LEV'S POV
"Are you gonna be married or not?" My sister asked.I woke up with a terrible headache. Pagkabukas ko pa ng mga mata ko, mukha na ng mga kapatid ko ang bumungad sa akin. They opened the curtains which light made its way to my room. They know the pin to my condo unit so they can barge in any time they want."Good morning too," I replied. "Anong oras na?""It's ten in the morning, Lev. Uminom ka ba kagabi?" One sister asked."Oo," I replied.Kaya pala masakit yung ulo. I did drank last night. Pero ang sabi ko naman na hindi ako magpapakalasing. I ended up doing otherwise. I let mysel carried away with the emotions I was feeling.Come to think of it, someone did helped me last night. Paniguradong hindi ko kayang umuwi na ako lang mag-isa. Knowing my condition, I would end up lying on the streets if I were left alone. Sino nga ba yung kasama ko kagabi?"You are a potential wife," I heard my voice.Kumunot yung noo ko. Eh? Potential wife? Sino naman ang pagsasabihin ko nun? I tried to remember who I was with until I only saw one face. It was Kaia.No. It was a different Kaia. Sobrang bait niya and that Kaia wouldn't even care just a bit about me. Nakakapanibago lang. Is she really soft-hearted from the inside? Kasi kung hindi, pinabayaan na niya ako kagabi sa party. But then again, I will be her groom. Siguro iniisip din niya yung reputation naming dalawa if I made a scene. Fair point."Ano? Are you gonna stare down the floor the whole day?" My sister asked kaya napatingala ako sakanya."Oh. I'm sorry. It's the hangover," Iling ko. "What was your question again?"They both sighed. "Did you find your bride? Kung wala pa, may gusto kaming ipakilala sa'yo.""Mga ate, I can perfectly handle myself. Ako na ang maghanap. Huwag na kayong mag-abala pa," I said."Are you sure? We actually found someone who would be good for you," said one. "Mayaman, mabait, at maalaga. A perfect wife material, Lev. Just like what you wanted."Kumunot yung noo ko. "Since when did you know my ideal type?""Let's face it. We raised you and we know everything about. You should know that by now, bunso."Pati siguro crush simula elementary ay kilala nila. They are like my second parents. Kung protective si Mommy sa akin, mas protective sila. They want what's best for me, as their youngest, and as their only boy."Sino ba 'yan?" I asked. "Do I know her?"The both nodded. "Yup! You've met her a couple of times.""She's Ms. Santos."Nanlaki ang aking mga mata. Ano daw? Santos? The woman who used to be my tutor? A family friend? An older woman?!"What?!" I shouted."Look, age doesn't matter, okay? Ang importante maalagaan ka niya. We know that you're in good hands. Besides, you used to say that you liked her," Sagot ni Ate."Yes! I like her when we were younger kasi para ko na siyang kapatid. Ate naman! Why would you let me marry to a 40 year old woman?!" Iling ko."40 na nga si Ms. Santos but she looks younger than her age. Lev naman. We couldn't find anyone who could do everything like what Ms. Santos could offer," They argued."But she's like a mother! Halos magkasing-edad na sila ni Mommy.""That's the point, Lev! Someone who will take care of you like a mother. Isn't that what you want?""No!" Madiin kong sagot. "Parang sugar mommy ko na din 'yan, ate. Hindi ba kayo naaawa sa akin?""If you're so good, how come you haven't introduced someone to us, huh? Magpasalamat ka pa nga kasi we did the hard things for you," One argued."Kaya nga I've been going to parties, diba? I am looking for a bride at labas na kayo sa kung ano ang choice ko," I fired back. "At wala naman akong sinabi na hindi pa ako nakakahanap ng bride to be."Kumunot yung noo nila. "Are you saying you found the one?"I nodded. "Yes. And I am planning on pursuing her. Gusto ko baby steps lang muna para hindi siya mabigla."I lied. It's one of Kaia and I's agreement. Dahan-dahanin lang namin yung proseso para hindi kahina-hinala. Well, I guess it's the right time naman na sabihan ko sina Ate tungkol dito bago pa nila ako ipakasal sa matanda."When can we meet her?" One Ate squinted her eyes at me. "Are you sure this is not one of your tricks to make us believe that you did find someone and that you can avoid to marry to Ms. Santos?""Gaya nang sabi ko, ayoko siyang biglain. I will introduce her to you once she's ready. As of this time, I want her to feel comfortable with me." I replied."We will wait for that day, Lev," One of my sister said."And we will be the judge for that," Said the other."You're gonna love her," Sagot ko. "You won't believe how I found somebody like her."I'm being honest. It's true that Kaia is one unbelievable woman. Sino ba naman ang babaeng lalapit sa lalaki and offer a ruse. Si Kaia lang. She doesn't involve her emotional attachment to anyone. I doubt if she also have a heart. Pero nang makita ko siya kagabi, she became a whole new different person. Posible kayang ibang tao yun? Pero hindi 'e. I saw Kaia with my very own eyes.Bigla nalang tumunog yung phone ko kaya napalingon dito ang aking mga kapatid. We stared at my phone on the table top, revealing Kaia's name."Kaia?" Tanong nung isa. "Kaia Dorchner?"I nodded. "You know her?""Her Auntie and Mom are good friends. I only heard about her not until we held a party. Doon namin siya nakilala but we never had the chance to know her better," Sabi ng kapatid ko. "Siya ba? Siya ba ang tinutukoy mong babae kanina?""Yes."Tumaas ang magkabila nilang kilay. "Be careful, Lev. No one knows her.""Kaya nga I'm trying to get to know her better. I'm curious about her," Sagot ko."I'm just saying. If you're not so sure about her, you can always have Ms. Santos as your wife."Umiling ako. "I'd rather marry someone who I'm interested in, rather than someone I know but older."KAIA'S POVLev texted me to meet up this afternoon. Hindi ko alam kung para saan. There is no party that we'll be attending kaya nagtataka ako. I was doing my job when I received his text. Actually nasa trabaho ako ngayon. So I told him to meet me here in my workplace.Casa de los Desiertos.I owned the place. Ako din mismo ang gumawa ng menu. This is how I practice my profession.Ilang minuto pa lang ay nakita ko nang pumasok si Lev. He found a vacant seat and roamed his eyes all over the place. The customers started turning their heads towards Lev. He's one fine man. I took off my apron and chef hat, fixed myself, and approached him. Hindi pa nga niya ako napansin agad. I stood behind him and cleared my throat."Do you want something to drink?" I asked.Lumingon siya at agad ngumiti nang makita ako. I was taken aback. How can he smile with the situation he have?"Kaia!" He exclaimed. "So you really own this place?"I nodded. "Oo.""Wow! I thought you'd be working in an office or something," He said excitedly. "So you make the food too?"I nodded."Ang galing!""Stop being overdramatic," Irap ko. "It's not something you should be excited about.""I don't know about your opinion but that is an achievement," He said. "And you should be proud of yourself."Napatitig ako sa kanya. No one told me that it was an achievement. I have always been the black sheep of the family. I am a disappointment. Someone who wouldn't reach something in life. But this man, just appear out of nowhere, made me feel how huge this is."Kaia?" He called kaya napabalik ako sa ulirat."Hmm?""Could you give me the best drink that you have," He smiled. "It would be an honor to try some of your masterpieces."And again, I was taken aback."S-Sure," I stuttered. "I'll have the waiter get it for you."Hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot niya at tumalikod na. I don't know what to say. Bago sa akin ang lahat. Kali would always praise me but she never did talk about my achievements. So I believed that whatever I have right now were just the bare minimum.Lumapit ako sa waiter at sinabi sa kanya kung ano yung order ni Lev. I also told him to get me something too. Tumango siya saka siya tumalikod. Naglakad na din ako papalapit kay Lev and sat on the seat across the table with him.The door opened and a bunch of girls started entering the premises. Nagbulong-bulungan sila habang na kay Lev ang tingin. Napailing nalang ako."You should visit this place often," I told him.Napangisi siya. "Why? You missed me?"Tumaas ang kilay ko. "You should know by now that emotional characteristics is not in my vocabulary.""Okay. Okay. Alam ko na yun. It was worth the shot." He chuckled. "Anyway, why would I visit you often then?""You attract customers," turo ko sa mga kababaihan.Napalingon siya sa mga bagong dating. Nagulat ang mga babae nang biglang lumingon si Lev sa kanila. They then avoided eye contact."Am I really that attractive?" Ngisi niya. "Ang swerte mo naman sa akin."I nodded. "You're right.""Na ang swerte mo sa akin?" He asked.Umiling ako. "Na gwapo ka. It would be more believable if I had fallen for your looks. One factor that I chose you.""Wow. So you're actually admitting that I am handsome?" Turo niya sa sarili."Oo. It's not a lie though. Gwapo ka naman talaga.""You don't know how much you made my heart skipped," Ngiti niya.Tumaas ang magkabila kong kilay. "Kinikilig ka?""It's flattering!""Well you shouldn't be. I'm only stating facts. Hindi ko intensyon ang pakiligin ka. I don't want you to get the wrong idea," I replied flatly."Ang harsh mo naman," Nguso niya. "I thought that you'd be soft-hearted.""I'm not that kind of person," Iling ko. "Anyway, bakit nga pala gusto mong makipagkita sa akin? May nangyari ba?"He snapped his fingers. "Bingo! May nangyari nga.""Ano?""My sisters wouldn't believe that I have found a bride. Maybe one reason why they wouldn't believe me is that they want me to marry an older woman," He said.Kumunot yung noo ko. Older woman? That's absurd."Then let me meet them," I suggested. "We'll say that we've grown interested towards each other.""Yun nga. I told them na dahan-dahan muna tayo. I don't want them to meet you wherein we're still knowing each other," he replied."So?""Let's have a date tomorrow," He suggested."A date?""Pupunta kasi sa parke ang mga kasali sa Marriage Season. There would be a picnic. I think it's a great opportunity for us to show them that we are really going out."I nodded. I see. Mas kapani-paniwala nga kapag makita kami ng marami. Gossips will spread like a wildfire. Makararating ito sa mga kapatid niya."Okay," I nodded. "It's a date then."It's been ten minutes past one and Lev is not here yet. Sa aming dalawa, siya talaga ang palaging hinihintay. I should be mad about his frequent tardiness but it would always remind me that he have other problems to face as well. Gaya nung nakaraan, I took consideration of the fact that he may be taking care of his mother."Wala pa ba ang batang Laurier?" My Aunt asked.May picnic nga talaga at kadalasang nandito ay yung mga kasali sa Marriage Season. May tent ang Dorchner kung saan may mesa at upuan sa ilalim nito. We also brought our van para sa ibang kakailanganin. We brought our cook para magluto sa aming kakainin. Gusto ko sanang simple lang. Okay lang naman din sa akin na ako ang magluluto. But our Aunt insisted to be grand. Ano na lang daw sasabihin ng iba kapag nakita nilang simple lang yung picnic namin. They would think that we couldn't afford such luxury. Na namumulubi na kami."Wala pa, Auntie. He must be attending his Mom," Sagot ko.Napailing siya. "Poor boy. It must hav
"Kali?" I called her name pero na kay Lev pa rin yung mga mata niya."Woah!" Lev whispered to my ear. "Magkamukha nga talaga kayo.""I failed to mention that she's my twin so," I replied."Hi... Kali, right?" Bati ni Lev. "I'm Lev Laurier."Napakurap si Kali nang mailahad ni Lev yung kamay niya sa kanya. She bit her lower lip, hesitating to shake his hand."Laurier?" Tanong niya at lumingon sa akin. "Siya ba yung hinintay natin?"I nodded. "Yes. Siya nga.""Oh," She sounded disappointed. "N-Nice to meet you, Lev. Kali nga pala. Kakambal ni Kaia."Nakipagkamayan si Kali and Lev could only smile wider. Tumaas ang magkabila kong kilay. Kali isn't usually like this. She's bubbly, even though she's an introvert. Kapag may pinakilala akong kaibigan sa kanya ay dinadaldalan niya ito. Nakakapanibago lang. "I see that you're an opposite," Komento ni Lev.Napalingon ako sa kanya habang nakakunot yung noo. "What do you mean?""Well, alam mo naman siguro yun. Your tongue is sharp while she's sof
"What's going on?" I asked Lev the moment we're left alone. Auntie and Kali went home earlier kasi sabi ko gusto ko munang kausapin si Lev. Auntie didn't like the sound of me being alone with Lev. Buti nalang tinulungan ako ni Lev at sinabing importante lang talaga ang pag-uusapan namin.As both parties bade their goodbye's, hindi nakatakas sa aking mga mata ang makahulugang tinginan nina Kali at Lev. At some point, I might have an idea why they're acting like that. Ayoko lang mag-conclude. Baka magkamali ako."What?" Tanong ni Lev."Duh. Those smiles and meaningful eye-contact," I rolled my eyes. "Seriously, Lev. Anong meron sa inyo ng kakambal ko?""Yan nga pala ang iku-kuwento ko sa'yo," He smiled. "It was Kali who helped me when I was drunk. Akala ko ikaw kasi magkamukha kayo."Tumaas ang magkabila kong kilay. "Si Kali yun?"He nodded. "She confirmed it herself after I asked.""In front of Auntie?" "Oo."Nasapo ko ang aking noo. Kaya pala. Let alone that Auntie likes Kali more t
"I-Is Lev gonna be coming over?" Tanong sa akin ni Kali.I'm in our kitchen, baking for our cake. Magb-birthday na kasi kami ni Kali bukas. It's actually my first time celebrating my birthday. Usually kasi lumalayo ako dito kapag birthday namin. Maliban sa hindi naman ako paghahandaan ni Auntie, I also don't want to remind myself how lonely I am. Wala akong mga kaibigan para i-greet ako. Not even my employees know. Si Kali lang yung nag-g-greet sa akin. It was enough though. Kahit through chats and calls lang."I didn't tell him," Sagot ko."Why not?" Nguso niya. "Isn't he like, so close to you?""I don't tell people my birthday," Iling ko. "Why not?""Because I don't celebrate," I smiled sadly. "And besides, baka busy siya bukas. He's always beside his mom.""But you should atleast invite him. Baka magtampo yun sa'yo," Sabi niya I chuckled. "Hindi na yun bata para magtampo.""Can you just invite him?" She insisted. "Madaming handa si Auntie. How are we gonna finish all of it?""Ma
I didn't expect the number of visitors that we have. Ang sabi ni Auntie na sa dinner daw yung celebration. I thought it's only gonna be us. I mean it's been awhile since I celebrated my birthday with family. Nagulat nalang ako na marami nang nakaparada sa harap ng bahay namin. I heard violins playing. Even the chattering of the people, I can hear it from where I am now."Happy Birthday, Kali! It's so nice to finally meet you," Biglang may lumapit sa akin kaya nagulat ako. "Your Auntie told me a lot of things about you. How's life being an architect?"She must've mistaken me for Kali. Hindi naman nakakagulat yun kasi magkamukhang-magkamukha kaming dalawa. Even I sometimes mistaken myself for my twin on pictures. Well, sometimes."It's Kaia po," I corrected her. Napawi yung ngiti niya sa labi na para bang nadismaya. "Oh. The disappointment," iling niya. "Oh well, happy birthday anyways."Hindi na niya hinintay yung sagot ko at agad tumalikod na. The disrespect which I expected from eve
I found myself on the bridge. Don't get me wrong. Hindi naman ako tatalon. It's just healing when I saw the place. Mahangin at walang masyadong tao. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako napunta dito. Hindi ko din alam kung nasaan na ako. I just drove my car, not knowing the directions until I found myself here. I didn't stop my tears from crawling down my cheeks. No one will judge me here. Gusto ko lang maibsan yung bigat sa aking dibdib. Life was never by my side and I guess it's too much for me to handle now. I look down the river and noticed how calm the current flow is. Pumikit ako nang mariin at huminga nang malalim. I knew that after this, I'll have to face everyone at the party. Hindi nga lang ako sigurado kung babalik ba ako ngayon or I l'll have to stay away from home muna. "I say broken bones. But death? Impossible."May biglang nagsalita kaya dali-dali kong pinahiran ang aking mga luha at nilingon yung tao. She's a she. She's wearing a black hoodie and without a make up on her fa
"Shots pa!" Abot ni Carol sa akin ng baso.I smiled at her and took the glass. Agad ko namang nilagok yung laman at inilagay sa mesa. Carol is already drunk. Napapansin ko na panay lang yung ngiti niya, tumatawa, at nage-ingles na. "Kali," Tawag ko sa kakambal. "It's okay for you to stop drinking."Kinuha ko mula sa kanya yung baso pero binawi niya naman agad. Same as how Carol is doing now, mas dumoble si Kali. She can't even open her eyes. I told her that it's okay na hindi siya iinom but she still insisted."Kaya ko pa, Kaia. I'm your big sister, okay?" She smiled, half-awake."Wow! You are younger than her?" Gulat na tanong ni Carol. "Why do you look older?""Because I'm not the type who smiles a lot?" Irap ko. "Sige na, Kali. Tama na.""Ayoko!" She resisted. Bago pa man niya mainom yung alak ay kinuha na ni Lev yung baso at siya ang uminom nito. Napanguso nalang si Kali at sinamaan ng tingin yung lalaki."Tama na," Lev said, full of authority."Bakit ayaw niyo akong painumin?
I stared at Kali's sleeping face from the mirror. Natutulog pa rin siya hanggang ngayon. I'm sure that this would be her first hangover. I'm worried kasi alam kong sobrang sakit ng first hangover niya kaya I prepared a pain reliever right by my side.Will everything be okay? Did I make the right decision? Letting Lev like Kali wouldn't cause any conflicts, right? I'm okay with it naman. Kung may makakakita man silang magkasama, then they would've thought that it was me. Except for Auntie, of course. She can differentiate us from one another.Inayos ko na yung buhok ko at naglagay ng kolorete sa mukha. I'm going to work today. Even though I am the boss and that I could choose to go and not to, I still chose to go. Kasi ayokong manatili dito sa bahay. Nakakabagot at nakakasakal."Kaia?" I heard Kali called my name.Napalingon ako sa kanya. She's trying to sit back up while holding her head. I can see how she flinched the moment she opened her eyes."You can stay in bed," Sabi ko at nila