’t have anything to worry about. I am the one who has a lot of things to worry about. I guess I should be the one wearing those long and saggy expressions.“Hey guys,” I put on my cheerful face as I sat down right beside Gustav who was busy having his snack. “How was….” I was about to ask how did their weekends went but Rock cut me off.“So how was it?” Rock asked eagerly, his saggy expression changed to a better one.“How was what?” I asked just having a hint of what
AUGUSTI felt very much contented and filled with a swinging dosage of confidence after having that conversation with Mary. She’s absolutely the perfect person to give me that kind of drive and blessing and probably everything that I needed to hear in order to feel validated about my forthcoming actions. I don’t know why she’s always hard on herself when she’s good at being a good friend. She’s actually one of the best person I’ve met in my life. We’ve only known each other for a week-long and we are already this open to each other. I wish I would find the strength to come out to her, after all, she already told me that she might be a lesbian. I know I can trust her about my true sexuality but I’m going to keep things as they are for now.Lunch finally came and I am currently sitting right beside Rachel. I forgot to tell Mary and the gang that Rachel just invited me to have lunch
AUGUSTI was more than bewildered to find Ambrose and his group waiting for me right at the moment that I was least expecting them. I may have relied upon and became too complacent about the protection that I’m getting from hanging out with Rachel. They were all blocking my path towards Rachel’s car and I can see Rachel, Victoria, and Nicole behind them. Just like me, the three of them looked like they’re shocked and bewildered about what’s going on. I am dumbfounded in every single way. I didn’t have the time to process all these things up and it looks like I’m going to die in the next few hours. My heart jumps out into panic mode.“W-what’s going on?” I tried speaking up but my voice is already cracking up in total distress.“What’s going on?” Phil tried repeating my query. “I think you know what’s going on.”“No, I d
AMBROSEHaving to watch August eat dinner with his mom and dad made me feel like a piece of shit in every single way that I had never expected. I don’t quite remember how it feels like to sit down in front of your mom and dad as they shove a spoonful of edible into their mouth and talk about small things. It would’ve been nice to hear them ask things about your daily life. The shed of tear I had was because I have never felt so alone in my life. I walked away from the window after realizing that I couldn’t watch this scene anymore. This is the first time that I cried in how many years, and it felt awful that it had to be here and the reason had to be August. I am starting to reap a lot of different emotions. Loneliness is quite a generic feeling that I clearly recognize, but this one’s quite unique, and the hue of sadness felt rather foreign in a strange way. I know how sadness feels, but this one makes me f
AMBROSE“That doesn’t seem right.” The words echoed inside my head, but I couldn’t let them out of my mouth. It seems like there’s a lump in my throat that wouldn’t let me spit out the words. I tried to find the strength to tell Phil that this wasn’t a good idea, but I didn’t want to seem weak and hypocritical.Phil began to swing the bat into the air as if he was trying to swing it at someone and that someone was August. Marlon seems to be with Phil. I was the one who had been fantasizing horrible things to do to August, but now it feels utterly cruel to see and hear it come out of Phil. Phil seemed like he was itching to smash that baseball onto someone’s torso. I don’t have any qualms about the fact that he’s got my back, but I feel like this isn’t his shit. This is my shit, and I should be the one planning my own battle.
AMBROSE“W-what’s going on?” August appeared to be astonished by the sudden appearance of our boys. He’s probably excited about joining in with Rachel’s group, hoping to have another fun night, but that’s not going to happen. And quite frankly, I don’t think it’s going to happen ever again.I stood right in the middle, along with the boys who had gathered up everything they could use as a weapon; we blocked his pathway. Marlon was holding Phil’s baseball, and he was playing with it. I honestly don’t quite remember telling Phil to tell these boys to bring some sorts of weapons. I’m a bit surprised, but it is somehow helping.“What’s going on?” Phil uttered, mocking the way August said it. I didn’t tell him to do any of this or any of the things he’s doing, and he will be doing, but I don’t g
AMBROSEAugust quickly got into his fighting stance, and even though I didn't need to do any of that, I felt like I just had to play this early round and make August feel the need to be alert. I went on my fighting stance as well, but I didn't waste time. I was already inching my way to deal a punch, and he was lucky enough to have dodged it. After that snappy dodge from him, I was quick to change course; I managed to land my fist on his chest. It was a weaker punch because I didn't have enough time to gather up some strength, and August looked fine after it. He jumped a distance away from me, and we ended up roaming around in a circle for about a minute. I may have underestimated this guy, so I decided to mirror his moves and waited for the right opening. I kept my eyes locked on his arms and fist for a while.August was about to send a punch, but I saw right through it and dodged it perfectly before eventuall