Keegan Confesses (continued)

Brees was alright according to Baylen, but I still had my mom drop me off at the Hamlin’s house the next morning. I was there when she woke up and I was so happy to see her up and moving about. I unfortunately intercepted some flowers that were sent to the house for her and I had a feeling they were from that Jeff kid. When she opened them they were and the little turd even asked her to go to homecoming. I guess I couldn’t be upset. Baylen asked me to keep my feelings to myself and I did, so how could she know I wanted to take her to homecoming?

The year all started to fall on me like a ton of bricks. I watched Brees date this sophomore and she got more and more comfortable with him each day. She even invited him to my birthday party. I agreed of course because what reason would I have to say no? When she got to my party the world could have stopped, because all I saw was her. She had her curls down, which I loved. She usually puts them into a cute messy bun, but they were flowing and beautiful. She had on a romper that accentuated every part of her body in the best way. I was done for. After our parents had a small argument, she ran off and I went to find her. We ended up embraced behind the barn for a moment. I wanted to kiss her so badly that day. I think she wanted the same. I wasn’t sure before, but after that embrace I was almost positive. We just had a connection that no one understood and I couldn’t do anything about it.

After two months of her avoiding me and not really talking to me, it came to a head. She came into the front room area while I was upset one day. I had just heard my parents get into yet another fight. They had been doing this a lot since I got injured. I think my dad was upset that my college prospects went down after missing the last two games and I think my mom blamed my dad for me being hurt because of how hard he pushed me. Brees was there for me and she just wanted me to be alright. When she reached her arms out to hug me, it was all I wanted. To be near her, to hold her. I needed that more than she even knew. Everything about that moment felt so right. The way she smelled like candy and vanilla, the way her curls hung loosely around her face, the way she comforted me, everything. I always kissed Brees on the head since she was little and it was just something that I have always done even as we became teens. This time was different. I kissed her forehead, but wanted more. I waited for her to pull away, but as I kissed her down her face she leaned into me more. Finally, our lips were right there by one another and I took a chance. She didn’t kiss me back at first and I thought I had misread the situation, but the next connection we had, she fully wanted it and we had the most passionate kiss ever. I had been waiting for this, for these sparks that I didn’t have with Jada. I wanted her so badly. My body ached for her. She was all I had wanted.

I had planned to tell Baylen that I could no longer hide my feelings for Brees the next day, when I walked in on Baylen saying that Brees was keeping a secret about my dad. I didn’t mean to lash out at her. I didn’t want to hurt her, but my heart was breaking knowing that someone I trusted so much could be hiding something so serious about my family. When I confronted my dad, he actually confessed to having an affair with a lady from work and told my mom he wanted a divorce. It broke my mom’s entire heart and I had to watch her for weeks cry and blame herself. It made me have anger and resentment towards Brees for opening this can of worms. But after talking with Baylen, I realized no one was to blame besides my dad. I also didn’t know how to apologize to Brees for being such an ass the last few weeks. She made sure to avoid me and even stayed in her bedroom when I came over. I had told Jada about our kiss and we decided to be just friends. She was a little upset, but she said she would never stand in the way of true love. Which is exactly what this was. How could I tell her how I feel if we weren’t speaking? I was being a complete jerk and she had every right to ice me out. The twins had their celebration coming up, so I would possibly have my chance there if Jeff didn’t come.