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Quarter to 2 am nang matapos namin ang movie, Elijah insists na dito nalang din matulog sina Riz and Jemi but they both refused dahil may mga lakad pa daw sila early in the morning kaya naman wala na rin nagawa si Eli kundi ang pumayag.

Eli offered na ihatid sila kahit hanggang sa parking lot lang at ako naman ay nag umpisa nang magligpit ng mga kalat sa living room.

After cleaning the living room I strolled to Elijah's room and make my way through the bathroom to brush my teeth.

I heard Elijah's footsteps entering his room as well and it's not late before he swung his head to the doorstep of the bathroom as he stood there without his shirt on and just his black cotton shorts while watching me through our reflection in the mirror.

He stared at me for a minute as he crossed his arms against his broad chest while leaning to the door frame before he decided to open his mouth to talk..

"Carlo invited me to his party next week," he started, voice deep and low.

Carlo?

Oh, Amber's boy bestfriend. Well you see Elijah is the complete opposite of mine, sa aming apat na magkakaibigan ako yung hindi sanay makipag-socialize sa maraming tao. I'm fine with three to five mutual friends around me while Elijah had these long-list of friends. I am very much aware of how social butterfly Elijah can be, in fact he has a lot of friends perhaps it is because of the nature of his work, also photography literally helped him to bring out this friendly side of him.

"And?" I asked back before taking the mouthwash and started gargling.

I felt him entering the bathroom as well,

"What do you mean 'And'? of course if it is Carlo's party then for sure Amber will be there as well," he hissed while taking his own toothbrush. 

I spit out the mouthwash and stared at him with brows furrowed.

"So? Carlo was your friend too even before this break up thing happened Eli. I'm sure he's inviting you over because he is counting on you as his friend."

He shook his head in dismay as he brushed his teeth,

"Listen to me my dearest bestfriend, your time of sulking is over. It's time for you to get out and live your life as you should." I told him as I crossed my arms against my chest and make my way to his bedroom leaving him behind.

"What do you want me to do then? Forget about her just like that?" he hissed when he came out with a white shirt on his hand,

"That's not what I meant--" I was cut off due to my phone ringing which is on the console table near the bedroom door, my forehead creased annoyed by the caller.

Who the hell calls at this hour of time?!

I walked through it to see who it was and my face fell at the sight of my ex's name in the screen.

Simon calling..

What the heck does he still want? Tsk.

I purposely declined the call as I rolled my eyes out in annoyance.

"Who's that?" Eli asked, I turned my neck and saw him sitting, no, leaning back at the edge of his bed, legs spread as he used his arms as a leverage of his own weight, he brushed his dark hair with his hands and looking so fresh with his white shirt on. His prying eyes waiting for my words to come..

I turn my cellphone into silent mode saka ako nakasimangot na lumapit kay Eli sa kama.

"The stupid ex of mine named Simon," I breathed out as I lay on my side of the bed.

He snapped his head towards me with a raised brow,

"I thought you and him were over? What does he want?" takang tanong niya.

I sighed.

"Exactly, right? I thought he doesn't want to do anything with me anymore when he agreed to broke up with me and now look at him,"

He shook his head while grinning,

"The poor guy probably regretting his life decisions," natatawa niyang sabi followed by the roll of his tounge to moisten his lower lip.

"I don't think so. Maybe he's just trying to mess  up with my head, or maybe he's just boring with his life again that's why he remembered me. He really thought I would be crawling back to him after our break-up because that's what I mostly do." sabi ko saka umirap nang alalahanin ang sarili kong mga kagagahan.

"Bakit nga ulit kayo nagdecide na mag-break this time?" Eli asked again as he adjusted himself, giving me all of his attention.

"He said he was tired and wanted to experience new things all by himself. There were a lot of new opportunities knocking to his door which I can't really relate so it's obviously making serious conflict between us," paliwanag ko naman.

He nodded his head while listening to me intently.

"So clearly you're giving him space for him to find himself? You're letting him find what he really want for his life?" he asked perplexed and I nodded,

"I'm not selfish Eli, he's doing that for his own good and I won't stop him for doing what he really want for his future even if I'm not included in his plans. Plus, I kinda really felt that our relationship was already on the edge of the cliff, our differences just made a hard push that we both decided to end it." dagdag ko pa as I fiddled my fingers on the hem of my PJ's.

"I understand you, but I just can't help not to wonder.. how can you both end it up just like that? I mean.. hindi ba kayo nanghihinayang sa ilang taon niyong magkasama?" he asked, curiousity filled in his eyes.

"He was my first boyfriend, first love, almost my first to everything and it seriously broke my heart when he decided to broke up with me. But again, I can't really stop him for pursuing his future plans. He wants space for himself and I did too, plus I can't disregard the fact that there were certain factors in our relationship that we're both lacking so I kinda understand his share of decision." I told him while shrugging my shoulders.

He continued nodding his head while nibbling his lower lip.

I sighed.

"Alam mo ba minsan naiisip ko maybe our sex was too boring for his like and that I didn't satisfy him enough," I blurted out and he raised his brows while looking at me intently,

"Don't get me wrong, I tried to spice things up with him but he'd just straight up saying 'no', which I honestly find so offensive, nakaka-insecure sa part ko bilang babae. Pakiramdam ko I'm not attractive enough for him para i-turn down ako," kwento ko pa.

Totoo naman 'yon. I tried my best in bed but Simon was just too stiff about it, telling me that he's too tired of his work to even consider exploring our sex life. As long as he's done it's okay with him, without having to reciprocate the deal, and the ending was he's already finished without me reaching my climax too. It's frustrating, but yeah, that's how it goes with him.

He continued to raise his brow while eyeing me intently,

"By the sound of it, it seems like it's very complicated between you two, sex shouldn't be like that especially if you're doing it with the person you love," he confided, so I rolled my eyes off him.

He hit the right spot. Damn.

"Well that's just what I thought. But still, I know there were a lot of factors why Simon and I broke up. It's not just about sex, alright?" paglilinaw ko.

He nodded his head before brushing his hair using his hands while licking down his lips.

"Maybe you're right, but sex was a major factor in a relationship, alongside with trust and proper communication. Plus, a woman should not feel this way when it comes to sex, Antoinette." he said followed by an upward smile.

I don't have a problem talking out these things to Elijah because of the fact that he won't judge me for the way that I am. He's a great listener and adviser at the same time, in fact all of his ideas and suggestions were quite usable whenever I'm having a hard time dealing with my shits. Plus, this is Elijah we are talking about, my comfort person.

I heaved out a loud sigh before I plopped myself down and meet the comfiness of his warm bed as I stare at the ceiling above.

"I don't know anymore Eli. It's just frustrating to think that I'm already twenty four and yet with awful sex experiences. Gosh, sometimes naiisip ko nalang na magkaroon nalang ng fuck buddy just to meet my sexual desires," I blurted out casually as I yawned.

I heard Elijah's coughs kaya naman napabangon ako ulit para silipin siya,

"What did you say? I mean no offense-- Okay, I understand.. I just thought that you liked it done in a most... natural way and.." he trailed off at alanganin akong tinitigan.

Ako naman ngayon ang napasimangot.

"You really can't blame me Eli. Besides, ang sabi ko lang naman is minsan naiisip ko lang, hindi ko naman sinabing gagawin ko." I huffed, saka nahiga ulit at tinalikuran siya followed by the roll of my eyes because of annoyance.

Okay, binabawi ko na yung sinabi kong he won't judge me for the way that I am. Tsk.

I heard his little chuckles when he adjusted himself to lay beside me. I frowned when I felt his strong tattooed arm softly and slowly making its way to snake up to my tummy, before he placed his face in the crook of my neck.

"Hey, I'm not judging you if that's what you're thinking. I didn't mean it to sound like that. I'm sorry for being stupid.. hat's how you felt and it's valid. It's just that I'm shocked to hear those things from you.." malambing niyang sabi.

Hindi ako umimik at mas lalo lang niyang hinigpitan ang yakap niya sa akin. The minty scent of his mouth attacks my nose as well as the fresh scent of his masculine bodywash mixed with sweet fragrance which I truly loved about him.

"Hey, I'm sorry.. don't be mad." he breathed out in my ears..

Again, hindi ako umimik.

"Please don't be mad, Anj? Perhaps.. I can offer a little.. help." he trailed off which made me creased my forehead..

Help?

"Help? How?" I mumbled and I felt him smirking as he pulled out from his backhug to sat up straight, kaya naman mabilis din akong bumangon at naupo din paharap sa kanya.

I eyed him silently as I crossed my arms against my chest waiting for his words to come..

"Yes a help, to your sexual desires." he blunted out casually.

I creased my forehead out of curiousity as I squint my eyes on him.

"So.. are you trying to say that you're going to help me find a man to be my fuck buddy? Is that what you're trying to say?" I asked perplexed,

He shot his brows up before chuckling followed by the shake of his head.

"Uhmm. kind of.. I mean.. if you preferred it that way..  I can help you find a guy.. but actually that's not what I'm trying to imply when I told you I can help you to meet your sexual desires." he said while looking at me with both worried and careful expression.

I rolled out my tounge to lick my lower lip before I gave him a very serious look. He's confusing me right now. I twisted my mouth before asking him..

"You're confusing me right now Eli. Just get straight to the point."

He cleared his throat. He heaved out a heavy sigh before he settled his dark brown orbs on mine.

Tinititigan niya ako ng mabuti and halata sa kanya na nagdadalawang isip siya kung sasabihin ba niya o hindi yung nasa isip niya.

"Antoinette.." he called first.

I tilt my head as I wait for his words to come..

"I.. can help you.. to your sexual desires."

I waited for more words to come but he grew silent after saying those line. He's silent while watching my reaction closely. He waited for my reactions but I stayed silent.

I was trying to understand his words. Kung tama ba ako ng pagkakaintindi sa mga sinabi niya.

My silence is the complete opposite of what is happening to me internally. My mind was rumbling because of the idea he's imposing.

I breathed out a sigh..

".. you?" I trailed off.

He slowly nod his head before biting his own lip.

"yes.. me." he replied, confidence is growing in his expression.

Mabilis kong hinablot ang unan at hinampas sa mukha niya.

Is he for real?!

Did he think I'm stupid?!

I clearly understand what he's trying to say.

Him? Helping me out to my sexual desires?! Did he mean us doing sex?! Oh my fucking God!!!

God damn this shithead!

That's it! I'm done with my bestfriend! If ever the aliens were listening, take this man out of my life!!

"Ouch!! What was that for woman?!" reklamo niya.

I rushed out to the bed and stood there in front of him, giving him a scornful look. He must explain it to me briefly or I'll misinterpret his words and forget that he exist in this lifetime.

"Are you crazy?! Do you honestly think that your idea was superb right now?!! That was absurd Elijah! You knew that it is clearly stupid! There's no way in hell that we will have sex! You know what, forget the helping part! Never mind! I'm fine with my own!"

"Jesus! Calm the fuck down, Antoinette." he breathed out when he saw my offended expression.

He stood up with his knees onto his bed while looking at me with apologetic expression..

"Listen, I'm sorry I didn't mean to sound like a maniac or what! I was just trying to make it easy for you.. I didn't mean it to came out that way. I respect you more than life itself and you know that! I was just giving out possibilities! Please, hear me out first.." he pleaded.

I squinted my eyes still standing there three meters apart from him.

"You better explain it to me or else I'll chop off your dick into pieces." I warned him.

He scratch his brows as he looked at me intently.

God damn it, it's three in the morning and we are here arguing about sex?!!

Goodness gracious!!

He released a loud sigh and settled his chocolate brown eyes on me before he dropped the words that made me rethink my friendship with him...

"First of all, who says friends can't fuck each other?"