I never sleep in, Iโve got too much work to actually allow myself more than ofur hours of sleep. Itโs not enough but once a year i treat myselg with a week off where i do nothing but catch up on sleep and pray that my pack doesnโt catch fire while Iโm away. So today was a rarety for me. It wasnโt my choice to be very honest. But when i told my new friend aurielle that i was going to be busy, she pointed out that if i crashed one day from over working my pack would fall into the hands of someone who would likely ruin my hard work. That haunted me.I love my half brother but heโs a party boy. He takes being my beta seriously but nothing else. He spent our youth drinking and partying, and getting into so many fights. Itโs a miracle heโs alive. The thought or dying one day and having him run my pack since i have no children was a nightmare to me. So i made myself clock off my duties early- eleven pm, that was the best i could do- and i went home to sleep.Now Iโm up at seven am and i f
The sound of water running put an ease on my worries. I could smell myself and Matthias on the sheets. He was taking his usual after sex shower, while I lay here. I moved around on the bed, feeling more giddy than Iโd been in days. Maybe months.This was one of the only times when I could pretend he was truly my husband. Thatโs strange to say, seeing as I wear a ring that legally binds us together. We live in the same house and all that. But if Iโve learned anything, itโs that none of those things make you husband and wife. But in this moment, after he and I have connected physically, this is when I feel like a true wife. Although this isnโt the only reason for the huge smile on my face. Part of this smile is attributed to something even better. Something that I think will break the walls heโs put between us. I know it will. My periodโs been late. And Iโm never late. I was worried, thatโs why I decided to take a pregnancy test, and boy, oh boy, did I get the most amazing news. Matt
Hearing him bring up the word โpunishedโ, my heart sank to my stomach. The tears Iโd been fighting away broke free. Pouring down my face. โNo, no, please. Iโm begging. Iโm begging you, I didnโt know. Iโll never wear pink again. Iโll never wear silk again.โ I tried. I tried everything to explain, but Matthias had that look that I was used to. The look that said he was thinking of Nerissa and the sight of me made him sick.โYou never learn. I have to tell you this over and over. You will never be her. You can never be, Nerissa. She was amazing. I would have sold your soul in place of hers.โโIโm sorry.โโYouโre always sorry! Always fucking sorry. Go to the study, and kneel there. This time Iโm giving you twelve hours to learn your lesson.โI froze. That was the longest time heโd ever given me. Twelve hours? Oh my god. Iโve done it right for months, trying to avoid being punished. The last time I was there for eight hours and I nearly starved to death. I ended up passing out due to dehy
:Flashback- Three Years Ago:When Nerissa asked me to accompany her on a trip, I said no. About ten to twenty times, but I eventually caved in when she said she wanted to make up for every bad blood between us. Honestly, the two-day trip had been kind of nice. But on our way back, something happened. I was driving. Iโm not sure how the accident happened.But I know it happened, and I was found with only minor injuries. Nerissa though? The car had been too wrecked, and with no other sign of her... well, she was pronounced dead. My parents had been sad, but initially, they were alright and slightly glad that I was okay. The next night, though, that was when I realized what my place was. Despite being their biological daughter, Nerissa is the one they truly love.That night, the house was too quiet. The kind of quiet that made my skin crawl, that made my stomach twist in a way I couldn't explain. I didnโt know then that silence could be a warning. I didnโt know that by morning, nothing
:End Of Flashback:I still remember that night. How my own father had treated me over a piece of paper. They took Nerissaโs word as gold. They hadnโt listened to me. My own father said the rogues who took me as a child should have killed me, that he shouldnโt have rescued me. What a man, huh? Heโd left me out in the cold to die, to suffer. Someone had saved me, though. Iโm not sure who. I only remember seeing sharp golden eyes. The only person I know with those eyes is Matthias. He saved me. Perhaps he thought I was someone else. But in that moment, I saw him as my savior - and I gave him my heart without a second thought.He carried me all the way home and set me down at the doorstep. As I walked my healed body back into what was no longer considered my home, my father barely looked at me. Did he apologize? No. Did he ask how I was okay? Not even once. He made a statement that night, and now we donโt speak. I send them money whenever they text me, but I donโt say a word to them.Th
Turns out I was right to worry. Getting a divorce form is not easy. I went online to search, and the only way to get the council to send a form was to contact one of their messengers. Which seems easy, but the messengers donโt bother with divorce forms. They know itโs a tireless thing, and getting one to reply is difficult. Iโd need to know someone who can talk to one for me. Normally, getting a divorce shouldnโt be hard. For humans, that is. As for us wolves, the council decides whether or not you get separated. Youโd need to convince them. I think they make the whole process tiring, so you donโt go through with it. Sighing, I zipped up my dress. Matthiasโs mother should know someone. Iโll contact her after tonight. I wonโt tell her itโs for a divorce, she might not agree to call her contact. The weird thing is, his parents love me. They actually love me. They think Iโm wonderful and just the right person for their son. If only he felt the same. I canโt ponder what he feels anym
Iโm not sure why I came to this stupid event. I wasnโt obligated to do so. I was simply bored. Dealing with my pack, the council, a lot of travel, and so much more. Nothing that doesnโt feel like a routine. Coming to this should be a good distraction. Thatโs what I thought initially.But being the only council member at this event means everyone is coming up to me to pass on greetings. Hoping Iโd notice them. Iโm like a wealthy man in a pool of poor people.As rude as that analogy is, itโs the best description I have.I checked the time on my watch, only five minutes. I canโt leave anytime soon. Iโve got a duty.When a couple approaches me, I bite back my sigh as I feel the dread.โAlpha Cassiel Aldric, Iโm glad you could make it.โ I turned slowly to face them. My eyes and wolf donโt even register the male. My gaze is immediately drawn to the girl. Beautiful, full golden brown hair, pink l1ps, fair skin, and a gorgeous set of amber eyes.Eyes that scan over my face with interest but w
The breeze from the balcony brushes against my skin, cool and calming, like natureโs attempt to soothe my fraying nerves. I exhale softly, trying to settle the whirlwind of emotion stirring in my chest. But I can feel Alpha Cassiel's eyes on meโsharp, golden, curious. The man is... utterly enthralling. Not just handsome in the traditional sense, but arresting. Magnetic. The kind of presence that makes a room pause. His scent reaches me, subtle yet intoxicating, and it raises goosebumps along my arms.He hadnโt batted an eye when I declined alcohol earlier. No judgment, no probing questions. Just a nod and a quiet order to have a mocktail made instead. That small gesture had said more than words could.Being out here, away from the party and its clinking glasses, forced laughter, and lingering tension, shouldโve made me feel better. But instead, it made the anxiety louder in my head. Every quiet second was another second for my doubts to scream.Can I really do this?Being a pregnant r
I never sleep in, Iโve got too much work to actually allow myself more than ofur hours of sleep. Itโs not enough but once a year i treat myselg with a week off where i do nothing but catch up on sleep and pray that my pack doesnโt catch fire while Iโm away. So today was a rarety for me. It wasnโt my choice to be very honest. But when i told my new friend aurielle that i was going to be busy, she pointed out that if i crashed one day from over working my pack would fall into the hands of someone who would likely ruin my hard work. That haunted me.I love my half brother but heโs a party boy. He takes being my beta seriously but nothing else. He spent our youth drinking and partying, and getting into so many fights. Itโs a miracle heโs alive. The thought or dying one day and having him run my pack since i have no children was a nightmare to me. So i made myself clock off my duties early- eleven pm, that was the best i could do- and i went home to sleep.Now Iโm up at seven am and i f
I might not be the smartest beta in the world, but Iโm definitely smart enough to know when something is about to go down with Matthias. I mean, I know him. He might not know a thing about me, but I know enough about him to fully steal his identity. As creepy as that sounds.I only know what I know because I loved him the entirety of our marriage. But I knew the second I saw Matthiasโs friend that I was in a bit of trouble. Eric is his name. Himbo to the core. Thick in the vein, empty in the head. Heโs amongst the elite forces that Matthias created to protect the pack. You donโt need brains for that. I could tell he was going to report back to Matthias. Not because he thought I was cheating, but because Alpha Aldric is kind of a celeb. His reputation is gold. No, worth more than gold. I sighed and sat on my bed as Matthias shut the door behind him. I took my shoes off one at a time, waiting for him to start this already tense conversation.โWhen did you two become friends?โDo I t
I donโt know why it bothered me. The entire day, while I worked, I kept checking that picture. It happened every four hours, then escalated to every thirty minutes. I couldnโt help myself. There was just something there that bothered me. Why was she with him? What were they doing? Are they friends? Is she trying to sabotage me and my chances of getting into the council? Why is she doing such a thing?What could she and Alpha Aldric have to discuss?I need to know what theyโre up to. It bothers me. It truly does. I finally caved halfway into my work and called her. โMatthias, is everything okay?โ Those were her first words to me. I could hear someone in the background. What if she is pregnant? Was she sleeping with him? No, thatโs ridiculous. Alpha Cassiel is a busy man, and up until a few nights ago, he didnโt know my wife. Iโm assuming. โUm, I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch today.โโItโs already past the time for lunch, Matthias. And are you alright? Why do you suddenl
After the ordeal of the night before, I knew I needed to keep some distance from Aurielle. Nerissa never mentioned the way her parents treated Aurielle. She always told me they loved Auri more than they did her. I mean, itโs expected. She is their biological daughter. I assumed they tried to love them both, but I believed Aurielle was the favorite. To see him slap her made me feel angry. Who does that? Who hits their own daughter because sheโs getting a divorce? Thatโs disgusting. I had to throw him out, and now I donโt understand what to do about this feeling clawing at me. How long has this been happening? Has Aurielle just hidden her parents' mistreatment of her from her sister and me?I almost laughed at myself. Why would Aurielle come to me with her problems? Still, it doesnโt feel right knowing that sheโd been.... I mean, itโs not like I treated her any better, but itโs not like I hit her even once. I wasnโt raised that way. Sleep eluded me that night. I hated the way the si
I slept like a baby for two hours before waking up. I just couldnโt let myself rest. I needed to go and check those papers to be sure Iโd filled out every important part. My reasons for wanting a divorce. My reasons for wanting to separate from my alpha. Whether it was mutual, I hadnโt checked that part. I chose that I was the one seeking to end the marriage. I made sure everything was in place. Iโd go to the council tomorrow to turn these papers in. I needed to guard them with my life. Whereโs my phone?I looked around my bedroom for my bag and spotted it lying on the floor next to the bed. I reached into it for my cell phone and sighed with gratitude when I found it. Iโm not sure why Iโm on edge. My cheek still stings, and my body feels like it has been through shit. And my elbow is sore as hell.I should probably sleep more. That was what I said to myself as I clutched the divorce papers and unlocked my phone. There were three messages, but only one caught my eye.Cassiel Aldric
My father protested. โWhy? Is she not meeting your needs? I know itโs strange for a luna to not have a child after three years of marriage, but surely sheโll have one soon.โFirstly, damn that man to hell. How am I supposed to have a child when Matthias uses condoms, and the one time he doesnโt, I end up being branded a liar for ending up pregnant. How is this my fault? They all expect too much from me. I ignored my parents and stood. โAre you being honest? You signed those papers?โHe nodded, taking bites of his steak. He cut another piece but stopped, looking up at me. โYou donโt deserve the title of luna. You donโt deserve to be called Aurielle Crowe. Youโre worth less than the dirt on the ground.โHe was being cruel on purpose. There was no need to say something like that. There was no need to undermine me. Does he have any clue what Iโve done for him? Putting my life on hold for three years, he doesnโt even know the payment plans for any of his servants, he doesnโt know who fixe
My lunch with Cassiel had been helpful and also painful. Heโd consoled me while I bawled my eyes out like some baby. I blame my ever-growing hormones. My omega was just as upset as I was. Being in Cassielโs warm hug had helped me relax a little, he made sure I was okay before letting go. And he insisted I eat the food I'd ordered. Even made sure I ate some dessert and held my hair over the ice bucket when my stomach reacted to it. He rubbed my back and held my hair, then walked me to the bathroom after. It was humiliating, or it should have been. But Cassiel Aldric is an amazing friend. He didnโt complain, he just wanted me to be okay. I felt overwhelmed by that. Now, in a cab back home, chewing on some mint gum, I wondered how my life had gotten to this point. I agree with my father on some level. Those kidnappers should have killed me. Cruel to say, but I felt like death would have been easier than being alienated in two homes, all because of one girl. Iโm exhausted and all I
I took a cab to the restaurant thirty minutes before Cassiel was supposed to arrive. I was shocked to find him already there. He looked out of place, his hair was slicked back in a neat and classy way. His golden eyes moved around the restaurant as though searching for someone. He looked like heโd come straight from the council. He wore a button-up white shirt, which heโd rolled the sleeves, and placed his long coat jacket on the chair next to him. I was stunned for a moment until his gaze landed on mine. He beckoned me over, and I nervously went. โAlpha Cassiel... um-โ the restaurant was empty. Come to think of it, I didnโt even give the lady at the reception my name. She had just motioned for me to go in. โRelax, I didnโt want the nosy people carrying my face all over the papers. So I rented out the entire restaurant for the next two hours.โThat is a rough sentence to process. He did what? For how long? How much money does he have?He pushed his seat back, walking over to me. C
I arrived at my grandmotherโs soon enough. She lives on the edge of town to preserve her peace, sheโs not really a fan of people. But my father has her house filled with more than enough staff to care for her. I would have gotten here quicker had I not stopped to grab the divorce papers. The phone call with my mother was an eye opener. My parents love aurielle. They were not upset when Nerissa died. In fact, I think my mother was a bit happy. Not because my mate died, but because I wouldnโt have to marry her. And here she is, planning, plotting for ways I can keep Aurielle stuck in a marriage with me. Why would I want that?And it really dawned on me that Iโm fighting against a divorce when I should be jumping. I donโt know what to do. If this was a pack problem, I could answer this in seconds flat. But in my own marriage....The last time I let my parents decide was after aurielle died and my mother decided I needed a luna for pack reasons. I didnโt want her, I didn't want to marry