Chapter 23

Lucan’s Pov

I have checked five places for her, but I did not see her. I am almost giving up when I finally remember that I have not checked her. Why did I not even check her room immediately?

Finally I have found her and I find her in her room, lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling. She has removed her lingerie and she is just wearing a simple nightgown that covers her up.

Well, so she could actually cover up? I mock her in my mind. I wonder if she is self loathing. I wonder if she is embarrassed by what just happened. She does not know that I saw everything that happened. I wonder if she would be embarrassed if she finds out that I listened all the while. I wonder if this is how she gets rejected all the time by the man she threw herself out. The man who use her for the sexual gratification.

She looks sideways when I enter, then she looks away because she knows what I am here for.

"Lucan,” she simply acknowledges me, "have you been standing there for long?”

"Yes,” I reply, my voice cold. "I want to know what is wrong with you. I want to know why you have made it your life purpose to always disgrace me.”

"I don't know what you mean,” she rolls her eyes

"Oh stop it, mother!” I snap furiously. “Asides from what happened in the room, I saw how you came out from behind a pillar. Has it gotten into that? You were hiding, stalking him?”

She looks at me in surprise. “Oh, you were there?” she tries to sound as if it is a normal thing, what the way her eyebrows rises slightly tells me that she is embarrassed

“Why are you so desperate? Why did you throw yourself at him like that! He is my fucking enemy!”

“There was nothing wrong about what I did. I was just welcoming him,” she shrugs

"You were just welcoming him with a seductive dress and the lingerie you wore when you met him in the corridor?” I chuckle at the absurdity of this all. “You must think I am Fool!”

"How dare you speak to me like that," she snaps sitting up sharply. "I'm your mother."

"No, Elaina. Don’t give yourself that title in my life. You're an embarrassment," I counter. "Ever since I have been a child, all you ever do is to embarrass me. I still remember how you tried to seduce my teacher in elementary school. Everyone knew about it and stuck to me! it fucking stuck to me like a thorn in my flesh!” I almost get too emotional as I scream

She rules her eyes again. “Oh please, you forget I am a werewolf too. I have needs for crying out loud!” I watch as she defends herself. It is pathetic. “And whatever happened in your elementary school has passed. You have been singing this particular thing in my ear for years. Are you not grown? You are the alpha now for crying out loud! Whatever you are saying now happened long ago! It has passed and you need to move on!” she sighs as if I am just one big disturbance to her. “ Besides, I haven't done anything wrong. Alfonso is an attractive man, and I'm a woman who has not been touched ever since she killed her husband!”

"You don’t just have sense," I correct. "When I told you I was going to kill Poland, you approved of it, no blaming me?”

She doesn’t reply, she just shrugs at me

“Alfonso is an enemy!” I continue

"He is not my enemy," she says with so much delusion in her voice."Did you see the way he looked at me? I think he is just a tough person. He likes me. I know he likes me. You will come around someday. I always get the man I want.

I stare at her in disbelief. "He likes you? He insulted you like a commoner. Did you not notice how he called you a whore more than a million times!? She didn’t treat you like a Luna”

"You will not understand. Men that are powerful say things they don't mean when they're trying to act tough and protect their reputation," she replies. "He's probably just being cautious. I like that about him. Since he is so powerful, he has to be very careful about things like this”

She is so far gone in her delusion. I don’t know what to say to her again. Think that he is interested in that after he has treated her like nothing so many times

"Mother, listen to me very carefully," I say, moving closer to her. "You have to stay away from Alfonso. Alfonso is not interested in you. He's not playing hard to get. He's not being cautious whatever you think he is being. He thinks you're a whore, and if you approach him again, he might actually kill you. You are an embarrassment to me, but I don’t want you to die yet"

“You don't understand men like I do, Lucan. I've been dealing with alphas and I know just when one of them is interested in me."

"You have been embarrassing yourself with alphas the whole time."

"Watch your mouth!” she retorts. I know I have just touched a painful topic.

"Even when you were married to my father. You threw yourself at different men. You made him hate his life. You just kept cheating on him when you were supposed to be faithful. He gave you everything."

"She gave me everything except prestige and wealth,” she replies quickly. I know that the quick reply is to mask her guilt. “Your father was a weak man. He didn’t even have alpha blood. I don’t know what I was thinking when I decided to settle for him.”

"You know right now, I support Alfonso. You are a whore! An alpha dick hunting whore! You can never be satisfied! You will die with your pussy as wide as a football!” I am angry and I am saying hurtful things to her. “ I am sure that every alpha around has fucked you to a pulp! You dare call my father weak!? man give you everything till he died!? He…”

She cannot take it anymore. She cuts me of with slaps I go quiet immediately and we just stare at each other without saying anything

"Your father was weak," she repeats, her voice harder now. "And weakness disgusts me. And if you are not careful, it would be as weak as he was. You allow Alfonso to come into this pack and dictate to you? That is weakness and you are beginning to disgust me.”

I rub my cheeks where she has just slapped me. “Just stay away from Alfonso. Men like Alfonso will soon be brought down to their knees," I counter. "They will be defeated, killed and replaced by the strongest Alpha of all time"

"By who? Who is the strongest alpha?" she asks.

“Why do you want to know? You want to fuck him too?” I snap at her interruption, but she does not reply to me

"Are you referring to yourself?”