Jane was only a child. She was only 16 years old, three years younger than I am but she was not born into slavery.
Her mother was a mistress to her father before she died during her delivery. She was raised by her stepmother who mistreated her all her childhood. And when her father died after falling from a palm tree, the stepmother became more powerful. When the woman's daughter became sick with a deadly disease, she went into debt and the child actually died and all her efforts went to waste. Out of spite, she sold Lola and used the money to pay her daughter's debt. It was while Lola was struggling with her master that she fell from a horse and hit her head. She came into the compound through Mikael. As usual, the mighty drunkard and gambler has gone to gamble. And after waisting 500,000 pounds, he finally won Lola whose master was desperate to get rid of that he made a bet with her. It was days after Mikael got home that he realised that the slave he bought was sick in the head. He was told by his mother to leave her in the streets but Mikael declined, saying he refuses to lose totally. Seeing a knife cut into her chest is like a cut into my own heart itself. I could remember the first time she came into the compound. She was so shy and always smiling. Before she was exposed into this horrible life. "Do you know that you're pretty?", she once said to me. "What do you mean? I'm not in any way pretty or beautiful. I'm skinny and pale and ugly if you ask me" I retorted and she smiled. " Have you looked into the mirror?", she asked. "There is this kind of beauty around you, this gentility and elegance. Even though you're in a slave's dress, you have the aura of a queen" I laughed after she said that. "A Queen? You should have categorised me with a lady" Lola gasped with pain, shock all over her expression while she looked at Angus as her breadth slipped away. All the same, Angus showed no remorse. He removed the knife and stepped away from her dead body as if nothing has just happened. He turned his head to look at Yun who smiled at him He walked up to Yun and he raised the knife to his neck. Yun's smile fell off immediately but Angus only clean the bloody knife with his collar. "Hey brother,", Mikael seemed to have recovered from his own shock and he wrapped his hand around his brother's neck. "Don't tell me you killed her just to get back at me for losing your silvers to me", "It's not like you will miss her. She has only been a troublesome bitch.", he said like an inhumane person he was. I looked at the hand which was cleaning the knife and at that moment, I hated myself for allowing myself to be touched by that hand. For a splitting second, he stared at me and I saw the hatred in his eyes. It was not exactly directly at me but it was there all the same. After that, everyone worked at the farm as if nothing has happened. As if we've not just lost one of us. Someone we would never see again. My friend. In fact , We did not even know when we finish the whole farm. I thought time would stop after I lost someone so important to me but it did not. Night came and I found it hard to sleep. I was restless. The scene kept reminiscing in my head. I turned to my side but the woman sleeping beside me would not stop talking in her sleep. I decided to take some air. Rising up, I tip_toed out of the chamber. I breath out when I came into the open air. But the relief was short_lived as a servant suddenly stopped beside me. "What? What did I..", I paused. I could recognise the man so I changed my tone. "What is it? Did I do something?" I asked fearfully. He shook his head. He looked by his right and left before he whispered. "Master Angus wants you in his room now" Immediately he mentioned the name, my demeanour changed and I became furious. I did not want to have anything to do with that devil. But damn it if I was not bounded by my status. Tears burned my leads as I trailed after the man. "Thank you, Sullivan. You can go now", Angus released the man the moment I came into his room. The man left and it was now the two of us in the room. All the while, I kept my gaze fixed on the floor while he also remained silent. He rose from the bed where he was sitting and he started walking towards me. But I was wrong. He only brushed past me to take off his tunic. He was spending a lot of time and so, out of curiosity, I turned to look at him. I was shocked when I found him staring at me. He caught my gaze and he smiled. I glared back at him and he let out his annoying laughter. "Now that's my girl! Where have you been?" He said admits laughter and then he sobered up. He moved closer to me. "Show me some fire. I know you're not this silent" Damn it if he was not just right. "Go. to. hell", I gritted out and he glared back at me. "Easy there. You don't want me to lose my temper, do you?" I scoffed aloud. "Why? You're scared you would kill me too?", I challenged and stepped closer to him with a boldness that I did not feel. He chuckled. "Why, darling?", he drawled, his brow raised. "Is that all you think I can do to you?", he was now standing right before me. He placed his hand on my waist but I pushed him away. "Stay away from me. You this murderer!", I cried, tears falling down from my face. I watch as his eyes became dark with anger and I silently pray for him to lose it and kill me too. But he only shook his head and disappeared into the inner room. I was shocked when he came back holding the knife with which he killed Lola. "That's it", he threw the knife at my feet and I remembered how he killed my friend with the knife. All of a sudden, I just wanted to kill him too. I bent, picking up the knife and I stepped closer to him. I stood at the same distance which he stood before Lola. Holding his gaze with my own calm expression, I thrust the knife into his heartAt what point I slept off, I did not know. My eyes opened and the chamber was already bustling. Girls move about, chatting and doing different tasks. Karen was plaiting a woman's hair alongside some other girls, Jane was sewing her torn wrapper, a few others were loosing and plaiting their hair. Lady Esme sat at her usual spot, in between her legs were wood fibers, intertwining them in her wrinkled fingers. I stared at her for a long time and I came to realise she was making a shoe for her very large feets. She suddenly looked back at me and quickly looked away. The boldness to look at Esme was one thing, to hold her chilling gaze was something else. My hands shook and I swallowed thickly. I could still feel he gaze on me. I rolled my eyes. No wonder no master has bought her. No one would dare come closer to the witch of The Oak, not when she still stares at anyone like that. She finally looked away and I sighed with relief. I took another glance at the chamber. It was an unusual sce
It took two days before I set my eyes on Angus again. I was sleeping in the chamber when I heard a low whistle behind me. I knew it was Sullivan. Immediately, I rose to my feet and crept out of the room.Walking into Angus' room, I paused on my feet, looking around the dark room until I sighted him standing by the wall. Breathing in, I walked closer to him until I was standing before him, our gazes locked together. I looked into his blue eyes and I wondered how I meant nothing to him. How could I have been no one?My eyes watered and I cast down my gaze. He raised his hand and his thumb wiped the lone tear that fell to my cheek, his fingers grazing my jaw. "How do you do, my dear?", he asked and I placed my hand on his chest, my gaze fixed on his chest. "How do I do? How have I been? I am the wind that flew by, the sunrise and the sunset. I am the morning dew. I am the dust beneath your feet, I am the beat of your heart ", I looked at him, a bitter smile on my face."I'm always wi
I pushed open the door to the slave chamber, my heart still racing from the events that had just transpired. The girls were crowded around a group of girls boxing, their cheers and shouts filling the air. But I couldn't care less about the spectacle. I made my way to my space, my mind reeling with thoughts of Angus and Mikael.As I sat down, I couldn't shake off the feeling of disgust and fear that had settled in my stomach. Mikael's suggestion that Angus had shared women with him before had left me feeling sick. The thought of being intimate with him was unbearable. I knew I had no control over my fate, and the possibility of being forced into such a situation was terrifying.I buried my face in my hands, trying to process my emotions. How could Angus even consider such a thing? Did he not care about my feelings or well-being? I thought about the way he had shielded me from Mikael's gaze, the way he had spoken to me with such tenderness. But now, I wondered if it was all just a facad
I crouched to one side, hugging my knees to my chest as I watched the others who had gone to lay down in groups, worn out from the stress of the last day. However, It wasn't really the work from the last day that wore us down, but the anticipation of the day to come. Dramatic days like today were common in the slaves' chamber – girls fighting for food, women fighting over a man, bullies and the like – but none had ever centered on me. I used to be a shadow in the room, quiet and unnoticed. Looking at the faces of these people stealing glances at me, I knew there was something off. The slaves knew something I didn't. Another thing I was sure of was that it was only a matter of time before they found out where I'd been spending my nights.I lay in bed, the soft sheet wrapped around my naked body as I watched Angus. He sat with his back to me, his head bent on a desk as he scribbles on a scroll, his brow tightened with concentration. Every once in a while, he would raise his head to dip
As I changed out of the luxurious silk and into my simple dress, Angus's gaze lingered on me, his expression solemn. I knew what he was thinking about. What he has come to realise. I could sense the weight of his thoughts, the unspoken words that hung between us. I knew that he was thinking about the vast differences between our worlds, the societal boundaries that separated us. To imagine it is vastly different from seeing it. As I fastened the last button on my dress, I caught his eye, and for a moment, we just looked at each other. I could see the longing in his gaze, the desire to bridge the gap between us. But I also knew that there were forces beyond our control that would not allow it to be easy. I stared at his elegant attire to my very worn out cotton and I gulped in. I'm sure he could see it too, and I wonder if the nature of our relationship would have been any different had I have been of a different status. With a quiet sigh, I tu
We made love a few times during the night, but it did nothing to ease the hurt in my heart, nothing to erase my memory of Lyla. The way she stared at him with such intimacy made my blood boil. It made me see red. But all the same, I felt helpless. I'm drowning in this river of emotions where only Angus could save me.My mind ran on many thoughts. I wondered if Lyla had recognised me earlier. Could she tell it was me? I could not tell. Not when she was so focused on Angus, with her body drawing to him like magnet. The scene repeated in my head and I gritted my teeth, seething with anger.I think he felt me tremble against him and he placed his calming hand on my shoulder. "You are not sleeping, is anything bothering you?".I hesitated before I spoke. "Can I ask you a question? And I want a sincere answer."He went silent behind me at once. It was as if he anticipated for the question. "Could you not ask?", his voice was gentle, tryi
Angus held me close to himself, , trying to pacify me. His warmth and scent enveloped me, calming my frazzled nerves. But as our bodies touched, the air seemed to charge with a different kind of energy. I felt my resistance melt away and my body relaxing into his embrace. Angus's chest rose and fell with steady breaths, his heart beating in rhythm with mine. He cradled my head against his chest, his fingers gently stroking my hair. My eyes shut close as the gentle touch sent shivers down my spine. I opened my eyes as he tilted my face up to his. Our eyes met, the connection sparking like electricity. The atmosphere suddenly changed and it became heated with our lust. I went lax in his arms and he crawled my head to his chest before his lips descended upon mine. The kiss, soft and gentle at first, but grew more insistent as it deepened. I could feel myself getting lost in the moment, my senses overwhelmed by the taste and scent of him. The world around us melted away, leaving only
The footsteps grew louder, and my anxiety spiked. I pulled the sheets closer, feeling vulnerable and exposed. The door creaked open, and my eyes met those of Lyla. My eyes widened.Lyla's eyes looked around the room, her expression guarded and searching, her gaze piercing as she moved closer to me. However, sensing her intensity, I looked away, my face hidden behind a veil of my hair. But Lyla wasn't deterred. She took another step forward, her movements quiet and deliberate.I could feel the weight of Lyla's probing stare. My skin prickling with unease and my heart beat loudly in my chest. I knew that look in her eyes. I knew it meant Lyla was piecing together fragments of suspicion and doubt. My heart beat faster, my breadth catching in my throat as Lyla took a step closer. The room seemed to shrink, the walls closing in on me like a vise. I began to sweat."Freye," Lyla she called, her voice low and her tone uncertain.My hands tremb
I twirled around to face him and my eyes locked onto his, shining with gratitude and desire. I wrapped her hands around his neck, my fingers tracing the nape of his neck, and pulled him closer. Our lips met in a tender kiss as my heart drummed in my chest. Angus's hands moved deftly, helping me out of the tight dress, until I stood before him in all my naked glory. The soft glow of the room's candles danced across my skin, highlighting my curves and I watched Angus who has paused to stare at my body as though he was seeing it for the first time, his eyes filled with admiration and longing. As we lay on the bed, my body arched toward him, anticipating the union while Angus's hands explored her skin, sending shivers downy spine. He bent, his mouth showering my body with kisses while I struggled to loose his trousers. When I finally succeeded, I took his manhood in my hand and I gave a firm squeeze.