MIA
I don’t know what he is, but I know he’s something.
As I stood behind the tree, watching him walk away with the man who looks like him, I giggled at the sight of two of the man I met during the battle.
“Grey.” I whispered. Testing his name again.
I turn around and walk away. I don’t want to, but he can’t know me. I shouldn’t even be here.
The only reason I came was because I can’t get him off my mind. I hear him, feel him and what I feel was heartbreaking. He doesn’t feel like the people I was raised by.
I wasn’t sure about him when I saw him at first. I was drawn to him when he invited me to sit on the log.
When he gave me that thing and shared his music with me, I was filled with a warm feeling. As I listened, I had vision of him. Holding me. I felt like I could feel his arms on me even though we haven’t been close.
Whatever happened on the battlefield that night, it was strong. I didn’t understand what it was. I still don’t. But for months he’s been the only thing I can think about.
As I perform my duties, he’s been the first thought. I now have a place to escape. I escape in Grey. No matter what happens to me, my safe place is the vision of the handsome man standing in front of me in the blue moonlight.
For years, I was alone in a nightmare. For the last few months, I’ve been thinking that maybe Grey could save me from it.
But, he can’t. He’s one man against thousands. I can’t endanger him by bringing him into my world.
I like him in my dreams. He’s safe there. I like feeling his happiness and fun music in my head. I makes me feel like I have a second life. Grey protects me from the evils that attack me everyday.
He belongs here and I belong there. It’s the way it has to be. I’ll be happy to keep him in my heart.
Now, that I’ve actually seen him up close, it’ll make my safe place that much better.
Even though he was joined by the other man, I was going to leave anyway. The want in me was starting to build.
As I took in his strong jawline and his soft, blue eyes, something was happening inside. I felt different. It wasn’t the feelings that I get at home. These were nice feelings. My tummy was doing butterflies every time I heard his deep voice.
I could feel myself heat up looking at his broad shoulders and striking features. He towers over me. His arms look like they could fight an army. Much like the men I’m used to seeing.
When he told me he was mine, I was confused. How can a man be mine. I don’t get things like that. But still, I kind of giggled inside. This handsome man was mine? I doubt it, but the thought intrigued me. Could someone like me actually possess a man? Since I’ve spent my entire life being a possession, I highly doubt that this is the case.
I don’t know what he was saying, but for now, I’ll just hold onto the thought that Grey is the man who is mine in my dreams. I kind of like that.
It took me days to find him, but this thing that’s between us, made the journey easier. I felt drawn to him even though I was miles away. I could feel him in the large structures. I sensed that he was in there somewhere. It was at least four nights of being in those woods before I found Grey. Now, I must go home.
I will, but I must see my brother first. I told the Alpha I was going to the forest and I need to make my presence known before questions are raised.
I enter the village and walk through the courtyard. I see some people run up the hill to Tays house.
Moments later, he came down.
“Mia? What the hell are you doing here? Xavier’s pissed.” He scolded me as he approached.
“What did you say?” I squeaked.
“I told him you were probably on you’re way here, but got lost. Did you get lost, Mia?” He glared at me.
I covered my mouth with my sweater and nodded.
“Ok.” He gently smiles. He walks up to me and puts his arms around me. He kisses the top of my head which makes me flinch. He steps back and rubs my arms. “Are you hungry?”
I nodded.
He smiles. “Let’s go.”
He leads me to his house for some food.
That night I couldn’t sleep. Grey was on mind.
After being so close to him today, I feel….empty. Like the distance is too far.
I snuck out of Tays house. The moon was high. I decided to take a walk through the woods.
As I cross through the brush and trunks, I hear something I’ve grown to like.
Music.
I follow it. It’s soft and sweet. I recognize the voice because I’ve snuck peeks like this before.
I get to the edge of Helena on a small hill. Through the trees, I see Alpha Lucius. He sitting on a stump with another man crouched beside him.
He’s playing the music on that thing he always has. He’s singing.
I sat and listened to the Alpha sing to whoever the dark haired lady was. I can’t see her reaction, but she’s not running away so I assume she likes it.
I like it.
After it was over, I watched a bit more before heading back to Gildon. I don’t come here often, but when I do, I’m always sick that I have to leave.
I didn’t want to leave in the first place, but I’m helping my pack by not being here and the pack always comes first as Tay tells me.
I walk back and imagine Grey on that stump. If I was a special girl like the dark haired lady, I’m sure someone as sweet as Grey would sing to me too.
I don’t get songs. I don’t get hugs filled with warmth and love. I don’t get anything.
As I walk back, the pull to Grey tugs harder. I can’t go to him.
I have duties to perform for my pack. He wouldn’t understand.
****
The next morning. I’m sitting at Tays. Waiting.
They sent a message to the Alpha to tell him I’m here. So I sit and wait to be taken back home.
Once the Alpha was announced, Tay stood me up and walked me out to the courtyard.
I wanted to run. Run to Grey, but I couldn’t.
I trembled as he came into view. My eyes stung as I fought tears. I can’t cry. He doesn’t like it when I cry unless he wants it.
I wrap my arm around myself and cover my mouth with my sweater as I look at his face.
His head is tilted and he’s grinning. The most evil expression on his face.
He walked to me with outstretched arms. He grabbed my head and kissed my hair. “Mia. I was so worried, love. You got lost?” He looked at my face as I nodded.
He smiled. “Well, next time, one of our drivers will drive you here then this won’t happen again.”
I nodded again.
He pulled me from Tay to him. “I missed you. I was cold without you.”
I cringed and my chin quivers under my sweater sleeve.
“Say goodbye to your brother, Mia.” He tilted his head.
“Bye…Tay.” My eyes flicked to my brother who’s face looked stone, but I could see anger behind it.
“Bye, Mia. I’ll see you again Ok?” He nodded.
I nodded back.
The Alpha turned me to the direction leading out of the village. “Tonight you’ll be in my warm bed. You must have been so scared being lost from me.”
I fight the urge to run. Run back to my brother as his words grind in my ear. I’d rather be in my cage than with him.
In my mind, I think of Grey smiling at me from the other side of the log. I think of how I wanted to get closer, but my body wouldn’t let me. I think of his soft voice.
At home, I think of Grey as I sit on the bed in the Alphas room. I think of Grey as the shirtless Alpha shuts the bedroom door and locks it.
****
The next morning I’m curled in a ball under the sheets, naked. A single tear escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it away. I’ve been awake for sometime, but I don’t dare move.
Then I feel him stir and again I fight crying out.
He rolls over and places a kiss on my shoulder.
My body shakes. I try to stop it, but I’m so scared because I know what comes now.
“Good morning, my love.” He drawls and kisses my shoulder again. “It’s time to get up. You have a punishment to serve, don’t you?”
A lump develops in my throat as I nod.
“You made me worry and that’s not acceptable.” He kisses my neck.
I nod again.
“Do you think three will teach you a lesson?” He rubs my shoulder.
Three. I can do three. I’m shaking at the thought, but I can do three.
I nod.
“Ok.” He gets up. “On your knees.”
I slowly get up out of the bed. I walk around it to the foot, trying so hard not to cry. I fall to my knees.
He sits down on the edge of the bed with a box. “Give me your arm, Mia.”
“Yes, Alpha.” I choke.
I extend my arm out.
He puts on a glove and opens the box.
He pulls out a large silver knife.
My eyes fill with tears.
“Don’t.” He points the knife in my face.
I press my lips together. Choking back my tears.
He floats the knife up and down my arm looking to find a place amongst the several scars there already.
“Do not cry.” He arches a brow as he warns.
My face goes red and my lips press together harder as he runs the edge of the knife through my skin.
Burning flesh filled my nose.
I can barely breath.
The pain fires through me.
I whine.
He does the second one and my head falls. My other hand grabs my thigh as I fight the pain.
I making noises, but nothing is coming out my mouth.
“Look at me, Mia.” He growls.
I lift my head. My face is full of excruciating pain.
“Good girl.” He smirks and cuts me for a third time.
My head falls to his knee at the pain of his knife slicing my flesh and burning it.
He puts the knife back and takes off the glove.
“Ok. Ok. That’s a good girl.” He lifts my head and looks into my eyes. “Don’t ever make me worry about you again.”
I nod.
He kisses the top of my head. “Off to your room.”
I get up and cross his floor. I open a heavy wooden door. It opens to silver laced bars. I open the barred door and step into a small room with a small window. A small bed and a dresser. It's done up like a woman’s room and has been my home for four years.
The Alpha walks over and locks it with a key he keeps in his pocket.
He grabs my hand kisses it. “Don’t worry, my love. You won’t be alone in here for long. You’ll have a pet bird to play with soon.” He smiles.
He shuts the wooden door and once I’m alone, I lay down and sob hard. I do a lot of crying, but this was different. This was because somewhere out there there’s something that can save me, but I can’t let him.
MIAIt’s been at least five nights since I’ve seen Grey. I’m starting to feel every one of them.Sometimes, if I really concentrate, I feel like I’m right there with him. Feeling what he’s feeling. Today is no exception. I don’t know what’s happening, but he feels happy. I try to figure out what he’s so happy about. It’s almost like a game for me. Guessing what makes Grey happy.I can’t see him. Not in the present sense. I see him smiling on that log.I can sometimes hear him in my mind. Like when Tay talks without moving his mouth. These are my favorite times because I sit and listen to his deep voice. I don’t know if he’s talking to other people, but it’s fun just to listen to his thoughts.From his thoughts, I determined he’s an Alpha. He has a brother named Wes. I can pretty much conclude that Wes is the man that looks like Grey.Grey likes his music. Though he thinks he can sing, I giggle because he can’t. He tries. I think it’s sweet.He’s also some sort of trainer. I hear his s
GREYI’m sitting in the transport truck. It’s bouncing as we speed to a location we’re told is Helena, but I know from history, Helena was destroyed when Torrent attacked so I’m not sure where exactly were going.My leg is bouncing as I lean on my knees. My eyes glued to the floor of the truck. I only glance up long enough to see Tony and his evil stare as he sits across from me. His hazel eyes boring holes in my brain.As I struggle to cage my wolf, I look at him. “Sorry, man.” I grumble.His eyes never falter and he doesn’t say a word. He just throws daggers at me.Wes is beside me. “Hey, Tony. Cut him some slack. He’s...not himself.”“Yeah, well.” Tony growls. “Keep him away from me.”I look at Tony as his eyes flare.I look down, nodding.I hate that I hurt my friend and I can’t even explain myself. I’m not ready to even try to explain what this is.Not until I find foxy lady and figure this out. I have a really good feeling she’s going to be at this fight.I run my hands to the n
MIAMy chest hurt. I didn’t understand what was happening. I’ve never had these feelings before. But when Grey left me in the cage, I wanted to cry. I could tell he was angry with me. I did something wrong. I don’t exactly know what. I can only think it’s because he wants to be where I am and he can’t. The Alpha would never allow it. He doesn’t know the danger he’s in.When he left, it made me very sad. I waited for him to come back, but he didn’t. Instead, others came for me.A big man in a uniform. He grabbed me and took me to a room. I was scared. I wanted Grey. I don’t know where I am. Grey was familiar and made me feel better. Now, he’s gone.I was taken into the room. I’m nervous and hide my face. The tall Alpha with long hair is scary. The dark haired Alpha is loud. The blonde haired Alpha is quiet which is OK. Then I see Alpha Lucius. I think he can help me. He can take me back to my village and out of here.“Where am I?” I squeak.“You’re with the outsiders.” Alpha Lucius say
GREYThe pounding.Make it stop.Why won’t it stop?I sit on the floor of my room holding my hair in my hands with my elbows on my knees.It’s crushing my head. Turning my brain to pulp. Just pounding and pounding away.I’m in the dark because the light hurts my eyes. I’m dripping in sweat and shaking.“Grey! Open the door!” It’s Wes.“Go away!” I growl loudly.“No! Sorry, bro. I’m not leaving until you open this door.” He yells through the door to my room.“FUCK OFF!!” I scream a growl and throw my lamp. It’s shatters on it.“Grey. Brother. Please. I want to help. Let me help you.” He says.“You can’t help me, Wes! No one can.” I hold my head tighter. I feel like my brain is going to explode.“Grey. Open the door. Please.” He pleads.He’s not going away and if I know my brother, he’ll never leave me alone. As twins, we don’t like it when one of us hurting and we will do anything to try and fix it. I better let him in before smashes the door down.I get up and walk to the door. My hea
GREY“Grey?”I jolt up. The sun burns my eyes and I reach up to shield them. Looking around, I grow confused when I see im in a field. I can feel the warmth of the sun. I see the breeze making the field flowers dance.“Are you ok?”“Who’s there?” I rise to my feet. Walking slowly in a circle. I scan the treeline edge for signs of movement.“I’m here.”I turn in the direction of the treeline. Walking slowly past the first trunks.I hear a tiny giggle echo through the trees.“Who’s there?” I scowl. I’m in no mood to be played with.“Hello.”I spin around and there she is. My face softens. She’s standing in a cute oversized pink sweater. My breath was completely taken away. Her big blue eyes find mine and I’m lost. My hands ache to touch her baby like cheeks. Her soft lips beg mine to kiss them. Desire swirls around in my gut.She’s got a small smile on her face.I look around. “Where am I?”She slowly takes a finger and taps her temple.“You’re doing this?” I step closer.She nods.“How
MIA“So, I think a nice pink and blue color scheme. What do you think?”Sarah’s so pretty. She has blue eyes and blonde hair, but her hair is so much brighter than mine and she’s super sweet. She’s helped me with all kinds of stuff like shopping and decorating. I’m not allowed to leave the place I’m in, so she showed me on her cell phone where the clothes were and we looked at pictures. She says she’s going to give them to her mate to have him buy them for me. I told her I didn’t have anything to trade, but she insisted if I was going to be part of the group, I had to look the part.“Group? There’s more of you?” My brows went up.“Yep. There’s Alexi. She’s wonderful. She has a cool accent too. You know Wren. Then there’s Anna and Sammy. They’re all older than me, but it’s cool. They teach me a lot about being Luna.”“Luna?” I look confused.“Yeah. When we mate to an Alpha, we become Lunas. Except Wren. She’s an Alpha too. The first formal female Alpha. I think that would be so cool, J
MIAI cover my mouth with my sweater sleeve and wrap my arm around myself. We’ve driven for hours. We had to stay in hotel last night. I did get my own room, but I couldn’t go out because there were guards outside.I wandered around the room and looked out the window. We are very high up. The lights were pretty.I curled up in bed and couldn’t help, but cry. I cuddle a pillow and thought of Grey. At first, I couldn’t feel him or hear him. My thoughts were black. My Grey was missing. This made me cry harder. I wish upon wishes that he’d come back then I heard something. Faintly in the black of my mind.Grey was singing badly. It made me giggle with my tears wetting my cheeks. I liked this song. I sat and softly cried while I listened to my Grey so far away.He was making funny sounds to the music and I had to hold back my laugh. I was sad when my mind went black again and my Grey disappeared. I called him back in my mind, but it feels like there’s something in the way. Is he trapped? I
GREY“FFFFUUUCCCCKKKKK!!!” I scream at the black lake. The moon above it is partly covered by clouds. My dress shoes slip in the beach sand as the light of the stars shimmer on the water.I’m full of all kinds of anger.I tip back my big bottle of Jack, pouring whiskey down my throat like it’s my fucking job.I empty the bottle and with a loud Alpha growl, I throw it in to the lake. I stumble to my RAM1500 Sport and grab another bottle.I stumble back to the shoreline and slam my ass in the sand. At this point, I don’t know whether to fucking cry or go on a rampage snapping necks.Even though feeling foxy lady’s feelings was killing me, not feeling them is even worse.With rage, I pull at the bracelet. “Fucking get off!!” I grind out. I pull until I can’t breathe and give up after I see blood. I have to remember I can’t heal right now.I scrub my hands through my hair. The heat burning in me is firing out each and every pour. My dress shirt is so drenched in sweat, you’d think I went