Some people call me a virgin, especially my doctor, but I partially think I am not.
Because I have had marvelous sex accompanied by a lot of orgasms by myself for as long as I have been active.At my age, being a virgin is not a weird situation for a nerd like me. crazy bitch. My mind is shouting as I continue with my plan to have sex with a random guy.Not only the books, and porn but also pap smear taught me. I need to have at least physical or mental attraction with the guy for anything passing in the lady parts to work its way up easily.My body and mind must be at peace when all this goes down.Which makes my plan increasingly complicated.The way he communicates and makes me feel is important.To make an experience, I won’t regret as I walk through my path of motherhood.The sound of the notification on my first match on my laptop bar brings my complete attention to the task at hand. Five minutes in and someone is interested.THIS IS A MIRACLE.My heart is pumping high on happiness and full drive.THIS IS A GOOD START.I open the matching folder.The first thing I do is scan his profile page for his age and then the looks before I go further.Older men are the better choice. And a sixty-year-old man is asking for permission to proceed.Most old men have had a lot of experience with life and are not up for playing games and would be gentle with me. That’s what I believe.I hope they don’t disappoint.I have gotten close to some older men, not in a physical sense, but through communication, and we speak the same language.They had a better view of life and challenged my mind than men of my age.These men had families. Had kids of their own.I plan to use their weakness against them to lower their guard. I have everything planned.They will never think I am tricking them into stealing their sperm.I want to decrease tremendously the pool of men I am not looking forward to.I am aware of how dating sites are clouded. That’s why I paid for a premium membership on this dating site.Struggling is not a terrible thing, but all the people I know, including me, are struggling to pay bills.That will delay my plan if have a large pool of everyone in it to choose only one.That will cost me time too.Killing my budget by paying for the most expensive hotel in Casablanca will bring a lot of freebies to my door.If I put myself in their shoes, I would be someone wanting to go to Casablanca for free too.But luckily, people allowed in this hotel are members of the VVIP community only.It is a well-known concept that Casablanca Regency Hotel hosts very few in the country.People like me visit Casablanca as tourists, we can’t stay longer than a week.Not because we can’t save up for a whole week's worth of stay money.But because of the few rooms set for tourists compared to the number of people who wish to step foot into the exquisite hotel.My interest is someone who can afford high-end hotels.Someone who will make it easy for me if I must stay longer at the hotel.To get access to me in this plan, the match would need to be a wealthy guy with a lot of powerful connections; that is the plan.It is not because I want to sell my soul or dignity.But because I believe wealthy people don’t have time and the pleasure of falling in love easily.The first thing I never want to happen again in my life is for me getting attached to a guy.I will never allow myself to come close to falling in love.Using high-end services only to match me means few could do that. My pointy hook in this plan is the Cannibal's certificate.I also want a hospital certificate to prove the potential matches are clean and healthy.It’s a no-brainer that going raw means being exposed to not only sperm but infections and I don’t want that happening.As a hacker, I can print fake certificates from a lot of hospitals anywhere in the world, but Cannibals hospital certificates are impossible even for top hackers who are not me.I will only accept certificates from the Cannibals Hospital, which is also a membership VVIP hospital.After attempting fails in hacking into the Cannibals hospital systems, at the least I ended up with a tiny victory for getting copies forwarded to me.It took me longer to hack into their system. That’s why my plan has taken years.I will print all certificates that will be offered from today.I have everything figured out on all the ways to eliminate the ones that are not serious from the beginning of my plan.Brainstormed for days with all the scenarios on how these men would want to cheat just to get into my panties.Playing each scenario in my mind. I thank God for the experience in dating apps.I depend on my experience to help with the plan. I have tales to tell with extensive experience.The worst experience with these apps comes from obsessed men, control freaks, and super aggressive to all kinds of insane humans out there.I plan to see that everything that could be proved is true from the other end before everything backfires because of the carelessness of one man I can avoid earlier on.Long distance was a bunch of horny fuckers wanting to sex text and send nudes to each other, which was not for me now in this plan.If I opened my DMS and SMS now, the majority are lonely horny bitches that want the same thing I wanted a couple of weeks ago.Someone to be there and listen to my sad, boring life or sometimes to be the man I fantasized about when I masturbated.Complete focus on my plan is the target now.Luciano is one hell of a narcist. In between all this, he still knows where to get me. He pulls me, then brings his lips to mine. Kissing me tenderly and eagerly that I almost forget everything, but I am reminded it is my body reacting to a lie. It’s all a lie. We found the feelings in lies.“Please stop this…. please…”I push him away from me and continue to sob loudly. It hurts so much. It hurts more to think he could be capable of hurting me like this.“Look at me… Tell me you do not feel this connection I am feeling. Please tell me I am not making this up. I have fallen madly in love with you, Keirah. Talk to me. I want to know Keirah. What does all this mean to you?” “If I tell you. Will that change anything.?” “Talk to me. Make it make sense. I do not understand.” “I do not have any feelings for you. I never did. All I have felt for you is pity.” “Do you accept me to believe that?” “It is fine by me. Whatever you believe sounds okay.” He tries to walk to me, and I halt his
Tears are flying down my face. Hurt, pain, and disappointment are all eating me up. The Mafia wants to get hold of these biochips. I was sacred of the doctors getting hold of them. What about the Mafia? This is very bad. It was all the plan since day one to give them the prototype for the biochips. But how naïve of me. I gave them more. I gave them my heart. What did I do so wrong? That I am always falling deeply in love with the men who don’t just break me. But kill me inside. Destroy every hope of my heart getting better.I cry out loud and I shiver as I sob. It feels too cold in the jacuzzi. I stand up, out of the jacuzzi and pick up a towel and wrap it around my body. My head still trying to wrap out why he would do this to me. “Was this all part of your deal with your uncle? Sleep with me and trick me to make me do what you want? “He trusted his nephew. A murderer…. and you are doing great. Have you told him I almost escaped? I almost succeeded that day. “You should thank th
In the wee hours of the morning. When I try to stand up, my legs feel jelly and I give up on standing. I lie still on the bed rewinding the day and what the hell just happened now? My mind is all back. Whatever happened yesterday was an in-the-moment thing, but the reality of all of it is back. I should not have slept with Luciano with all this going on. My plan to get someone in my pants worked. But it has gone sideways because I am in love again and this time around with this man lying beside me in bed. I have brought another heartbreak and pain to my heart once again. Maybe I should have been honest from the start and we would not have been in the state. I am also blaming myself for having sex without telling Luciano the whole truth that made me come to Casablanca. That I came all the way to get myself pregnant by deceit. And by the way, I have fallen for him. I want to assure him the plan was no longer what I wanted if I had him by my side.I now know what I have wanted all
And his voice drives me crazy in a good way. “I will take the clothes off. Just go on and close the door.” I throw off the clothes. My body is burning with heat for him. I want it. I have wanted him to fuck me forever. I throw myself on the bed. He closes the curtains and makes sure the door is closed. His gaze is down at me and now, after a few seconds, his eyes look completely different. He stands up and sheds his clothes before picking me out of the bed. His lips lock on mine and kiss me tenderly. He places my back onto the bed gently with his thumb on my lips, pressing his gaping mouth on mine while his hands work down to my breasts. He then locks our tongues together again and we both moan more. Making love to me makes my mind go blank. Moaning softly. My juices are dripping down my thighs. I put one hand on my clitoris, simulating it while another hand works with him up my breast. Playing around our body with foreplay for sometimes teasing our body. Wanting to build the pre
The thought of me wanting to save him and not kill me. Makes fear travel to my spine. I still let him hold on to me tight, helping him keep his head above water as I swim towards the riverbank. I did not believe him when he said he did not know how to swim. I help him out of the water and plead for him to forgive me. “I am so sorry. I should have listened when you told me you could not swim.” “Is that even a sincere apology? You almost killed me.” “Yes, I am sorry.”James walks up to us and hands Luciano a towel. Leaving us behind as if he did not want to intervene, Luciano takes the towel and walks away from me. Cursing as he dries his hair in a towel. I feel hurt. He did not need to curse me. I was wrong and did not know he could not swim. He is the one who said I don’t forgive easily. What is he doing to me now, after I sincerely apologized? He is human, Keirah... He is human. I would fume too if I was in his situation. I join Zia and James, who have invested their eyes on u
“I hated the world for taking away the only person who meant everything to me. She had no dreams except to get us out. It was so unfair, and I felt lost. That's what led me to choose wrong. “That's when it all started for me, turning into the dark. Turning into what I should not have turned into. I killed many people who handled her death, thinking it would take away some of this feeling of hurt. “But I still feel it every day. I thought If I revenged her. It would go away. But it never did. However, many people were killed. I still felt the pain of her loss grow every day.” Who is the woman? Is she the woman he is still in love with? Does he have an Erede in his life too? I haven’t heard him speak of a woman with so much love like this. He still loves her. He is madly in love with a dead woman.“I did that for a few years. I do not do it anymore, Keirah. I do not kill people for revenge except to protect myself. This gun here is to protect us. “When I reached the bottom. I felt m