Chapter 17: Intimacy

Lucas

I don't know why I felt this tightening on my chest seeing how Kai ran after Becky. Ever since Kai leave I’ve been trying to get that thought out of my head but it's almost impossible especially when I watched him eat the food Becky brought for me but it's not like I wanted to eat the food so why am I feeling this way?

For the rest of the day I tried concentrating on office work but it’s almost impossible for me to do, it's almost like the more I tried the harder it became, I ended up not doing any more work till the rest of the day, as soon as I left the office I drove myself straight to the club, I want to get myself drunk cause I don't understand this new feeling that I’m beginning to feel

I got to the club and ordered so many bottles of tequila and also packets of cigarettes, I only drink and smoke when I’m angry and right now they are the right thing I needed for this mood, I kept drinking bottle after bottle, and kept on ordering for more till it was almost impossible fo