"Ano 'yan?" Somebody asked and I hurriedly hid my things inside my bag. It was Clarisse. "Para ka namang nakakita ng magandang multo. Ano bang nagyayari sa 'yo?" She asked. She sat beside me while fixing her brown hair into a bun. Mahaba rin kasi buhok niya kaya madali lang i-bun, which reminds me I should also do mine.
"Wala," I answered and she just arched a brow at me. I pretended to clean the case of my ukulele para sana ay hindi niya na ako guluhin but she's just so persistent.
"Talaga?" She murmured, her voice laced with confidence. She knows me so well.
"Fine. I'll tell you," I surrendered. Para namang makakatakas ako sa kanya. Sooner or later she'll know anyway. Lahat ata walang lusot sa kanya eh.
"Go ahead," she said with a grin. Gusto lang talaga nito ng chismis.
And so I told her my story... From the moment I entered the room, to me playing the ukulele and singing, to Sir Troy hearing me sing, up to the syllabus thingy.
"Hala, talaga? Patingin nga," she mumbled after I told her everything. Siya na mismo ang kumuha ng bag ko at naghanap sa syllabus na sinabi ko. She then found it and her brows met. Kinuha niya naman 'yong kanya sa bag niya and amusement was written all over her face the moment she compared the two.
"Hala, oo. 'Yong copy mo lang nga ang may smiley," she grumbled. She looked up at me and gave me a teasing grin. "Looks like someone's having a crush on you," she teased. And my heart began drumming inside my chest again. Ugh. Parang tanga.
"Wala lang siguro 'yan," I muttered as I grabbed my syllabus from her and kept it inside my bag. "Baka naaliw lang si Sir sa katangahan ko kanina."
"Pero napansin ko rin kasi 'yong kakaibang ngiti niya kanina eh. Lalo na 'nong tinawag ka niya kasi bigla kang umiling," she said chuckling. "Ang tanga mo nga." This time ay lumakas na iyong tawa niya.
"Clarisse naman eh. You're making me feel uneasy," reklamo ko.
"Kanina ka pa feeling uneasy, girl. Pagkapasok ko pa nga kanina eh mukha ka nang wala sa sarili. Baliw lang? Pero seryoso, affected ka masyado sa nangyari sa 'yo kanina," she stated. Of course, sino ba namang hindi maapektuhan kung tatanga-tanga ka sa harapan ng instructor mo? I even talked to him informally! Hindi ata ako makakatulog nito.
"Maipapasa ko kaya ang subject niya?" I suddenly blurted out na ikinatawa pa lalo ni Clarisse. Baliw 'to.
"Oh my God! Nakakatawa ka!"
"Hindi nakakatawa," I said seriously but it didn't stop her from laughing so hard.
"Beh, bakit ka nga ba biglang naging ganoon katanga?" She asked. At talagang aliw na aliw siya sa nangyari sa akin ha? Ang saya.
"Hindi ko alam."
"Eh kasi crush mo siya!"
"Anong crush? Hindi ko siya crush 'no. Hindi ko siya type!"
"Sige lang. Sooner you'll know. Nasa in denial stage ka pa for now," she murmured. "What we should do now is prepare. Kasi may klase pa tayo. Tara!" She mumbled. Nauna pa siyang maglakad sa akin papuntang parking.
Mamaya pa naman next class namin. 3 hours kasi dapat lecture namin under Sir Troy. But since first day pa naman, usually introduction and all about the syllabus lang dini-discuss.
Why am I overthinking again? Kasi naman binibigyan ko agad ng meaning when I shouldn't.
Pero kasi he's giving me reasons to! Ugh.
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"May bagong poging faculty raw sa department niyo?" Love asked the moment she entered the car. Now this ride is going to be noisy since andito sina Clarisse and Love, who are both so talkative.
Tapos na ang mga klase namin ngayong araw. Pero kahit ganoon, si Sir pa rin ang pinag-uusapan.
"Yep. And Hope's having a crush on him," Clarisse hurriedly replied. Agad ko siyang pinanlakihan ng mga mata for spreading such rumor. Fake news talaga itong si Clarisse. Mamaya niyan may iba pang makaalam. Edi mas lalong wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa klase ni Sir Troy.
"Oh talaga?" Love asked amusingly. "Ikaw Hope ah. Instructor pala bet mo ha," she teased.
"Shut up. Wala akong sinasabi," I replied. I knew this would happen.
"Defensive," Clarisse said mockingly.
"I heard marami ring may crush sa kanya. Kahit nga from other departments ay may crush sa kanya. In demand, huh?" Love stated. Oh well, by his looks, no doubt he already captured a lot of hearts, plus matalino pa siya. One look and you'll know he's really something.
And why am I even thinking about this?
"Eh ikaw kaya makakita ng ganoon kapogi at ka-yummy?" Clarisse commented. The two laughed and it's making me cringe.
Hindi ko na sila pinansin, although I'm still listening to them. I just focused on driving. Hindi ko pa sila kayang sabayan for now. Maybe next time masasakyan ko na sila sa mga trip nila about Sir Troy. I just need to get over what happened earlier para hindi na ako kainin ng hiya.
Few moments and we reached Clarisse's dorm to drop her. Hindi naman gaanong malayo from school at kaya lang lakarin but this girl here just loves availing free ride. What can I do?
"Bye, girls! Bye, Hope! Think of Sir Troy!"
"Shut up! Marinig ka pa ng iba diyan!"
"So what?" She replied and laughed. "Oh sige na. Thanks for the ride!" She waved bye and finally went inside the dormitory. Agad namang bumaba si Love from the back seat para lumipat sa harap sa tabi ko.
"At least may inspiration ka na," Love teased. I glared at her but it didn't stop her. "Oh come on. Wala namang masama sa pagkakaroon ng crush 'no. It's not as if you committed a crime," she stated. Why do they keep on insisting I have a crush on him? Buti pa sila alam nila kasi ako, I have no idea.
"Which café is Faith at?" I just asked to change the topic. She texted me earlier to fetch her somewhere but I still asked just to stop the topic about Sir Troy.
"The usual, Hope. Kunwari ka pa ha," Love answered.
We dropped by the café where Faith is at - Café Feliz, where we usually hang out. Good thing when she entered the car ay siya agad ang pinag-usapan. I can now breathe freely.
I turned to look at the road so we can finally go home. But when I glanced at my left side, I saw Sir Troy going out of his car. From the side mirror, I saw him opened the other door of his car and a girl went out. I don't know who the girl is kasi medyo malayo na kami from them but I'm sure he's with a girl and the two of them went inside the café.
I don't know why but as soon as I laid my eyes back at the road, I got disappointed. Silly. But why the hell am I feeling this way?
"Sorry po, sir," sabi ko na lang saka nagmadaling umalis sa harapan niya at nilapitan 'yong classmate kong tumawag sa akin.Muntik kaming magkabangga! Like we were really just a few inches away from each other! Buti na lang mukhang mabilis ang reflex ni Sir.Habang naglalakad ako palayo ay ramdam ko ang bilis ng pagtibok ng puso ko. I don't even know what made this heart beat like this. I tried calming myself pero nagpa-panic pa rin ako.Ano bang meron kay Sir?"Hi, Hope! Gusto lang sana kitang i-invite sa orientation ng org namin. Baka gusto mong sumali. We know you're into music and we really want you in our org," my classmate said. Sa kagustuhan kong makaalis na ng building ay napatango na lang ako.Ever since first year, they're already trying to recruit me to join the org. Pero dahil wala akong lakas ng loob ay hindi ako sumali."Great! We'll expect you to be there!" Masayang sabi niya bago umalis. Nagmadali na rin akong umalis para sumunod kina Clarisse.Kinakalma ko pa rin ang
Sinubukan kong huwag isipin iyong nakita ko. Kasi ano naman kung may kasama si Sir na babae? Ano namang pakialam ko doon?"Kunot na kunot ata ang kilay mo?" I heard Love ask. Hindi ko alam kung sinong sinabihan niya nun kaya nilingon ko siya, only to find her looking at me."Ako? Nakakunot ba kilay ko?" Patay-malisyang tanong ko."Opo," she replied."May nangyari bang hindi ko alam?" Singit naman ni Faith."Kami dapat nagtatanong niyan eh. May nangyari bang hindi namin alam at bakit ka napadpad sa cafe? Did you meet anyone?" Parang nanay na tanong ni Love. I was finally able to breathe when she's no longer talking to me."Something just came up," Faith just said coolly. I looked at her through the rearview mirror and she's just looking outside through the window. I know something happened. She's very transparent. Sa aming tatlo, she's the worst liar. She just can't lie because in the first place, she doesn't know how to. It's like whenever she lies, you'll know she's lying. And I don'
"Ano 'yan?" Somebody asked and I hurriedly hid my things inside my bag. It was Clarisse. "Para ka namang nakakita ng magandang multo. Ano bang nagyayari sa 'yo?" She asked. She sat beside me while fixing her brown hair into a bun. Mahaba rin kasi buhok niya kaya madali lang i-bun, which reminds me I should also do mine."Wala," I answered and she just arched a brow at me. I pretended to clean the case of my ukulele para sana ay hindi niya na ako guluhin but she's just so persistent."Talaga?" She murmured, her voice laced with confidence. She knows me so well."Fine. I'll tell you," I surrendered. Para namang makakatakas ako sa kanya. Sooner or later she'll know anyway. Lahat ata walang lusot sa kanya eh."Go ahead," she said with a grin. Gusto lang talaga nito ng chismis.And so I told her my story... From the moment I entered the room, to me playing the ukulele and singing, to Sir Troy hearing me sing, up to the syllabus thingy."Hala, talaga? Patingin nga," she mumbled after I told
"Fudge.... fudge!" Paulit-ulit akong nagmura sa utak ko. I'm not really the kind of person who curses a lot. But if something like this happens, what else can I do other than murmur unpleasant words to express my unpleasant feelings?Kaya pala nakaka-intimidate siya. Kaya pala naiilang ako kanina. Kaya pala. But he just looks so young kaya inakala kong kaklase ko lang siya!Agad akong napayuko nang mapatingin siya sa direksyon ko. I bit my lower lip and tried to breathe normally. Ano ba 'tong napasok ko?"Hindi naman ako tigre na nangangagat. So you don't have any reasons to be scared of me," I heard him say. Hindi naman kasi ako natatakot. Kasi 'yong takot ko ay natabunan na ng kahihiyan. Hindi talaga ako marunong makiramdam minsan. Kaya siguro hindi ko man lang na-feel 'yong vibes ng pagiging instructor niya. Pero kasi... Kasi mukha lang kaming magka-edad!Salita pa siya nang salita sa harapan samantalang ako ay payuko-yuko lang. He mentioned he came from UP Diliman. He graduated l
I took the ukulele out of its case and started strumming. Mabuti na lang at naipuslit ko ito kanina sa bahay nang hindi napapansin ng mga kapatid ko. Because if so, the teasing would be never-ending. Kesyo ang emo ko raw kapag nag-iisa pero ang ingay naman kapag may kasama. Of course it should be that way. Kesa naman sa ang ingay ko kapag ako lang mag-isa. Edi nagmukha akong baliw.I don't have a particular song in my mind but the moment I held my ukulele, my hands started playing a song like they have their own minds."Well you done done me and you bet I felt itI tried to be chill but you're so hot I meltedI fell right through the cracksAnd now I'm trying to get back"It was like for a moment, I'm singing for someone. I don't have any particular person in mind. Wala naman. Di ko alam. Pero parang nasa paligid lang 'yong kinakantahan ko."Before the cool done run outI'll be giving it my best-estAnd nothing's going to stop me but divine interventionI reckon it's again my turnTo