'Aalis din siya mamaya kaya dapat mas maaga kang pumunta kung gusto mo nga siyang makausap'Naririnig ko ang sarkastikong tono ng boses nya kahit dito.I slide my phone inside my pocket as i slide my notes inside my bag.Isa pang subject bago ang lunch pero dahil sa sinabi ng mayordoma ay bigla na lang gusto ko na lang din na ipagpaliban ang klase. May pagkakataon na ako,nandito narin si Ansel baka mamaya matagalan pa kung palalampasin ko pa 'to. Gusto ko sanang sabihan ang Mayordoma na ipahintay ako but i don't wanna push it that far.Hindi ko pa nga alam ang dahilan kung bakit niya ako iniinform tungkol kay Clinton Aldridge tapos pakikiusapan ko pa siya para sa ibang bagay.As usual kailangan naming lumipat ng room para sa next subject.Paglabas ko sa room ay bumulusok sa'kin ang init ng tanghali.I glance back at the room,how i wish kasama ang hallway sa may aircon para hindi ganito.I face the direction where the stairs through the second floor is located pero napansin ko si Ansel na n
I thought of my Dad,if he's ever real.Asking him to do a DNA test is such a bad thing to do for a child but I just wanted to get off the image Maggie brought into my head.And if he really is?And then?He never cared for me.He let's Maggie go to my School.He let's Maggie to do all the job both parents should be doing but then Maggie didn't even do her part.Nasa elementary pa lang ako hindi na ginugusto ni Maggie na makipaglapit sa akin.She always shut me down that I have grown of being fond with it kahit na gusto kong makilala kung paano ba mag-alaga ang isang pamilya.I envy Ada for it,her mother is a very affectionate woman.She sits where Ada sits during meetings ,She wanted to befriend me because she wanted to know who's Ada's friend.She takes care of her and never pressure her.While me ,I carry my own expectations that if Maggie become contented or have grown tired by the way she treats me ,she will begin to see what I am doing ,my achievements,how I became loving to her despite how
"What?!"naialis ko ang braso ko sa pagkakahawak ni Ansel.I look at him with wide eyes and step away.Bumagsak ako sa couch habang pinapanood siyang umiiwas ng tingin sakin.I tried to catch my breath as another killer thought rush through my brains.He rejected a what?!An arrange marriage?!An arrange marriage!Arrange.Marriage!With me?!Is it with me?!It's me!It is ME! Ohmygod!HE. REJECTED. ME!I feel I like throwing up any minute .Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko at napahawak na din sa noo.Napatawa ako ng mahina dahil hindi ako makapaniwala.I was actually thinking about the issue.My issue.And then another thing surfaces and then piled up into it. When did this happen?Did Maggie know this?She insinuate that they have something before right?And then she ask me if I'll marry Ansel?yeah?Yeah!Jesus!Umiling ako at napasinghap.Someone came into my side and I heard Ansel now calling someone on his phone."Calm down Caza!"hinawakan niya ako sa kamay at pilit na pinapasandal .Sumunod ako and i slowly let
My nerves should be wrecking me right now.Dapat ngayon mas lalo na akong kinakabahan dahil sa layo ng tinakbo ng pananahimik niya pero hindi 'yon ang nararamdaman ko ,sa halip ,nawala ang nakadagan sa dibdib ko.Unti-unting nagiging normal ang tibok ng puso ko.My mind was suddenly peaceful and I am calm.It made me calm that it amazes me.I can't hear anything inside the room ,I should be nervous !But NO!It isn't!If this is how it feels to let out things on my mind I will gladly do."Caza"mahinang sinabi 'yon ni Ansel sa tabi ko.Nilingon ko siya sandali at napansin ang kaunting paggalaw ni Sir Clinton.Dineretso niya sa'kin ang paningin niya na kanina ay nasa mga papel sa lamesa."Where did you get all of your ideas Azazel?"he ask."Is this what Maggie told you?!!"dumagundong ang lakas ng sigaw niya sa loob.Umiling ako ."This is my own idea.I want to live far from here"he clearly disagree ,like I am only talking nonsense infront of him.He laugh without a humor."You are my daughter .You
My nerves should be wrecking me right now.Dapat ngayon mas lalo na akong kinakabahan dahil sa layo ng tinakbo ng pananahimik niya pero hindi 'yon ang nararamdaman ko ,sa halip ,nawala ang nakadagan sa dibdib ko.Unti-unting nagiging normal ang tibok ng puso ko.My mind was suddenly peaceful and I am calm.It made me calm that it amazes me.I can't hear anything inside the room ,I should be nervous !But NO!It isn't!If this is how it feels to let out things on my mind I will gladly do."Caza"mahinang sinabi 'yon ni Ansel sa tabi ko.Nilingon ko siya sandali at napansin ang kaunting paggalaw ni Sir Clinton.Dineretso niya sa'kin ang paningin niya na kanina ay nasa mga papel sa lamesa."Where did you get all of your ideas Azazel?"he ask."Is this what Maggie told you?!!"dumagundong ang lakas ng sigaw niya sa loob.Umiling ako ."This is my own idea.I want to live far from here"he clearly disagree ,like I am only talking nonsense infront of him.He laugh without a humor."You are my daughter .You
How will you live outside?I don't think it was that hard? Didn't it?As long i can get my freedom ,i don't think it will be as bad as he thought .I will be fine,yes,I will be fine.Tahimik ang pag-uwi namin sa dorm.Ubos ang lakas ko sa pakikipag-usap kay Sir Clinton.I would admit now,that he has a point ,somehow ,at the back of my mind I know i am still looking for a way to survive out there but I can't just tell him that I don't have a proper plan about it lalo na at pinakita kong gustong gusto ko ang kumawala sa kanila.Sandali kong itinuon ang pakiramdam ko sa nasa malayong katabi ko ,si Ansel sa tabi lang din ng bintana.Kanina pa rin siya tahimik at nakatingin lang sa labas.I know I shouldn't entertain it but it is showing that perhaps he's not really agreeing with me.Of course ,if Sir Clinton find it nonsense ,maybe he is too.Hindi ko sinubukang kuhanin ang pansin niya hanggang sa makita ko ang pagpaling ng kotse papasok sa mismong School doon ko piniling tignan at tawagin si Ans
Pumasok ako sa loob at tinanaw ang mga guard na umpisahang kuhanin ulit ang mga gamit ko.Sir Clinton is really on the Mansion,heto nga at sinalubong pa ako sa mismong pintuan ."Azazel,mula ngayon dito ka na titira"i hiss a laugh and look at him.Noon,gustong gusto kong magstay dito pero hindi ko magawa dahil ayaw nila ,ngayon na nag-insist akong umalis tsaka naman ako patitirahin dito."Hindi magbabago ang isip ko.Gusto ko paring umalis dito"nagtiim-bagang kaagad siya sa sinabi ko."Ano pong dahilan at gusto niyo akong patirahin ngayon dito?Kahit naman na anong mangyari mas gugustuhin kong umalis.May karapatan na akong magdesisyon para sa sarili ko"naiiwan sa'kin ang tingin ng kinilala kong ama .Siguro kasi kahit kailan hindi ako sumubok na magsalita man lang ng kahit na ano sa harap niya."Not yet.Your still 17""So you're keeping me here until I turned 18?"tapos ,tapos na ? Ganun ba?Sana gano'n nga 'yon nga 'yon kadali.Hindi siya nagsalita.The maid announce about the breakfast is r
Hindi ako nagkaroon ng magandang tulog sa unang gabi na bumalik ako.I was then opening the boxes in the middle of the night.I am shaking my head while doing that though halata mong pinag-isipan talaga ng mga bumili ang lahat ng nasa box.I mean ,I love the violet lamp ,pabilog siya at maliit lang.May carpet na halos lulubog ang paa ko sa pagkakatapak.It was color brown which is one of my favorite things there.Ang kama ay may white and cream combination habang ang mga unan ay naglalaro ang kulay sa mata ko . There's blue green ,pink,blue,yellow,violet,kulay white with brown and then there's printed flowers , peacock,swans and then my cabinet got full with variety of clothes.They were designers , there's silky ,cotton ,lacey, fur dresses ,and then too much furrrsss.There's even a coat that reach the ground ,akala mo sobrang ginaw din dito.May mga pangginaw,Jackets that seems to belong with a guy , cowgirl boots ,high cut shoes , there's a variety of colors for the flat once and surprisin