Chapter 4

“Let me go, Morgan!” Panay ang pagkiwal ko nang buhatin niya ako na parang sako. Havoc deposited me on his bed again. Sinubukan kong humingi ng tulong sa mga tauhan niyang nakakasalubong namin but no one dares to interfere. What do I expect? Binayaran niya ang mga taong ito.

“Shut up!” he pointed his gun at me. I quickly zip my mouth. Natatakot ako na baka iputok niya sa akin ang baril niya. I don’t want to be dead yet. Kinagat ko ang pangibabang labi para pigilan ang mga hikbi na gustong kumawala sa akin. What did I do wrong? Why is this happening to me? Gusto kong pumalahaw ng iyak habang mataimtim ang tingin sa akin ni Morgan.

Maya-maya ay bigla na lang nag-iba ang kilos nito. Morgan groaned amd started to banged his head using his hand.

“Shh! Shut it! You don’t have to do this to her, Havoc!” Para itong nababaliw habang kinakausap ang sarili. His gun wasn’t pointing at me anymore. Nahulog na iyon sa sahig. Panay ang singhap nito sa hangin habang ako naman ay nanatili lamang na nakatingin sa kaniya dahil sa takot na may mangyari ulit sa akin.

“She won’t behave! She needs to be punished!” Paulit – ulit nitong kinakausap ang sarili habang sapo ang ulo. Morgan was muttering. It was like he was in a battle of himself. He was distracted to himself.

Kinuha ko naman ang pagkakataong iyon na makatakas. I run towards the door but before I even twisted the door know, Morgan held my waist and dragged me inside. Pilit akong kumawala but the asshole’s grip was too tight.

“I knew it! I knew it!” Kumuha ito ng posas at pinosasan ako sa headboard ng kama. He seized me to the point I can’t even move my body.

Nanlilisik ang matang pinukol ko sa kaniya. “What do you need from me!” I shrieked. Pinagsusuntok ko ang likod niyang nakadagan sa akin gamit ang isa kong kamay.

“Shh! Shh! Calm down, love.” He combed the back of my hair. Pulit-ulit kong ginawa ang pananakit sa likod niya at nang mapagod, I stopped. Hinayaan ko siyang yakapin ako. I can feel the heat coming from his body. And it made me actually comfortable.

Ilang minuto kaming nasa ganoong posisyon hanggang sa makarinig kami ng sunod-sunod na katok mula sa labas. Morgan got up from me and opened the door and left me. Narinig ko pa ang pag-lock nito mula sa labas.

I sat down and looked at my right wrist. Bahagyang namumula iyon dahil sa posas. I tried to remove my hands from there several times but I failed. Kung may sabon lamang akong makukuha rito ay mas mapapadali ang pagtanggal sa kamay ko.

I actually fell asleep in that moment. Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal natulog ngunit nang magising ako ay binibihisan na ako ng isang matandang babae. I startled at what she’s doing. Mukhang nakita na niya ang buong katawan ko. Pinalitan na rin niya kasi ang undergarments kong suot kanina na may bahid na dugo dahil sa namatay na lalaki kanina.

“Mabuti naman ay gising ka na, hija. Ibinilin ka sa akin ni Senyorito Havoc na linisan.” Ngumiti pa ito sa akin bago ipinagpatuloy ang ginagawa.

“S-senyorito?” I didn’t know that this woman call Morgan as Senyorito. Hindi bagay. Mas bagay na tawagin itong halimaw, hayop, gago, or so whatever.

“Oo, senyorito ang tawag ko sa kaniya. Mula pagkabata ay ako na ang nag-alaga sa kaniya.”

Napataas ang kilay ko sa narinig. So, this woman was Morgan’s nanny? Hindi na ako muling sumagot. Malamang ay kung ano man ang sabihin kong masama sa lalaking iyon ay makakarating dito.

I looked at my right wrist. Nakaposas pa rin ako. Mukhang napansin naman iyon ni Manang.

“Pagpasensyahan mo na ang mga alaga ko, hija. They can be rough sometimes but I give you my word. Those two are actually the sweetest. They’re just having rough path right now especially that you are here.” Napukaw ng atensyon ko ang sinabi ng matanda. They?

“They? What do you mean by that?” I asked. And those two are sweet? Sino ba ang tinutukoy nito? Si Morgan ba?

The old woman didn’t answer. Instead, the door opened and Morgan entered.

“You may leave, Manang,” he commanded. Mabilis namang sumunod ang matandang babae sa kaniya. At nang maiwan kaming dalawa ay lumapit ito sa akin at tinanggal ang posas. He sighed when he saw my swollen wrists.

“Does it hurt?” he asked softly. Hindi ako sumagot. Sa halip ay hinila ko ang kamay ko paalis sa kaniya. Why is he even asking? After what he did earlier? He tried to rape me and pointed his gun in my face. He even killed his own servant!

“Do you want to eat?” He is actually spoking softly! Wala na ang pananakot at karahasan sa boses nito. Bilang sagot, my stomach actually growled! Namumula ang pisngi kong umiwas ng tingin sa kaniya. Maghapon akong walang kinain! At gabi na kaya naman talagang nagugutom na ako.

I saw the jerk smirk. He pulled me outside of his room and we went to the dinner table. Pinaupo niya ako sa upuan na malapit sa kaniya. Hindi katulad kanina. I set my eyes on the place where I was seated earlier. Kung saan niya binarily ang lalaki kanina. Wala na ang nagkalat na dugo. It’s clean now. Does the man have proper burial? I don’t think so. Morgan is ruthless.

Napabalik lamang ako sa sariling diwa nang i-serve na yung mga pagkain. Unlike before, nakatuon na lamang ang paningin ko sa pagkain. I refused to look at Morgan who is actually staring me the whole time.

When we finished eating, inaya naman ako ni Morgan na maglakad sa dalampasigan. Ayaw ko siyang tanggihan dahil mamaya ay may kung ano na namang kabaliwan ang gawin nito. But to be honest, it’s a good thing that I actually accepted his proposal to walk outside. Ngayon ko lang muling naramdaman ang bawat hampas ng alon. Of course, his body guards was still roaming.

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa habang naglalakad. Maliwanag ang nilalakaran namin dahil sa mga ilaw na nagmumula sa liwanag ng mansiyon.

“Is this your island?” panimula ko. I can’t take the silence anymore! Kahit papaano ay kailangan ko pa rin itong kausapin para kumbinsihin itong pauwiin na ako.

“Yes, do you like it? I named this island after you. Anna’s Paradise.” I forced a smile at him. He’s creepy. Why would he name this island after me anyway?

“Ah. You don’t have to do that. Hanggang kailan nga pala ako mananatili rito?” Sa totoo lang, kating kati na ang dila niyang magtanong kung kailan siya uuwi.

“Until I change my mind. Let’s head back,” malamig nitong saad. Of course, Morgan dragged me again inside. Wala akong imik na nagpahila. I already expected that.

“You’re free to roam inside of this mansion but my guards would never let you go outside. Don’t you ever escape again because if you do, I don’t know what will I do to you…again.” Tumango lamang ako habang nakikinig sa bilin ni Morgan nang ihatid niya ako sa silid nito. There was a hint of urgency in his voice as he talked to me. Akmang magsasalita ako nang talikuran na ako ni Morgan. I bit my lip as I watched him walking fast.

I was about to enter his room when I heard a shattering of glass where Morgan is. I looked at his men. They seem unbothered but it is bothering me since I heard the continuous shattered things. Kaya naman ay walang sabi kong pinuntahan kung saan nanggagaling ang tunog na iyon.

The sounds led me to a bar area where I can see Morgan breaking bottles of alcohol. Napanganga ako sa nakita. There is a dark aura surrounding him. Nagwawala ito. This is the first time I saw him breaking things. He was livid. What happening to him?

“M-morgan?” I called him, hesitantly. Morgan looked at me furiously. I stepped back in fear. Ang sama sama kasi ng titg nito sa akin.

“What!?” he growled. Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko. Why is he being like this? Hindi naman ito ganoon kaninang iwan niya ako.

I pointed his arms covered with blood. “T-there’s a blood on your arms.” I informed him. “Are you okay?” I bit my lip as I asked. Unti-unti akong lumapit sa kaniya.

Napatitig siya sa labi ko. “Do you think I am okay, huh?!” He’s back on being harsh on me again. I sighed and took his arm. Halatang sinugutan nito ang sarili niya dahil sa uri at lalim ng sugat.

Is he depressed?

“You need to clean this wound of yours.” Hinila ko siya palabas sa bar area ng mansiyon at tinungo ang silid nito. Noong una ay ayaw niya pang magpahila but I was stubborn to listen on his body language. Kahit naman ay kinidnap niya ako ay nag-aalala pa rin ako sa ginawa niya sa sarili. I am still his professor after all.

Humingi ako ng first aid kit sa tauhan ni Morgan na kaagad naman nitong tinigunan. I let Morgan sit on the couch while I clean his wound. I wasn’t scared of wounds since my father was a head of the police and he always go home wounded. Kami ng aking ina ang naglilinis ng mga sugat niya.

Pansin ko na titig na titig ito sa akin habang nililinisan siya. I was quiet the whole time while cleaning his wound and ignoring his stares.

“You shouldn’t hurt yourself. Mabuti na lang ay naagapan ko kaagad ang sugat mo,” I said after I finished his wound. Tumayo na ako at niligpit ang ginamit kong first aid kit.

“I thought you hated me?” his dark voice filled my ears.

Hinarap ko siya. “I am still your professor, after all, Morgan.” I answered in a cold tone.

Morgan smirked. “Really?” Tumayo ito at lumapit sa akin. I stepped back until he cornered me.

“L-layuan mo ako.” Shit! Imbis na matakot ito ay mas lalo pang lumawak ang ngisi nito. Halos kapusin na ako ng hininga sa sobrang lapit namin. I can smell his minty breath inches away from me.

“I like how you hate me, Anna. It makes me feel special,” he said huskily before pulling me for a kiss.

Napatigalgal ako sa ginawa niya. I closed my eyes as he inserted his tongue on mine. My toes curled as I opened my mouth to let him wash over me like a wave of warmth, awakening all of my senses as the taste of him almost completely silenced all of my thoughts and fear from him. I can feel how the time stops as Morgan held my waist and kissed me senselessly.

I want him to stop. My mind was saying to push and slap him hard but I couldn’t do it. Para akong yelo na unti-unting natutunaw.

Maybe I was a fool because I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him closer.

Is it wrong to kiss my psychotic kidnapper?

Is it wrong that I felt safe in his arms?

Is it wrong if I want to fall for my student?

But all those thought were quickly washed up when Morgan put me on his bed and started to undress me. Doon lang ako natauhan sa ginagawa namin. I pushed him in instant.

This is wrong.

“Matutulog na ako!” I raised my voice because of shock. Nakakitaan ko ng pagkabitin ang gwapo nitong mukha. My cheeks reddened because of that. Inayos ko ang damit ko at tumalikod mula sa kaniya.

I look like a tomato for sure! What was I thinking anyway? I am becoming a wanton woman for goodness sake!

I heard him sigh before he went to the bathroom. Doon ako muling bumangon ng masara niya ang pintuan ng banyo. Napahilamos ako sa nangyari. Ngunit kaagad din akong natigilan ng makarinig ng sunod sunod na ungol mula sa banyo.

My mouth gaped. Lumapit ako para makasigurado.

“Fuck, Anna!”

Morgan was definitely moaning my name! Halatang nahihirapan ito sa ginagawa. Napailing ako. This is all my fault. I shouldn’t kiss him back earlier. It triggers his lust. I khow how hard it can be for a man to cum. I knew that because I read FHM and cosmopolitans.

“Ugh!”

I entered the bathroom without even knocking. I was greeted by naked Morgan when I entered. Nakaharap ito sa shower and I can see his shaft ready to fight. Tila nagulat ito sa pagkabukas ko ngunit kaagad din itong nawala.

“Anna…”

“I’ll help you but no touching,” Umiwas ako ng tingin sa katawan niya. I instructed him what he should do and he obliged without asking. I made him sit on the toilet and started giving him a lap dance.

I looked at his eyes and saw his raging desire for me as I grind my body around his. I closed my eyes removing the hesitations within me. If this is the way I would gain Morgan’s trust and convince him to take me home, then I will. I sat on his lap feeling his erection poking my mound. I started grinding, swaying, and earning moans coming from him.

He held my waist to move faster but I slapped his hands.

“I said no touching.” I glared at him.

“You’re not the boss of me,” he said with burning lust. I smirked.

“Then I’ll sleep.” Umalis ako sa kandungan niya but the jerk pulled me back. Napatili ako.

“Continue, please,” he chuckled. I frozed. That was the first time I saw him smile and pleaded. Ayaw ko man aminin ngunit I actually find him even more handsome with a smile on his face.

I shrugged. Nababaliw na siguro ako. Isang araw pa lang akong naririto sa isla niya. I should hate him even more. Dinala niya ako rito ng hindi ko gusto. Labag iyon sa kalooban ko. When I get back to the city, I should file a restraining order for him. Nang sa gayon ay hindi na ako muling guluhin ni Morgan.

I brushed my lips into his and lick his earlobe. Morgan hissed. I felt his member hardened even more because of that. Napatingin ako roon. Tayong tayo iyon at handang lumaban. If I am going to measure it, it would be 8 inches. I wrapped my fingers around his shaft and slowly stroked it. Hindi niya inaasahang gagawin ko iyon.

He whimpered again and this time, Morgan was closing his eyes. Halatang nasisiyahan na ito sa ginagawa ko. His moans made me excited more. Pakiramdam ko ay napapasaya ko siya. I stroked his member again but this time it was fast. His shaft was throbbing around my fingers and I can feel that he was already near so I sat on his lap again and grind my mound so he can have a better experience of cumming. And when Morgan finally came, he spurted his seeds outside of my undergarment.

Natahimik kaming dalawa. The fire we started decreased by minutes. I can still feel his orgasm coming dripping from my thighs.

“I’m wet.” I was still sitting on his lap when I said that.

“You want me to return the favor, love?” Morgan whispered in my ears. It made me shiver. May pang-aakit sa boses nito. His hand crawled into my thighs. Mariin kong tinampal ang kamay niya dahilan upang maalis iyon.

“No! Your sperm wets my underwear and thighs. Maglilinis muna ako.” Tumayo ako at hinila siya palabas kahit hubo’t hubad siya. I didn’t let my eyes feast on his nakedness. Mas lalo lang ako maakit dito.

I quickly cleaned myself. Doon ko lang naalala na wala akong pamalit na damit. Kaya naman ay napipilitan akong lumabas ng banyo ng naka-bathrobe.

“Wala akong pamalit,” I said to Morgan. Mukhang katatapos lang din nito maligo kung saan dahil nakabihis na ito. Morgan looked at me from head to toe. I became conscious suddenly because of his stares. I hugged myself. His eyes were feasting on me and took his steps towards me. Napaatras ako habang nakikipagtitigan sa kaniya. I stepped back carefully until my back hit on the cabinet. Wala na akong aatrasan.

His minty cool scent filled my nostrils. Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko habang nakikipagtitigan sa kaniya.

“You can wear this.” May inabot siya sa akin aking pares ng damit. Doon ko lang napansin na nakaharang ako sa cabinet. I blushed and made my step sideward.

“Thank you.” Kinuha ko ang damit na hawak niya at kaagad na tumakbo papunta sa banyo. Mabilis akong nagbihis at lumabas ng banyo. Pakiramdam ko ay nagm-mukha akong hanger dahil sa laki ng t-shirt ni Morgan. Wala rin akong suot na bra kaya patakbo akong sumampa sa kama at kinumutan ang aking sarili. Nakakahiya naman kung ipapangalandakan ko pa ang sarili ko sa harapan ni Morgan.

“Don’t run,” malamig nitong saway sa akin habang nakasandal ito sa head board at nagbabasa ng libro. I didn’t speak and closed my eyes. Ayaw kong kausapin ito. Nakakahiya ang ginawa ko sa kaniya. Mamaya sabihin pa nito na wala akong ka-modest modest na babae.

I was about to fall asleep when I heard him moved. Seconds later, a warm wind blew on my hair. Napaupo ako sa gulat. I saw Morgan holding a blower on his hand. This time he was wearing his eyeglass again! Parang kanina lang ay wala itong salamin habang nagbabasa.

“W-what are you doing?”

“You shouldn’t sleep when your hair is wet. Halika rito. I’ll dry your hair.” Kumuha pa ito ng una at nilagay sa hita ito. Napaamang ako. His voice were calm and sweet! Bipolar kaya ito? Parang kanina lang ay malamig ang pakikitungo nito sa akin.

“H-hindi na. Ako na.” Sinubukan kong agawin sa kaniya ang blower but Morgan pulled me so I landed on chest. Kaagad akong umayos ng upo at hinayaan siya sa gusto niyang gawin.

He was combing my hair using his hand and I actually like it! His touching my hair so soft. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang antukin dahil sa ginagawa niya.

“Are you always doings this to your girls?” I asked while my eyes closed. Nakakaantok talaga yung ginagawa niya. Alam kong marami na itong babaeng naikama. All men are addicted to sex. Havoc wasn’t exception that. He even tried to rape me earlier.

“No, we just fuck and go.” Napatango ako sa sagot niya. Kawawa naman pala ang mga babaeng nahuhulog sa kaniya at ibinibigay ang bataan. Itinatapon lang niya itong parang basura.

“That’s harsh,” I commented. What if I gave him sex that he wants? Would he let me go? Ibabalik na ba niya ako sa dati kong buhay?

“Yeah, they are just passing fancy. There’s only one woman that I wouldn’t treat like that.” Iniba naman niya ang pwesto ng blower.

“Ah, ganoon ba? Good for you if she knew your feelings for her.” Kung sino man ang babaeng minamahal nito, swerte niya. Hindi nito mararanasan ang ginagawa ni Morgan sa katulad naming babae nito. I would consider myself as one of his girl since we already kissed and make out.

“She hates me,” he said. Napatawa ako ng mahina. Malas naman nitong lalaking ito. Maybe he didn’t treat her right that is why she hates me. Kahit naman ako. I hate Morgan. Mutual feelings naman pala kami nung babaeng iyon.

“Ah.” Hindi na ako nagkomento pa. Mamaya ay ma-offend ko ito at may kung ano na namang gawin sa akin. Okay na yung ganitong kalmado siya. “I have a question,” dagdag ko.

“Hmm?”

“What if I gave you sex that you desire? Ibabalik mo na ba ako sa amin? Hindi ba, I am one of your girls?” tanong ko. Kanina ko pa ito iniisip.

Bigla itong tumigil sa ginagawa sa buhok ko. He sighed. “No, you’re not one of them. You are my woman, love. And I wasn’t planning to let you go even we have sex.” Napamulat ako ng mata at napalingon sa kaniya.

“A-ako yung tinutukoy mo?” Parang may kung anong lumundag sa dibdib ko. His green eyes set on mine.

“You are. You hate me. And I wouldn’t do this if you’re not my woman.” Seryosong seryoso ito sa sinasabi niya. Hindi ako sumagot at tumalikod sa kaniya. Ano raw? I am his woman? Not one of his girls? Gusto ko tuloy maihi sa kilig. Bigla ko tuloy naisip na mas mahihirapan akong makaalis dito.

Morgan continues to dry my hair. Muli na naman tuloy akong inantok. This time, gusto nang bumagsak ng ulo ko. Mabuti na lang at nakasuot si Morgan ng salamin ngayon. Kung hindi, baka higupin ng blower yung buhok ko.

“P’wede ulit akong magtanong? It’s kinda personal.” May naalala kasi ako.

“Yes, you can ask anything, love.” Napakagat ako ng labi bahagya at lumingon sa kaniya.

I met his eyes on mine. “Do you have a personality disorder, Morgan?”