#MTDC24: Apologies Pt.1
“Si Melody?” I asked while stirring my cup of coffee.
“Nasa taas pa po, sa kwarto niya, Ate,” sagot ni Mandy, ang anak ni Manang Anding. Noong isang araw lang ay tumawag si Manang Anding at sinabing hindi pa raw siya makababalik dahil sa arthritis niya. Namamaga pa raw ang mga tuhod niya kaya si Mandy muna ang pinapunta niya rito. Kararating niya lang kahapon.
“Ah, siya nga po pala, Ate, nakuha na raw po ni Nanay iyong pinadala niyo na pera sa kaniya. Maraming salamat po. Malaking tulong na po ‘yun sa pagpapagamot niya. Medyo may kamahalan po kasi ‘yung gamot na nireseta sa kaniya ng doktor.”
I smiled at her. “Maliit na bagay lang ‘yung binigay ko sa kaniya kumpara sa pagpapalaki at pag-aaruga niya sa akin at pati kay Melody. She’s more like a mother to me. Kaya tutulong ako sa kaniya hanggang sa abot ng makakaya ko.”
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#MTDC24: Apologies Pt.2“The last time I went to the amusement park was when you introduce Daddy Wesley to me, Mommy!” sambit ni Melody habang nasa byahe kami papunta sa amusement park.I smiled at her, then I reminisce that moment when I was struggling of finding ways to let her know about her father. ‘Yung panahon na hindi ko inakalang maghahabol si Wesley sa anak namin. That moment when I was hiding my daughter from him.Ni minsan ay hindi ko naisip na darating ang araw na magiging buo kami. Buong akala ko noon ay hinding-hindi matatanggap ni Wesley ang anak namin. What he told me before when I told him that I am pregnant with my daughter is still clear to me. Gusto niyang ipa-abort ang bata… and that’s one of the reasons why I was afraid to tell Melody about her father. But good thing, the opposite happened. Hindi nangyari iyong kinakatakutan ko noon pa man. I am thanking God for that.Hind
#MTDC25: Plead Pt.1 I immediately went closer to the gate to see if it’s really Red. Sinusundan ko siya ng tingin habang pagewang-gewang siyang naglalakad mula sa kaniyang sasakyan patungo sa gate. “What are you doing here?” tanong ko sa kaniya nang tuluyan na rin akong makalapit sa gate. Nag-angat siya ng tingin at mukhang nagulat nang makita ako. Pero ang gulat niyang ekspresyon ay agad ring napalitan ng matang nananabik nang mapagtanto kung sino ako. “Symphony…” he muttered and held on the cold bars of our gate. He intently stared at me like he's afraid that I will instantly fade in just a blink of an eye. His eyes looked red and… tired. I, then, inhaled his scent mixed with the smell of a rum that I couldn't name. Agad kumunot ang noo ko. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili at binuksan na ang gate para mas malapitan pa siya. “Lasing ka? Anong ginagawa mo rito? Bakit ka nagmamaneho nang lasing?” Unti
#MTDC25: Plead Pt.2His lips started moving. My mind was in haywire that it couldn’t think straight. I let my heart decide to do what it truly wants.I closed my eyes and started answering his kisses. I followed his lips’ rhythm. Our kiss became intense when his tongue pushed inside my mouth and it wandered every corner it. A soft moan escaped from my mouth because of the good sensation it gave me.“Red…” halos hindi ko na makilala ang sariling boses nang maramdaman ang kamay niya na unti-unting bumababa sa dibdib ko. “Red, s-stop…” sabi ko, pero kabaliktaran no’n ang gusto ng puso ko. Ni hindi ko maigalaw ang kamay ko para pigilan siya. He didn’t listen to me and continued deepening our kiss.Hinila niya ako dahilan para mapunta ako sa ibabaw niya. In one swift move, he switched our position and he’s now on top of me. My heart is racing. He continued mo
#MTDC26: Avoiding You Pt.1Without uttering a word, I hailed a taxi and went inside immediately. I gave the driver my address and asked him to leave immediately.Hindi ko na nilingon pa si Red. Mixture of different emotions is overpowering my heart and it spread throughout my whole system.Naghalo-halo na iyon na sa tingin ko ay sasabog na ang puso ko. I feel the disappointment, pain, guilt, regret, fear… and I feel… broken. Damn!Naihilamos ko ang kamay sa mukha habang tinatahak ng taxi ang daan pauwi sa amin.I flinched when my phone beeped. Dali-dali ko iyong kinuha sa bulsa ko at agad kong nakita sa screen ang pangalan ni Wesley. Nagsimula na namang magtatambol ang dibdib ko habang binubuksan ko ang mensahe mula sa kaniya.Wesley: Where are you? It’s late.Paulit-ulit ko ‘yung binasa, habang iniisip kung magre-reply ba ako o hindi. Ano naman ang sasab
#MTDC26: Avoiding You Pt.2He stilled right on his position.A part of me wants to withdraw everything I have said, but I know that that was the right thing to do. I just did the right thing to make him realize that no matter how hard he’ll try, wala na talagang pag-asa pa para sa aming dalawa. I need to do that for him to stop hoping.Maybe he found false hope when I answered to his touches and kisses… and I regret it. That was a reckless action, I admit. Ni hindi ko muna inisip kung anong maaaring maging kalabasan ng pagkakamaling iyon. And again, I let my stubborn heart decide.I know I’m stupid. After all that happened before, I should have learned my lessons. Oh, God! I should learn my lessons!Symphony naman!Ako na ang pumutol ng titigan namin nang mapagtanto na wala siyang planong iiwas ang tingin sa ‘kin. His intense stares is melting me. Parang hinuh
#MTDC27: Falling Apart Pt.1I promised myself to never hurt Red ever again.After all the pain I’d caused him years ago, I vowed to stay away from him and let him live his life peacefully.But indeed, love is something you can’t control. The more you keep it to yourself, the more it breaks you over and over again until you will be left with a millions of shattered pieces of your heart.Love is one of the sweetest thing, yet it is also one of the most devastating thing to ever exist.Love is dangerous.But maybe, I grew fond of dealing with danger that even if I already know how it can make me shattered, I still gamble my heart just to continue loving him.“Red…” my voice was almost a whisper. Kahit ako ay halos hindi na marinig ang sariling tinig.Sa likuran ko ay patuloy pa rin sa paghikbi si Sasha, samantalang sa ha
#MTDC27: Falling Apart Pt.2I feel like I was floating when I am on my way home.Sa buong oras na kasama ko ang mga kaibigan ko, umikot lang ang usapan tungkol sa Upright. I can’t be mad at Jovy just because he kept on talking about the issue and speculations about the band. Ayaw ko naman na pagbawalan siyang pag-usapan ang kung ano mang tungkol kay Red. If I will do that, magmumukha lang akong bitter. And aside from that, I know that my friends also care for the band. Lalo pa at napalapit din naman sila sa mga miyembro ng Upright noong college pa kami.While driving, my mind kept on thinking about the possibilities, and what Sasha told me at the basement parking earlier.Hindi ko maipagkakaila na ako ang dahilan kung bakit nasasaktan siya ngayon. Red is broken because of me. Pinaasa siya ni Red kaya nasaktan siya. Red chose me over her, so she went to me and begged for me to let him go.If she
#MTDC28: Tempted Pt.1“Hahayaan mo lang na mawala ang lahat sa ‘yo nang dahil lang sa akin?” halos bulong na lang ang lumabas sa bibig ko.Hindi ako makapaniwala. This is not the Red that I’ve loved. I feel like he’s now a stranger to me.“Sa tingin mo, kapag pumayag ako sa gusto mo, magiging masaya tayo? Red… hindi mo ba naisip ang mararamdaman ko? Sa tingin mo, hindi ko sisisihin ang sarili ko kapag nangyaring wala nang matira sa ‘yo? And how about your band mates? Hindi lang ang pangarap mo ang masisisira. Pati rin ang sa kanila. Kakayanin ba ng konsensya mo iyon, Red?”I looked at him straight in the eye. Nagbabaka sakali akong makitaan siya ng kahit kaunting pagsisisi sa lahat ng mga sinabi niya, pero wala. His eyes only expressed sorrow, pain, and longing.“Red… please…” I begged. “Please… let me go. Tanggap