Chapter 5 His guilt

*JANELLE*

The attendant looked at me from head and toe, as if guessing my size.

“Follow me.”She instructed.

I followed her and she handed me a light blue dress.

“Go try this on in the fitting room.” She said, pointing at it.

I took the dress and walked towards the direction she had pointed.

As I walked in, I heard a voice.

“Donovan, do you really have to marry that girl from the Moore family?”

I grimaced.

That was my family’s name.

Could it be just a coincidence?

Curiously, I looked at the fitting room next to mine through the crack on the door.

I saw a man sitting on a couch, his back was to my view though.

A woman was clearly sitting on his laps, wrapping her arms around his neck.

Her voice sounded kitten-like as if she was trying to sound adorable to the man.

“I don’t want you to marry her.” She added.

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*DONOVAN*

I stared at the sad look on Laura’s face.

I couldn’t really blame her. After what happened that night, I had promised to do anything she wanted.

It was the least I could do for taking advantage of her.

But as to saying no to this marriage, I couldn’t. My position at the company was at stake if I broke this arrangement.

So my plan now was to get married first, then find a way to end it so I can get back together with Laura.

I never thought I’d ever be romantically involved with Laura. She had been my secretary for three years. Things between us had always been professional. She was very good at her job and she went with me on most business trips.

Including the one from two months ago.

I was still investigating how I got drugged. And so far, there was still no answer.

One moment I was having dinner with some investors and talking about business, the next thing I knew I felt restless.

I had excused myself to the restroom thinking I needed to ease myself but I felt worse.

My dick was as hard as a rock and it felt as if I was going to die if I didn’t get a release.

When I got out of the restroom and ran into a woman, I had the strong need to pin her to wall and fuck her.

I had never taken advantage of a woman before.

I knew I had been accused of doing lots of things but one thing anyone couldn’t accuse me of was rape.

I loved my women willing and giving full consent. And so I tried to fight it.

I hurried up to my suite.

Locked myself in and jerked off but it didn’t help.

My need for sex kept tripling. For the first time in my life, I lost all control of myself.

I knew a woman walked in. Laura had said she wanted to come call me so the meeting could continue.

But then I pounce on her like a beast.

I could still recalled her cries as I used her body to satisfy my uncontrollable lust.

When I woke up the next morning, she was lying naked on the bed in tears.

And just moments after that, I saw blood on the sheets.

She had been a virgin.

Of course I knew how women wanted their first time to be very special.

I felt so fucking guilty for ripping that away from her.

I had hugged her and apologized, she wept for a long time in my arms.

I told her I’d do anything to make it up to her and she said she wanted to be with me.

It felt odd that she wanted a relationship with me after I had ruthlessly fucked her.

But she said she doesn’t blame me, she blamed the aphrodisiac that I was on and since then, she had also been helping me find out who had drugged me.

If getting into a relationship with her would make up for that night, I felt it was the least I could do, so I agreed to date her.

Laura leaned into me more and that snapped me back to reality.

“I already told you the plan. Don’t worry. We won’t be separated.”I assured her.

She smiled at me.

“Go on. Go pick more dresses. Buy anything you want.”I urged.

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Laura smiled as she got up from his laps to pick more dresses but she still felt disturbed.

She had literally wanted this man for three years and now that she finally had him, he was going to get married to someone else.

She pouted.

She never knew he was betrothed to someone else.

From the first day she set her eyes on Donovan, she had this huge crush on him. And when she got the position as his secretary, her crush gradually developed into something deeper.

She had tried several means to get him to look at her, romantically.

She had tried her natural look, tried various make up looks. She had dressed provocatively many times to get him to at least find her sexually attractive.

But he never noticed. She had even bumped into him a few times and made it look coincidental but still, he saw her as nothing more than a secretary.

One day, while hanging out with her friend, she had heard her friend say that her husband got even more interested in her when he found her that she was a virgin.

From that point, he wanted to be the only one bedding her for the rest of her life.

That had clicked something in Laura’s brain.

But the problem was that, she wasn’t a virgin.

She couldn’t even pretend to be because she has had sex with multiple men, even in the three years that she badly wanted Donovan, she was still sexually active with other men.

But then, she thought of making him think she was a virgin.

She had drugged him with a powerful aphrodisiac, she had made sure all the lights in the suite were faulty that night so he wouldn’t make out the real face of the woman he slept with.

She had hired a town resident to help her find a virgin and send her to that room.

After Donovan had his way with the girl to his fill, and after the girl left, Laura slipped into the room, undressed and lay on the bed.

So to Donovan, he had deflowered his secretary that night and with how heartbroken she made sure to look the following morning, she got him to agree to date her.

Laura had thought she had finally won.

For two months now, Donovan who was naturally a cold man had been treating her, tenderly.

She thought that soon, they’d get married.

But she got the shock of her life when he informed her about his arranged marriage.

Even if he assured her that his arranged marriage won’t last, Laura still felt troubled.