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0082: Self-Loathing

Author: FlyingDove
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KAREN’S POV

The room smelled faintly of lavender—Laila’s favorite. The scent should have been soothing, but now it clawed at my lungs like a cruel reminder of everything I’d destroyed.

I sat curled up in the corner of my old room—the one Laila and Sarah had lovingly decorated just for me. The lavender curtains, the soft pillows, the twinkling fairy lights overhead… they were all supposed to make me feel at home. Now, they just reminded me of everything I didn’t deserve.

Tears slipped down my cheeks without pause, burning hot against my skin.

This was all my fault.

Laila was gone—taken. Liam… Goddess, Liam might not make it. And Jackson… I hadn’t seen him, hadn’t heard his voice. He hadn’t come. He probably hated me. And honestly, I couldn’t blame him. Because none of this would’ve happened if I hadn’t gone back.

“I ruin everything,” I whispered, burying my face in my hands. The ache in my chest was unbearable, like my heart was trying to tear itself apart from the inside. I couldn’t b
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