O-My-Gosh

Three months had passed and it was finally time for spring break. I had managed to ignore Keegan and be a better girlfriend to Jeff. We celebrate our six month anniversary on Monday. He had his license now, so he was able to come and pick me up. He took me on a food tour. We tried beignets, gumbo, crawfish, jambalaya, lobster, muffulettas and pralines. By the end I thought I was going to vomit. I was so full. Jeff took me to an outdoor jazz bar and we listened to music for an hour before he drove me home. It was the perfect date. It was around 7:00 pm when we got to my house, but my brother and my mom weren’t back yet. My mom had warned me that I could not have Jeff over when they weren’t there, so we sat in the driveway for a bit.

“It’s so dark out already. I can’t wait for summer hours. When it’s bright until almost 10:00 pm!” I gushed.

The summer time was my absolute favorite. The ice cream, the pool parties and the bonfires. I got so excited just thinking about it. The weather was stupid hot, but I didn’t mind.

“Speaking of summer,” Jeff said, “would you want to come to Europe with my family this summer on our yacht? You would have your own room per my mom. She said if I didn’t invite you I was not coming,” he chuckled.

I knew my face was stunned at that moment. Did he really just invite this small town Louisiana girl to Europe?

“Oh my gosh yes, Jeff! I have to ask my mom, but of course I would love to spend the summer with you and your family,” I beamed.

I unbuckled my seat belt and lunged for his lips. This deserved a kiss unlike any other moment. I climbed part way into his seat but not all the way onto his lap.

We kissed for a while. The way he touched me was always so gentle. He started to slide his hand down the front of my dress. I normally would stop him, but I didn’t this time. He unbuttoned the top two buttons and waited a second. He stopped kissing me and looked at me. I knew he wanted consent. I nodded and he began to kiss my neck. His hand started to caress my chest area and I felt chills go all the way down my spine. Wow, did that feel good. He worked his way back up to my lips and kissed me so deeply that I thought I might squeal. I wanted all of this that was happening. He slowly started moving his hand up my dress and touched my thigh. He was gentle and soft with every touch. I didn’t stop him. He kept sliding his hand up my thigh until he was between my legs. He rubbed the outside of my underwear very slowly and methodically. I opened my legs a bit more as he massaged the area. My body started to tense up as he kept kissing me and rubbing me there. I could hear myself moaning in his ear. He had a rhythm going and it felt so good. I moaned and laid back, enjoying what was happening. Until suddenly everything felt like it was euphoric. As my body jolted, I clenched my thighs around his hand, still with my head against the seat. The jolts began to slow down and I was able to sit up a bit more. When I could once again control my body, I pulled his hand away gently. He kissed my lips and cheek with a few light pecks and sat back in his seat.

I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t truly even know what had just happened to my body, but it felt amazing and I wanted it to happen again.

“Jeff, I uh…so that was new,” I managed to sputter.

He smiled and kissed my hand. “I hope you enjoyed that, my baby. I love making you feel good, Brees,” he said, moving my curls from my face.

“Oh that felt amazing. I don’t really know what happened to my body Jeff. That’s so embarrassing,” I said, sliding down in my seat a bit.

“Oh babe, that’s an orgasm. I take it that was your first time having one?” he asked.

I nodded shyly and looked out the window. What if my mom or brother had come home when that was happening. I felt so ashamed. Then it hit me. This was how my entire summer started off. Talking about Jeff fingering some girl and now that girl is me. Did I get fingered? Was that what happened? He didn’t actually touch my skin or bare body, but I don’t know the technicalities of any of this. I didn’t want this feeling. I had just experienced something special with my boyfriend and I am thinking terrible things instead of telling him how much I love him. I had to get it together.

“I’m gonna go inside if you don’t mind. I’m tired and I just want to lay down,” I said, grabbing the door handle.

Jeff grabbed hold of my arm and hand. “Babe, I hope I didn’t do something wrong. I really just wanted to make you feel good for our six month anniversary. I promise,” he said.

He was so apologetic and he didn’t have to be. He didn’t do anything wrong. Why was I letting him beat himself up? It really did feel so good and I doubt that is the last time I will have him do that.

I grabbed his face with both hands, “I love you Jeff and you didn’t do anything wrong,” I said, kissing him deeply and passionately.

He smiled from ear to ear, “I love you too Brees,” he said, kissing me one last time before I got out of his car.

As I walked to the front door, my head was spinning. Did I just tell Jeff I loved him? Did I love him? I wanted to so badly, but everything in me kept thinking about how Keegan would react if he knew what we had just done. I’m sure Keegan has done this with plenty of girls. The girls fawned over him and his baby blues at school. I got jealous thinking about it. Who was Keegan Patts hooking up with these days? That may be a Casey question. I had to tell her instantly about my car sex. Almost sex? I don’t even know. She would know for sure. She and Cyman had done other things and she was excited for me to try some things with Jeff. Losing my virginity was always something I thought would be special for Keegan and I, but it doesn’t seem like it will happen at this rate. I’ll hold on to that until I’m really ready and truly in love.

As I got into my house, my phone started to ring. I had to find it in my purse, but when I did, I saw who was calling. It was Keegan Patts.